Diary 1991

"He was handsome; no something more .. gorgeous...I want him" these words. left my mouth.

"You say and you get it; HIM" , my handsome instructor told me. It's being a year since I stepped in this buisness and I didn't knew I would become this much needy when it comes to men. I'VE started small and was just an amature in this buisness. But now, situation molded to something new. Now I demand what I want and who I want. I'm the one in INCHARGE. It cleary prooves power is important and looks matter.

I was as usuall looking flawless in my; this time I tried something new, I wored nothing but a ROBE. He was standing by the wall, I went inside and his eyebrows and face expression lifted. His body twiched. I removed my robe and opened my hair. He sat on the chair and wide opened his legs. I moved as slowly as I can and when my lips were just a millimetre away, I stopped and moved back, instead sat on his lap. I could feel the tension underneath.

"What happened? I need you to finish what you started." He kind of started begging. "I could not help but smile, I was just teasing him."

After completing the WORK, I, Me and my Vagina were thrusting inside, but I was such a horny one....always being. When I went out, my all time favourite guy told me, FINISHED? I said, YES.

Later after stepping into this buisness, 6 months....I talked to him first time....all alone and trust me he is...Smooth the way he talks like you can get lost in those eyes....so gorgeous with that jaw line and those shoulders and everything else.

But, he is like that with every other girl present in here, so.....

The guy who rules this..buisness is going to come over here....to pick some of us..so that we could be filmed while having...sex..no while having...pleasure...If I get choosed, the only thing, I'll be happy about is...MONEY...and if rejected.. I'll have my MAN.

It was dark...cold...and tired when I was walking outside just to have a little private time. Suddenly, the lights were on my face....I covered myself well...under the shawl and, just to realize that the lights were headlights of a luxurious car. A man came out and said I need to be seated inside the car...as it was normal for me to have private discussions with my customers, I said ok thinking he was the same guy whome I was supposed to meet. There were, 2 men in total, I could clearly see the face of one, but other one was on the opposite side, only the features were available and that too a little, so I talked to the one whose face was clear. I said," We will discuss the things we have to do prior being shooting." He placed his knee between my legs and pinned my one arm and placed his mouth next to my ears...that was enough to turn me on and said, "But babe, you are a slut and you would love to taste that dick of mine cause I've been saving it for you from a long time". These dirty words...did turned me on but my anger was on another level...this is my body and my need ..who the hell is he to say..me a slut with such a bad mouth.

"To make things clear, it's my body and I get to choose with whome I will play and who I'll let inside me and to make sure....you that you are just not the person who will get to ride me on that sloppy dick of yours". I said this while doing my best to push him away and struggling, but I couldn't. His expressions were as if his ego was.... hurt"

Enough of this drama dude, you lost". The guy sitting opposite spoke up. He turned on the lights and said, I'm truly sorry for the pain you faced because of my mate but you can go now. I was too dazzled by his face that instead of screaming to his friend, I got out and went inside the bar. Women have one one thing that is on different level than men and that is, SELF ESTEEM and I'll never ever let anyone look down on me, my profession and again...to

ME..

IT'S a PROMISE I made to me after starting this job..no

after I learnt how to use dicks to pleasure my BODY.

You know..it was never about you guys...it was always about ME.