I didn't want this

Can one actually have a peaceful life? is peace even a thing? if it is, where is it? These are the questions asked but had no answers. Living as a useless and unwanted person his whole life, suicidal thoughts clouded his mind, is this life worth living?"forget it, I'll work hard and finally get my peaceful life" was what he said but, did he actually get it? No!. Enduring life, finding new hopes, struggling to pass through life, only to die without a grave, did the universe let him go? No. Lexi Quints gets thrown into another world with danger and troubles at every turn "huh, I'm still alive? dammit, even after death, you won't still let me go, I DON'T WANT THIS!!" Would he retire to his fate or work hard to gain a peaceful life? Begging the universe to take him back and he ends up at deaths door, again, he finally thinks the universe listened to him, but... Did it? did it really?