Chapter 48

A.N.: For those who haven't already seen it, there's an Auxiliary chapter, added recently, right above the Prologue. MC's picture is posted there, (along with the two Dora's that were already posted in chapter 45.)

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MC's POV:

I think I'll hit myself....

No, just a bit of stabbing should do.

Anything to...not feel so damn guilty...

And ANGRY!!!

Legilimency, happens very fast. It all happened in just 5 seconds max.

I just wanted to know if her thoughts about kissing... if she wanted to or not, did I actually have a chance or not..Nothing else.

So, I mentioned kissing her, so that she would think about it, and used legilimency to just know - Yes or No? But...I saw something completely different....

This dude, who Dora had a favorable impression of, tried to force her! And why the hell did she think of that memory right when I came close to her? Am I really like to that red haired sh*thead?!

Nonononononono, NO!!!!! I...I m-might be?

Let me see...

Why I'm not:

1) I could've had any girl in Hogwarts on my first day, if I actually didn't find the idea of magically influencing their thoughts to make them fall for me so..... revulsive and unappealing.

2) I have never done anything that has hurt Dora. That letter incident just a misunderstanding in which, she had some wild thoughts. It was all cleared and even better after I had done the explaining.

3) The fact that I haven't taken any action upto now even when Dora is in her goddess mode. (original appearance), even if I so much wanted to... I have only ever teased her!

Why I might be:

1) Because I used a bit of legilimency, which should be wrong, even if I just wanted to know if she was uncomfortable. Though I don't regret it. How else would I have known that me coming close her causes her to remember bad memories of those jerks! And, I can't do anything about the past. Every beautiful girl has bad memories of at least one jerk before they turn reach adulthood. If they don't, then it would turn even worst if they married a jerk without knowing that he was a jerk.

But Dora, being already very beautiful, even in her public appearance, was a metamorphagus on top that. So, it is only natural that she's had more bad memories.

Anyways, continuing,

2) I'm not completely innocent. Initially, when me and Dora weren't actually close, I had used just a tiny amount of pure magic a few times. But. Pure magic would only make you feel comfortable and relaxing. And, this case is simply like the case: If you have a bigger c*ck, and you impress the girl by it, is it considered wrong? It's an advantage that only I can have. So why not use it? It's just like giving a massage, the best one. I am not influencing her mind.

Anyway, I have long stopped doing that. And the no. of times it's used is just '4', all very short duration. Out of which, two were as a revenge for teasing me.

Alright, back to present situation, I was in the bathroom. I had fled the situation to calm myself.

Earlier, I hadn't even completely seen what had happened in the memory, and I had already become soooooo angry! I have never been this angry in this world. And then, since at the time of doing legilimency, the metal shield are either very weak or completely open, (just like Snape in 5th part when Harry broke through his shields), without occlumency, I also completely lost control, and then I saw red, and desire to make that bast*rd's whole body match colour with those red hair of his.

But, as soon as my eyes met with Dora again, I had snapped back to control and quickly turned off the trigger, took back all the magic that flowing out into me and stopped it from being released. Thus, barely able to hold the magic from escaping, I worriedly asked her if she was effected by that red magic. I was so relieved that she was fine that I lost hold of a bit of the magic I had held back. So, when I told her that it was just a hallucination, hoping for her to believe it somehow, that bit of magic was somehow got mixed into my voice.

Thus, to get rid of the excess magic I ran to the bathroom. Anyways, now that I have 'relieved' myself, I should get out of the bathroom.

I quickly went back to the Christmas tree to see Dora happily showing the hairpin to her parents.

Dora saw me coming and quickly ran over to hug me.

"Chris! This pin is so beautiful! Thank you!"

Andromeda also smiled happily, but Ted looked uncomfortable.

"Chris, that thing is very expensive. You shouldn't have spent so much on a gift."

Hearing him, both Dora and Andromeda also realized this. Both women probably were too dazed by it's beautiful appearance to realize this fact.

"Hey, take it back! Why did you have to give me something expensive?" said Dora. Andromeda also nodded, agreeing with her.

"You guys..." I sighed in exasperation.

'I can't tell them I stole it off somewhere, can I?'

"Do you guys know how I spent my Christmas for the last two years?" I asked.

I waited for several second to let them guess, then continued. "In a bar...Drinking all alone."

*gasp* Andromeda gasped, while Dora stepped forward just hugged me tightly.

I still continued. "Are you getting my point? Last year, no one would have cared enough even if I had died of liver failure.....So, let me express my gratitude for giving me something which I consider priceless." I said sincerely.

What? All I said just now true.

Who thinks I can't say touching words without lying? I'm actually very grateful, you know. I just... didn't tell them that hairpin didn't cost me much. But if you look at it's funtions, it's actually priceless as long as I keep charging it up with my pure magic.

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Sigh, the break is over, and we're going back to Hogwarts.

"Both of you write lots of letters." Said Ted.

"Dora, focus on your studies. I want to see lots of Outstandings in your NEWTS report card." Said Andromeda while giving Dora a hug. Then she turned me and said,

"And you, young man, are not allowed to drink until you're 17." She kissed my forehead and hugged me as well.

I was surprised at first, but for some reason, I was blinking my eyes rapidly....

'What the hell?! Tears are....'

That was so much like what my mom what say... I hugged her tightly.

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That day, I cried for real for the first time in a lot years...

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A.N.: I'm sad, cheer me up with some power stones.