telling the truth

looking down at Levi- my sweet adorable Levi-no- remember- he's not like that anymore-

I wanted him to be mine- and now he is but for how long?- just because Madoka is dead now

doesn't mean he can't be taken away from me- things were so different back- then-

I still remember the real Levi how could I forget him?- but it been so long since then

I know I should be honest with this Levi- and I've done it too many times I wish I didn't have to tell him over and over again but how can he remember everything?- I wonder if he still likes that?-

would he forgive me as easily?- does he love me?- what I feel for him- is more than just love- I'm obsessed- I want him all for myself- I did everything to get him back- If I tell him

will I lose him again?- f*ck I can't lose him again- he always runs- and it's usually after I tell him then he forgets everything and goes to Madoka- but that isn't an option this time-

I have to tell him- again- If he hates me - I don't know what I'll do-

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath-

when I opened my eyes he was in front of me-

dressed normally-

"Levi-" I replied

"Solomon-" he replied

"You did well last night-" I replied

he turned bright red

I patted his head

"Your adorable Levi and you said you would f*ck me" I replied

"I- I- don't know what I was thinking - You were just so hard to resist-" he replied

he still has a piece of him- I was able to bring it out-but I know-It's not him- none of this is real-

"ha- that's why I love you Levi-" I replied

"You- Love me?-" he replied

"If I didn't I wouldn't let you touch me as you did- f*ck it has been a long time" I replied

"I've touched you like this before?- how come I don't remember?" he replied

"You do how do you think you know how to do that?- it's still in your muscle memory it would be the same if you f*cked me again" I replied

"just-how times- have we f*cked?" he replied

"21- times" I replied

"21- 21?!" he replied

"I have only f*cked you 6 times- you f*cked me the rest-" I replied

"You have only topped six times?" he replied

"Yes-" I replied

"wow- well I think it's going to be different this time- I don't think I could top anymore" he replied

"why not?" I replied

"Your d*ck is Huge- and mine are small-" he replied

"Since when? - you've always had a huge a** c*ck-" I replied

Not anymore- I have two d*cks-" he replied

"two- two- you have two d*cks?!'' I replied

"Yes- I am part snake- snakes have two-" he replied

"I- you having one d*ck was enough- and now you have two-" I replied

"Yep-" he replied

"f*ck- and we're going to f*ck after this- If things go well- but this won't make you happy" I replied

"What is it Solomon?" he replied

"I have to tell you the truth and I know you're not going to like it" I replied

Just tell me-" he replied

"I r*ped Madoka-"I replied

his face darkens-

"YOU WHAT?!" he replied

"r*ped forced them to have sex with me- I pushed too far- he cried- and I didn't stop until he had broken down completely- I even enjoyed it-" I replied

"You enjoyed it?- what the f*ck Solomon- what the hell is wrong with you?" he replied

"too much-I'm f*cked up I never cared about anyone and all I cared about was sex-" I replied

"That's why we f*cked so much huh?- did you even love me?" he replied

"I- I didn't- I wished I did- and I tried I tried so hard but I couldn't- I knew you couldn't love me- but I still got upset when you choose him again- but why would you choose me?- the only thing I liked was your d*ck- I can't love you back- those feeling I had are gone and I still pretend there still there-I've been empty for so long- f*ck and I promised him- I love you- forgive you but it's just obsession and Lust- there is no love- and I've been lying for so long-" I replied

"But there's more to it Solomon- I think there's a part of you that still cares-If you didn't then- why would you let me touch you?- is it just lust? then why me? not Madoka?-" he replied

"I can't- I hate that idea- to use him again- I- he doesn't deserve that- I f*cked him because you did- and he wanted me to use him- and it was good- but- It's not the same-no- it is I'm using you just like them- I once loved you but those feelings changed- and I linger on because I can't let go-I pretend nothing changed that I still love you but I don't" I replied

"Why can't you let go?- you don't love me but you're still holding on- you don't love me but you saved me- you don't love me but you still cared-" he replied

"I did it because I didn't have a choice of what he would want-" I replied

"why are you doing this for him?- are you sure it isn't him you love?'' he replied

