Deg!

Two friends who looked at each other full of a question. What? Why should Endru? Why should Endru be shunned? Fredi again released those words with a question.

"I'll tell Jebran," Fredi said.

"I think they are close, even that closeness is not just a friend," Fredi said.

Suddenly Dilan slumped into a corner of the view, bringing his body leaning against the body of the pillow. His eyes dimmed for a moment as he dripped with jealousy. Fredi turned to Dilan, "what are you doing?" Fredi asked slowly.

"Leave me alone! Tell Jebran to keep an eye on Emira always. Tell him that Endru is looking for him. Don't let them meet," Dilan pleaded.

Those words stopped Fredi's questioning. He nodded slowly, "Yes, I will!" Strictly rushed away.

Dilan just stared at the silent room from the voices. The sunlight that broke through the window dimmed Dilan's vision. His eyes closed for a moment, holding back the pain he felt.

Did Dilan feel that extraordinary jealousy? From the look and everything that looks really never deceive others.

Fredi stepped between the hospital corridors, while I saw him walking in silence. I immediately approached him, Fredi. "Fredy!" I screamed running.

"Oh, you're Emira," Fredi said.

"I want to visit Dilan," I said as I showed him the food parcel.

Fredi saw me followed by a smile, "oh, I have to go back to the house. It's good that you are here, I can take a shower first," Fredi said, nodding.

"Okay, okay!" I also waved at Fredi who left the corridor, while I continued to walk towards Dilan's room.

My hand eagerly holding the doorknob, I saw him lying so calm and closed. I put the parcel on the table beside him, then I took a chair and looked at him.

"Dilan, come to your senses!" I said while glancing at that sweet face.

A man who looks healthy, but is injured on the inside. It's not that I refuse love, but I can't force myself to choose.

I saw his slanted eyes, long lines, sharp nose, tan skin, and scratches on the left side of his hand. That curiosity prompted me to look, "oh!" I said.

I held his scratched hand, but the sudden movement of his hand made me flinch from his consciousness.

Deg! Deg! Deg!

"Oh, I'm sorry," I said.

Dilan lit his eyes, and tried to position his seat on the pillow. I immediately helped him to be more upright, then we looked at each other. I hear and feel this heartbeat at every glance. I lowered my gaze, then shifted to sit on the other side.

"Are you okay?" I asked as I unpacked the parcel.

Some sandwiches I bought for him, and I tore the bread for him. "Ah!" I told him to open his mouth.

"I just had porridge," he said.

I loosened his hand again, but he grabbed my hand quickly.

"I will," he pleaded.

I saw that gaze was so sad and dim, I felt uncomfortable from that sweet smile. Why me? What is wrong with me? Should not! This can't happen. He is my best friend, I must not spoil this good relationship. I pushed my hand to feed him a sandwich.

He ate it slowly, I offered him a small smile.

"Your brother is fine, Jebran has brought him!" I said.

Dilan smiled, then he took my hand and stroked it gently. I looked down in shame, when he did.

Deg!

"Why? Are you shame?" he said. Yes, this really embarrass me! In my heart mumbled.

"I will not interfere with your relationship with Jebran. I hope you are happy with him! But don't refuse my kindness!" Dylan said.

I was silent when his eyes were so sincere. I feel what he feels. This heart cries, but for friendship. I can't love because of a compulsion.

"I-I..." I said doubtfully.

"Don't hesitate! I won't make you mine," she whispered.

"Ergh!" Dilan groaned holding the pain in his stomach.

I also swiftly restrained Dilan's body who was wincing in pain because of the movement. We looked at each other again.

Dilan raised one hand to hold my body that had collapsed. "Are you okay?"

"No," I said, changing my position to stand up straight.

"Emira," Jebran called suddenly entered the room.

I was stunned at the same time, when this man just walked in. Luckily he didn't come in when I helped Dilan's body which was in pain.

"Dilan, how are you?" Jebran said while placing some gifts for him.

"Yes, I am okay." Dylan nodded.

Jebran watched who just kept silent. "What happened to you?" Jebran asked grabbing my arm.

"Ah," I said gaping.

"I was just about to leave." I lowered my gaze.

"Didn't you go with me earlier?" Jebran said surprised.

"Oh, I almost forgot, he he," I chuckle glancing at the wall next to him. I stared embarrassedly at the void of the wall.

I was forced to wait for Jebran to say a lot to Dilan, me? I just sat on the sofa watching them.

It's okay, I'll wait! I shook my head with a small smile.

***

We finally said goodbye to Dilan's room. Jebran and I walked along the hospital garden and returned to enjoy the atmosphere at that time.

"This Saturday we're walking around the hospital, but it's fun!" Jebran call.

"Hey, where's Riffat?!" I grumbled.

"Already at home," Jebran said turned with a sweet smile. I saw pure white teeth, sharp nose, clean skin, white in the size of city people. I laughed inside, groaned inside. How can I fall in love with this spoiled man?

However, I had my suspicions on the real Jebran. He looked cold, but his mannerisms and hands were unlike any other man. He was stocky and different looking, my eyes darted around his body.

This man had never even fought, yet his veins were very thick. I spontaneously grabbed my palm and looked at him. "Wow!" call me.

"Hah!" said Jebran surprised to see me raise his hand.

"Your hands have scars," I said.

Jebran pulled him suddenly, "Come on, let's just go out!" invite Jebran to take my hand. With every step I left him between the curbs. He was still silent while spreading a smile that was no less sweet than Dilan. I smiled to myself.

"Hey, Jebran," I called.

"Hmm," he said simply.

"Have you ever had a fight?" Somehow? I asked a strange question from a normal woman.

"Hahaha," he chuckled.

I stared in surprise when Jebran just laughed when he heard my question. "Only this time, I saw a different woman from you. Very unique question!" he praised in laughter.

"Hey!" I pushed my hand to hit his back hard.

"Ow!" he screamed turning to me.

His eyes were staring at me with the emotion he often expressed at me, but I wasn't at all scared or even weakened.

As usual, I avoided his gaze.

"Hey!" he screamed.

I walked ahead of him, then slowly ran. I saw his laughter booming behind me. I turned my face away from him. I saw the leaves break free from their worn and brittle stalks.

The wind brushed against my hair strand by strand, my eyes closed for a moment, but opened again to something.

Something from the past that suddenly stopped me from moving on. I stopped, in front of someone I had known.

My eyes are fixed on him, so focused that he is approaching me.

"Endru," I said.

From a distance, Jebran chased me and continued to chase me.

He approached me, while I was just silent and could not say hello or say no or hello.

"Long time no see," he said.

Jebran saw me being grabbed by someone. He also chased me. I was carried away by the long lost wind. The past seemed to hypnotize me at one point embracing me at one push.

Endru pulled my hand firmly.