Asteroid

The largest known asteroid is 965km (600 MI) wide

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" What's it like to fall in love, daph?" Aster sighed as she lay on my bed. Her blonde hair spread around her, as her blue eyes tracked my star charts on my ceiling.

I grumbled" And how would I know exactly?" It's not like anyone could ever be interested anyway. I added silently with a small frown.

" True but I can't help thinking about it. I know it's going to awesome and soooo romantic,one of the best things in my life, I do hope I meet The one soon, he's going to charming,romantic and of course an anime fan" she was so happy then. A 14 year old so excited for the idea of love. I was to. Until I got a taste of realities first hit.

Even then Aster never got to fall in love.

"Daphne? Come on, if you don't get up now you'll be late" I heard a voice say "again".

Did I have to wake up? I'd rather stay here until I was thought to be dead.

I rubbed my eyes open, wishing I could stay there for the rest of the day. I didn't want to go to school yesterday, I sure as Hades didn't want to go to school today. But you met Ajax-

Off you go, mind.

Another day in hell. Another day to complete totally alone.

I quickly stood up, giving a quick greeting to my mother, Cecelia simmers, who'd woken me up. With a quick kiss to her cheek I walked into the bathroom, hoping she is gone by the time I come out.

Cecelia simmers is a nurse at the central hospital in Vancouver. She looked so much like aster I lost it most of the time. She was also so much like her. Liked their milk put in before the cereal, preferred romance to a fantasy book or movie, loved their hair down. She was happy once, before the accident, nowadays she stayed in the bathroom locked up, crying to herself and maybe wishing she had the daughter who was so much like her alive, instead of the one who was the cause of all things bad.

It is especially hard when you see your daughter rushed in at the hospital, her body already turning cold, knowing you never got to say goodbye. Knowing the last face you saw of her was bloody and bruised. The eyes dead. There's so much a mother can take. So damn much.

I couldn't help myself when I stood in front of my mirror, gazing at the flesh stuck to my skin.too much flesh. My eyes traced my body from the long scar that went passed my shoulder down to the underside of my breast.

"Daphne!, Stop! Please" she screamed, the tears had continued.

Pulse

pulse

"Snap out of it simmers" I shook my head, continuing my morning rituals for school. I probably had less than ten minutes to get ready, and it didn't really bother me anymore.

***

"Miss simmers" the voice of my old teacher Mr David's sounded behind me. The warning bell has gone of minutes ago and I was taking my sweet time enjoying the empty hallway alone

I turned around and nervously swallowed "yes sir?"

" Have you reconsidered coming back to my class. You were an exceptional student and I hate to see you live. Astronomy was your passion and if I'm correct still is.

"I told you before sir, I can't do the class anymore, I don't want to do it. I'm doing so many classes, astronomy is a burden to me" I croaked

Pulse

Pulse

"Think of it, Daphne. I'm not going to force you but I think you should continue to follow your passion" he said.

" I'm serious Mr David's, I don't want to continue, it's already late"

Mr David's eyed me a little, his chocolate brown eyes dim for a moment before he smiled sadly.

" Don't let grief guide you" he said " there's no road to cross at the end except a ditch you can't come out from"

"What do you mean" I was almost panicking. Where's my pulse?

Pulse

" I mean. I know what happened miss simmers, I spoke to your parents" he camly said, " reconsider about joining the class, if you do Mr King will surely help you catch up, if you require it, Though I'm sure you don't"

He lightly tapped me shoulder before turning back and before he turned down the hall he called back " you better get the class miss simmers, being late to your class is the worst way to start a new day"

I released my breath, trying to calm the raging emotions that licked my skin. A panick attack in school? I wasn't mad.

Astronomy. A passion forgotten. A passion that should be remained buried where even the sun can't see it.

Astronomy was an optional class, Edenville provided. It was something that gave me satisfaction, from the Interactive classes to the star charts that was kept on the walls. It was my definition of heaven. The assignments were practical and it was a class you could boast about especially with Mr David's teaching it. He was the kind of teacher that was so fun, no-one could say a bad word about him, he was kind and trustworthy and always there to help. Let's not forget that half of the female population at Edenville thought he was the cutest being, -with his brown eyes and Sandy colored hair- to walk the floors of Edenville.

Don't let grief guide you

It already does. It has buckled me up and taken over the steering wheel. I just hope the ditch I end up in is somewhere I would be found .

Is astronomy class really something I want to try again?

Was I willing to risk the sadness that would now hang over it like a cloud of venom

Was Mr David's right? About the grief. It has only been 2 years and I hadn't recovered. Was that a mental problem or a selfish act on my part.

With that in mind, I quickly rushed over to my first class. Trying not to panick about the fact that Mr David's knew about Aster or the flutter in my chest that sprung up when Ajax king was mentioned

Get your head out of it, Daphne

He is Ajax king, someone way out of your league!

And even then I couldn't help the beginning of hope that bloomed when I thought of how he'd followed me into my spot because he was worried. Did that mean I could finally meet someone that didn't care about the tags you had or the way society pounced on you like ravenous tigers.

I couldn't help but hope.

You hope for too much simmer, I can't believe how fustrating you are.

Hope was always something that could destroy me after all.

I hoped. I hoped. I hoped.

It destroyed me.