"I don't love Madoka anymore- I love Levi-" I replied

"but you said you didn't" he replied

f*ck - why did I let that slip?- I doubt I'll ever see him it's been so long

"f*ck Levi- I don't know anymore- I'm just so used to saying that I love you- I did sometimes believe it- but as I thought about I realize I love him-" I replied

"then why didn't you go after him?" he replied

"Because I want to move on from him- I want to love you- but I couldn't- I could only love him- because that's how it's supposed to be but he wanted us to be together- so I tried everything-

but now- I don't feel the same I used to for him- I regret what I did and want better for him, and I will do what he wants because it's the right thing to do" I replied

"You- still love them and you don't want to hurt them so you're trying to love me-" he replied

"Yeah-but more than anything- I want to be with Levi-" I replied

"Why did you say my name? and in the third person again can't you say you?" he replied

"sorry- Levi- I want to be with you-" I replied

"don't you want to be with him?" he replied

"No- never again-maybe in the past I still want to be with him but I want- you Levi-I'm not sure how to love you- but I want to say with you- if you let me-maybe you can show me the right way-" I replied

"alright- Solomon- I'll stay with you" he replied

"you- your not running out on me?" I replied

"I'm not sure of my feelings towards you either and I know you're doing this for Madoka and I loved him too- and a part of me missed you-" he replied

Levi still has a piece of the real Levi's soul even their memories-

"of course he did it hasn't been this long where we didn't f*ck- in a long time" I replied

"wait-are you- saying that isn't me?- that it's someone else?" he replied

"Yes- he's still a part of you despite being gone for so long I think because he stayed in your body longer than he was supposed to a part of his soul attached to you-" I replied

"just who is this person?-" he replied

"he's- the real Levi-I don't think you'll understand-" I replied

"the real Levi?" he replied

"Yes- this is the other thing I need to be honest about but this is hard- I'm not from this world-" I replied

"You're a transmigrator-and there was a transmigrator who had the same name and is still a part of me?" he replied

"Yes- that's all correct" I replied

"Wow- that makes a lot of sense Solomon- I think that's why I'm so attached to you- I originally loved you but my feelings changed over time- I hated you- but a part of me still loved you-lusted over you-I- couldn't understand it but- I wanted you badly-and I still do- but- I need to control it-you're not who I thought you were but- I still want to help you-and f*cking isn't it" he replied

"I know- but it's all we ever did- but I want to control myself as well- to be a better person but the only way I was taught through was f*cking-" I replied

"Well there are better ways and being honest is one of them- lying makes things worse and the truth can hurt but you're never going to get through it if you don't face it" he replied

"alright then I have one last thing- to tell you" I replied

"What is it Solomon?" he replied

"You're pregnant" I replied in his ear

"Solomon!- why of all times must you joke like this?" he replied

"I couldn't help it honey your fun to tease" I replied

What are you doing Solomon?!

You're just going to use him again

You don't even love him- do you?

How many times have you sacrificed your life for him? You hate seeing him hurt but you do it anyway- he's not real- but why do you feel so attached to him? Is it just because he reminds you of the one you loved? There's more to it than that- you once loved him as well you still hold on despite the pain

He doesn't love you anymore-

"Dammit Solomon stop sulking-

I care about you Solomon- and I'm sorry for leaving you like this-I was a jerk and I'm still being one-and maybe it's selfish but I want things to go back to how they used to be but without all the chaos-" he replied

"Levi- I'm so sorry- I was so terrible to you-I used you- your body- I lied- I deceived you- manipulated you-"

"Solomon- I know you were you were a monster- but deep down I still believed you loved me and maybe I was a fool-but Solomon be honest with me to do you still love me?" He replied

"I- don't want to hurt you again- I have sacrificed so much- just to be with you again and I remember all the feelings I had for you- they're still there I have tried to push them away because I loved someone else- but I still love you-" I replied

"I'm glad Solomon- I love you too!" He replied

I leaned in and kissed him

It was sweet and passionate

He kissed me back with intensity

I could almost moan in ecstasy

F*ck I missed this- him

I kissed him back fiercely

Pushing my body against his

He pushed back his tongue

Curving twisting and turning grabbing my tongue and pulling it back and forth I twisted my tongue around his and pulled back our tongues danced as we continued to intensively make out and we released we both moaned in ecstasy

"Damn that felt so good-" I replied

"Better than sex?" He replied

"I don't even remember what sex feels like anymore-" I replied

"You don't?- didn't you f*ck Madoka twos weeks ago?"

