My Final Decision

You have me now, you'll never lose your way again... -- Meteor Rain, F4

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[Rinako]

Only the lampshades placed on the wall and the bedside table gave off lights in that room as I entered there. Well, I decided to enter there after calling my parents and informing them that I might spend the night at the ancestral house of Setsuji's family.

To my surprise, they agreed to it without hesitation. But they later explained that Doctor Rio informed them about it and there wasn't any problem to them about the fact that I was staying for a night at another house. At least, they knew that I would be taken care of. But from the tone of their voices, why did I have a feeling that they had some sort of matchmaking plan? Did they have any idea about what was happening between me and Setsuji?

But I knew that no one would be able to answer that question at the moment. So they let me do what I want instead of letting them rack the flow of my mind.

Even with the carpeted floor, I slowly walked and went ahead to go to where the bed that Setsuji was lying on was placed. Before I could even stop myself, I sat on the edge of the bed and looked intently at the face of the guy lying there.

Setsuji was surely sleeping well. I just hoped he got enough rest after this so that he would be able to fully recover. I just don't want to remain worrying like this for this guy. It was too much of a headache for me. Not to mention, it was annoying.

But to be honest, I wasn't sure what I had to hesitate about.

~"If you're truly decided to talk to me and for you to know what's really in my mind because of you hurting me, then get better first. Take a good rest and when you wake up without me beside you or if you didn't see me near you as soon as you opened your eyes, then it's over. It only means that I haven't forgiven you and I'd truly disappear from your life for good."~

I should have made my decision the moment I said those words. There was only one thing I had to do. It was to stay beside Setsuji until he would wake up or to leave completely and never see him again.

That was it.

But deciding on that matter proved itself to be harder than I could ever think of. Especially at the moment that I was looking at Setsuji's face like that. As it went on, I noticed that my mind was coming up with only one decision.

Of course, as usual, my heart reacted wildly to that. I don't want to say that I was going crazy with what happening to me even though it was nearly the truth. As usual, my mind would end up the loser in the end... again.

"Seriously... Just what in the world are you doing to me, you annoying jerk?" I ended up uttering as I continued looking at the face of the guy sleeping at the moment.

The moment I asked that question, my mind and my heart finally came up with a decision. Well, my heart weighed more than my mind in coming up with that. And I knew there and then, that there would be no turning back.