Obsession With Magic

After yesterday's event, I decided that I should start learning and studying Magic again. Last time, after learning for about a year and locking myself up in the library every now and then – I got sick. I had a fever, and the reason for that is probably because I've been too busy and caught up in reading and learning about Magic that I forgot to eat and take care of myself.

Amy scolded me a lot, I think it almost lasted for an hour, and because of that, I decided to take a break for a while away from Magic. If I haven't decided to do so, Amy might just also decide to monitor me 24/7 to make sure that I wouldn't push myself too far.

Which is extremely hard because... it's Magic.

A month has passed since then. I already know and learned quite a few of Magic, such as teleportation, voice changer, face changer, levitation, and more. I first learned everything that I thought could help me the most in 'certain' situations just in case. Some of the Magic I know are also Magic that the original Aksia already know before, so I just have to restudy it and make sure I can also do it properly.

As for my Dark Magic, I've also been practicing it. It's actually quite unfortunate because I can't find any book about my own Magic in the library in the Euridice Mansion, but I guess that's to be expected already since the owner of the house – Duke Lancer Euridice, hates even just the very mention of Dark Magic.

Since I don't have that much information about Dark Magic, I just trusted my instinct and knowledge of what I knew from reading and watching all of those fantasy novels and fantasy movies when I was still in my world from before.

The first thing I did was try to control my shadow... simply because it's Dark Magic, and one of the first things I assumed is that there is a possibility that it has something to do with shadows – that's also how it was sometimes on the other fantasy fictional works I've read.

So I tried, but... imagine my reaction when my own shadow swallowed me whole.

I thought I was going to die again.

I tried controlling my own shadow first, but it swallowed me as if a small hole had opened up on the ground below me. It's like I fell deep into the ground and all I could see was darkness. Strangely, I don't feel uncomfortable at all. It's like I'm just in another dimension where there is nothing to be seen, just pure darkness.

Fortunately, I was able to get out of that darkness when I concentrated and imagined myself back at the library. I come out of the ground again from my own shadow.

I'm not scared of practicing inside the library because of the risk of getting caught since I used Magic to lock the door and made sure that no one would be able to just easily enter. If someone tried, I would sense it and I can immediately prepare to escape or conceal whatever it was I'm doing. Other than that, the only person who really comes here to the library is me.

That was how my Dark Magic practice went last time, and now I'm thinking of doing something that might even be more dangerous.

"But where would I find something dead?" I couldn't help but ask myself, whispering while looking blankly at the book I'm holding in front of me. I'm at the library again right now, alone.

No, I'm not planning on killing someone. Definitely.

Since I found out that I can control shadows, the first thing that comes to mind is 'controlling others shadows', but since it's Dark Magic, doing this to a living organism might be a bad idea. Last time, it was fine. But that's probably because it's me and I have Dark Magic itself. If I recklessly control another living organism's shadow, things... might not end up that well.

And if I put a living person or any living organisms other than me in that dark dimension, they might actually also just suffocate and die. I'm not really sure If I can put other things there that's why I want to try.

So the solution I came up with is to do it on a nonliving organism – not an object, but a once-living organism that is dead.

But where would I find something like that?

I couldn't help but sigh.

It doesn't have to be a dead person – No, it would be great if it wasn't a dead person. I'm just looking for a maybe... a dead animal, a dead insect, or anything other than an actual person or human being.

I have a lot of things I want to know. I'm also wondering if I can extract the shadow from those nonliving organisms, then store them inside the dark dimension, and call or summon them out whenever I need them. That would be a great help if I can really do that. But I just hope that the consequences of doing that won't be that severe, since that's literally like bringing the dead back to life but just their shadows. If there isn't any, then better.

I guess I'll have to sneak outside. I wouldn't be able to find something just by staying in the Euridice Mansion.

I'm too used to staying at home that I didn't notice the fact that I haven't been outside the whole time I got reincarnated here. Maybe it was fortunate that the Duke and Duchess aren't making me attend any gatherings and parties right now.

Even in my last life, I just always locked myself up in my room. I was... very lazy – actually, even now, I am still lazy. That probably won't change that easily even after dying and living again especially when you have your past life memories intact.

But since this is about Magic and it's needed...

Tomorrow, I'll sneak out.