"Levi- that's not the same- I don't love them" I replied

"But you used to didn't you?" He replied

"Yes but those feelings are long gone of course I still care about him but not the same way I do about you I don't want to hurt him again and I want what's best for him I f*cked him because he wanted me to and he knew you would choose him so we agreed to it and wanted you to find out so you would hate him and if you didn't you would hate me but if you hated him you would love me- he did that because

he loved me- he wanted me to be happy and he sacrificed himself for me- f*ck that's why they're such a good person" I replied

"F*ck- he loved you - I wished he ended up with someone better-

Belph hates humans and he was cruel to him and he won't ever change" he replied

"But aren't I the same Levi? I changed, didn't I? What makes you think he can't? And I believe they will love each other as we do now they're just two steps behind us" I replied

"Yeah your right Solomon- maybe he will get better-but seeing them f*ck was too much-" he replied

"They f*cked?-" I replied

"Yes-f*ck I don't like remembering-"

"Hmm- how do you know this?" I asked

"I saw it Solomon- I know it could have been just my imagination-

But- it doesn't feel like that to me-

Even though I didn't want to believe it

I know it happened- but Solomon it's messed up why would you kill someone and kill yourself after just so you can f*ck in the afterlife?" He replied

"Do remember what it feels like there?- sex is almost endless and it feels amazing- f*ck I miss that- your d*ck especially" I replied

"Solomon-I don't remember that-" he replied

"You don't huh?-that memory might not be accessible- like that coffee date" I replied

"Coffee date? What are you talking about?" He replied

"It's something between me and the other Levi- there are still certain memories you don't share- but he was barely there - a piece of him was there and it's still a part of you- but I know you two aren't the same- you are similar but you still are different

That Levi didn't care about anyone besides me and you care about Madoka like I do he made you crazy but I made you crazier-" I replied

"F*ck Solomon- you drive me insane-I can't even think straight-" he replied

"That's because you're thinking gay" I replied

"Solomon-what are with your jokes?!"

He replied

"Come on I thought you liked jokes?"

I replied

"I do- it's just I don't expect these from you-"

"Is me being confident so surprising?" I replied

"Yeah- what happened to your pride?" he replied

"I still have it with more colors" I replied

"Solomon-seriously?" He replied

"Come on Levi you know you like it" I replied

"It doesn't feel right hearing it from you- I feel like you might accidentally insult me" he replied

"I won't Levi I'm not that cruel- I'll lay off the gay jokes for you-" I replied

"Solomon- how did you know you were gay?" He asked

"After our 8th round-" I replied

"8th round?! F*ck Solomon, how many times did we f*ck?"

"11 times you f*cked me on the last round-I liked it so much- I asked you to do it again- and I wanted you to keep-" I replied

"Solomon- you didn't stop did you?"

He replied

"We did a few times but- I didn't want to-after the last round we were both hearts broken- I've wanted to apologize since that day- using your feelings and not stopping when you told me to" I replied

"Solomon I don't think either of us was in the right mindset at the time" he replied

"What do you mean?" I replied

"I remember what happened Solomon- f*ck- we were drugged" he replied

"Madoka!- f*ck no wonder he was there when I woke up that's why my memories were a little foggy and he told me he drugged you- I almost forgot that-" I replied

"He- drugged us?!" He shouted

"Yeah not just us Beel and Asmo too"

"Did those two f*ck?" He replied

"No Beel f*cked Mammon and Madoka f*cked Asmo" I replied

"Oh- was there anyone else?" He replied

"So your not going to react to either of them" I replied

"I know Mammon had a crush on beel and was scared like I was- I liked Asmo- I feel so disgusted by it-and knowing Madoka and him- I feel like the world likes punishing me" he replied

