Darkest and loneliest night

"Just do it." Sebastian said somehow gathering all his energy to say those words, he was breathing heavily and if he didn't get treatment, his health was worsening and if this goes on; he will end up dying.

Not having other options, Sarael sighed before bringing the surgery instruments. Her hands were shaking in nervousness, before this she had never done anything like this. Sebastian saw how much she was afraid, he pulled her hands and helped her with the stitching.

Sarael was more relaxed after Sebastian helped her but on doing it, she can't stop herself from taking glances at him. She was surprised seeing his stern face, she knew it must be painful; a normal person would cry from the pain but Sebastian was so stern as if nothing was happening, he was not given any painkillers, and he was tolerating the pain so well which surprised Sarael.

"Is there something on my face?" Sebastian asked, seeing her peeking at him from time to time.

"Nothing." Sarael blushed and looked away after hearing his question. She didn't think that he noticed her taking glances at him.

" I will go and bring some water to clean the blood stains." Sarael excused herself after seeing that the stitches were done. She shook his hand and ran away to the bathroom. After closing the bathroom door, she sighed and looked at herself in the mirror.

She was all red, and her heart beating rapidly, she put her hand over her chest and felt the heartbeat. It was beating like crazy. She touched her cheeks after that, it was so warm. She took long breaths to cool down herself, fanning herself continuously by her hands.

What was she even thinking? She knows that it was wrong of her glancing at him so many times but she can't stop herself from doing it. She was not in her right mind but she had never thought that he noticed her glancing at him. It was all her heart's fault; it doesn't stop even her brain tells it to stop.

"Sarael, stop embarrassing yourself. He will never be yours." Sarael slapped her cheeks to stop herself from dreaming of him. Sarael liked or maybe loved, she was not totally aware if it's love or like but somewhere in her heart she knows that she can never be a part of his life.

She knows she was nothing compared to him, she doesn't have a rich and influential family backing her up nor is she a beauty how can she even think of her being close to him who is all high up from her and most importantly he is her idol's brother.

How can she fall in love with him? Will not everyone think of her gold digger who just loves her idol? She is not like that and she didn't even want to be someone. Sarael knows about how much difference they have and she never dreamt of getting together with him knowing it and she will never be able to dream about it in fear that that sweet dream can turn into a nightmare that will destroy her life and also her the people lives that are close to her.

Sarael shook her head to stop herself from having those thoughts; even thinking about those thoughts also she was afraid.

She filled up the tub and took a towel before going out. Sebastian was exhausted from all those, he felt asleep even though the pain was not letting him to sleep well but he closed his eyes and tried to rest.

Sarael saw him, she went close to him silently not wanting to disturb him. She tried to be silent as much as she could. She put the tub at the nightstand table and looked at him. He was breathing peaceful, Sarael was going crazy for him again.

She forwarded her hands to open his shirt button but she hesitated to unbutton without his permission.

She didn't even want to wake him up also, she was about to take her hand back when Sebastian caught her hand. She was totally off guard by his actions. He pulled her closer by her hand and Sarael landed over his chest.

"Princess, don't leave me." Sebastian murmured in his dreams hugging Sarael tightly. Sarael was close to him and heard his words clearly. She was sure he would not call her princess and why would he?

"You remember about both of us playing together? Why did you leave me suddenly? Don't leave me again." Sebastian continued to murmur in his dream. Hearing his word Sarael was sure now that it was not her who he was talking about. She felt her heart stabbed and was shattered into thousand pieces. Tears flowed down thinking about Sebastian having someone else. She somehow got out of his hands and ran towards the bathroom.

She closed the door and sat down on the floor, curling herself up into a ball; she started wailing. She can't stop herself from crying, her heart was bleeding. It was her fault that she fell for him and Sebastian never said of him loving her then why was she crying and feeling hurt that he had someone.

"Sarael, stop crying. Why are you crying? He was never yours. Why are you crying for him? You should be happy for him but why can't I?" Sara tried to console herself but sobs didn't stop.

That night was the darkest and loneliest night in her life. She weeped whole night, she had never felt so sad after her parent's death. She tried to console herself saying that she was crying for nothing but she can only console her mind with that, her heart still didn't bleeded. She didn't even know when she fell asleep from those continuous weeping.