be my pillow

" Stupid woman!" Mr Giovinne whoever he was witnessed it all how she left the mansion like a sick chicken with her steps counted and heavy, it was like a heavy burden was placed on her shoulders and she was dragging them with her while others were running for shelter, she was alone sooked under the rain.

Shwaa! Shwaa!

Heavy rain yet no aumbrella to use as shelter,

Cold night yet no blanket to embrace,

it was shattered, 

Two words,

It okay.

It reminds me of that poem and suddenly I felt so empty as if I had lost a purpose maybe because my whole world for the past five years revolved around him and this family, I had even thought it as my own after losing my own at a very young age and because of that I used to value this new found family a lot.

I thought finally I had found a home less did I know that I was never one of them and they had never treated me as one for all those years since I knew them.

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Flashback

" How much do you want? so you can finally leave me alone "

Sob sob!

" Why ....why did you do this to me Daclin?" I asked with a heavy heart and tears kept on rolling down from my eyes.

" come on Phina we have been through this already think about me this time I hate you for being so selfish you should feel bad after what you did at least repay our family for this"

" I didn't do it!!" I said with choking voice that only seem to annoy him.

"Friday our divorce is going to be finalised you have to sign the agreement" 

He said coldly before taking out the agreement papers that cruelly started that I deserved nothing from him.

I was not in my right mind to want anything from him the only thing I wanted was to leave this place, that is what I want.

" I can't do this" I replied.

" You will have to and you are going to sign these damn papers right now!"

" Sign!!!"

"Daclin!" I called out just one last time and I had a lot that I wanted to ask, did he truly love me even once, had he ever been sincere? But what he said after made me hold back.

" Don't blame me blame yourself for being such a burden."

And then I knew I never meant anything to him to start with.

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The rain was heavy and I was suddenly feeling cold but I could careless, nothing could exceed what I was feeling from within, I felt betrayed used and wasted.

Poooh! A car honk was heard as I was walking just by the roadside not sure why because there was a lot space for it to pass through without a problem but another one was made and another until I was annoyed and decided to move away but soon I passed out.

" Miss!" Was the last thing I heard before completely losing my senses.

" Hello boss we got her" The man in her aid said after rescuing her unconscious body that was lying on the cold floor of the street.

Immediately they took her into the car and left the area the same as they came and silent it was as if nothing happened there.

" she has a high fever, an injury on the head fracture hand and bluised legs" it was the first thing I heard when I opened my eyes again and it was the same man I saw before, the guy in the video and at the lab but what does he want? This time I didn't pretend to sleep I opened my eyes and faced him.

" You are awake" his calm voice spoke and he was still in his white coat this time he wore reading glasses as he was reading a report on his hands.

" Who are you ....what do you want from me?" Straight to the point I asked and I knew I could no longer escape these people they seem powerful and influential " Miss Ford ....no it should be just miss Odiham now calm down first I will first introduce myself my name is Halid Gileish but you can call me doctor Gileish and as for the second question I'm not the one who wants something from you I'm merely following instructions " He said and that made me wonder a bit loud " From whom?"

" Me" Another male voice sounded just close to the door and a man in complete black suit appeared from behind that doctor Gileish. His voice was familiar and so was his face I think I saw him somewhere but where? Ahhh! My mind screamed in horror as his face got registered in my mind IT HIM!

Meeting the man again was no pressure rather it was a reminder of my own demise that came though I knew it couldn't be the root of the problem what happened with my marriage was bound to happen even if not because of him.

The cheating man was no different than a dead corpse to me he was dead in my heart but the pain was still lively.

" I figured out you are not that clever" He said his words sounding like an insult but inside I knew that I was.

" I mean no matter how much you love a person how could you offer to take his burden after what he had done to you"

" What do you mean?"I asked.

" What do I mean?"

" You don't have any idea do you?"He said before showing out papers. 

" What is this?" The paper looked very familiar yet too foreign to me and I knew the weight of them " Why do you...why do you have these?" I asked with trembling tone.

" Read them" He commanded 

There was something about these papers that make them more frightening than the very reason I was of it reality

" This...how?" I couldn't believe what was written in these papers and yet there was my signature I had signed them myself.

" What does this mean?"I asked.

" It means your husband had tricked you into agreeing to pay all his debts and it looks like you didn't know " He said while his tone sounded mocking I couldn't help feeling pathetic. 

" It doesn't matter to me whoever is chosen shall pay my money" The boss man said with his hands tucked in his pockets seeming it didn't matter as well for him.

To me it was not about the heavy debt in my shoulders or that have to spent the rest of my life paying for it rather...

" Why....why did you do it?" I asked myself inwardly, if I was so disposable to him if I was at all of important to him five years of marriage this is how little I was in his heart to be used and thrown out.

" No this is not true" Denial I had despite everything so clear in front of me I was still not ready to accept this.

It was not enough the fact that he had cheated on her yet he had to make things hard for her as well. 

Her mind told her that the guy was not a bad person but again she wasn't a good judge of character even the one she thought was good to her was not,

And for now it was the same whether she tried or get tried at least he was not a wolf in sheep's clothing ( skin) he had shown his true intention and it was all clear to her that he wasn't pretending, he wanted her for a reason which she was yet to come into conclusion but it didn't matter anymore.

"However this humiliation I am going to pay them thousand times no millions more way than that they had caused me", she thought inwardly with determined look.

" What do you want from me?"

" Be my pillow"

" Pardon!"