"Hey- it's ok Levi- I know you were obsessed with both of them- and I hurt them both-"I replied

"BOTH?! YOU HURT ASMO?!" He replied

"I f*cked him just to get over you and I finally had enough I f*cked him one last time and called him disgusting" I replied

"YOU F*CKING A******!" he shouted

And slapped me

He glared at me

"I deserved that- I was the one who thought I was disgusting And I projected it on him-but it was YOU who changed that- but- I still did those awful things to Madoka- I insulted him- abused him- I said he wasn't a man because he used to be a girl- that hurt them- I said I was still straight because he wasn't a guy and he didn't count I didn't even tell him about Asmo- but I couldn't he was obsessed with him- he wouldn't shut up about him- I hated Asmo so much back then- I regret it- I know you care about him and so does Luke-"I replied

"You regret it?- did you ever apologize to him?!" He replied

"No- I never did-" I replied

"WHAT THE HELL SOLOMON?!" He shouted

"Levi I'm sorry-" I replied

"YOU SHOULD APOLOGIZE TO HIM!" He shouted

"How Levi? He wouldn't forgive me

He's not like you-" I replied

"Why should he? It's been so long now and I know it took long to apologize to me but you did it over and over again I always forgot and it's good you've told me everything- but I'm still pissed Solomon" he replied

"I know Levi I knew you would be when I told you so I hid it from you you can do whatever you want to beat me up just like then" I replied

"Solomon- I'm not going to beat you up Yes I'm pissed but I couldn't hurt you not again we've both hurt each other both psychically and mentally I want us to be better-" he replied

"You're not going to hurt me? But I-" I replied

He put his finger on my lip

"Solomon stop it- even after this- I still love you- I don't know why- but I still believe in you-

you're a better person- and it takes time to recover- I don't expect you to be the nicest person but to behave better and tell everything to me like you are now helping-" he replied

I put my lips on his finger and sucked it

"Solomon!" He shouted bright red

I licked his finger teasing him more

He jumped back and slapped me

"Hey- what was that for? I thought you liked this?" I replied

"I don't! F*ck Solomon- what the hell is wrong with you? And no Solomon I don't want to f*ck- how can something like that still be on your mind?" He replied

"With you, in front of me it's hard not to" I replied

"Solomon stop it- f*cking doesn't solve anything- it will only make things worse- I want us to be happy have a good relationship-to love each other-"

"And have a family- for our daughter to have us and grow up happy-"

"Our daughter? - we have a daughter?!" He replied

"Yes- I told you I got you pregnant that night- she also talked to me- I was confused but she's an AI she had consciousness before she was born she woke up when you said the words our child - I was only able to talk to her for a short time but I got the information I needed- she told me my mission and what happened to the world the creator was supposed to help but instead they ended up doing what they wanted and didn't help so I was sent here to destroy them-"

"Who is this creator?" He asked

"Madoka- or rather the creator is in their body and that was why I did those awful things to Madoka because that was my mission to destroy them-"

I replied

"Were you told to do those awful things to Asmo? Or me?" He replied

"No- but just because I was told to destroy them in the worse way possible which was vague and I picked the worse option emotional damage and rape- but I regretted it both times" I replied

"Both times?! You did it twice?!" He replied

"Yes- I first did it in the past and after that my memory was erased from it

And so I ended up doing it again and regretting it but you stopped me from killing myself that time-" I replied

"You did in the past? Wait what was your true past with Madoka?" He asked

"Abusive partner towards the end and a childhood friend" I replied

"So you were their past partner?" He asked

"Yes-we kissed and we could have f*cked like a normal couple but I took it too far I forced them into it they would do everything I wanted including giving me their body if they loved me I did all that because they had killed my friend our friend she was close to them they were like siblings I couldn't understand why he did it but he told me that I had him and he did it because he thought I loved her but I told him that lie because I was scared- and then I was able to reveal my feelings after- you died-" I replied

"After I died?- we had another past life?" He asked

"Yes - if you count the first then we've had 3 and this is the fourth life together" I replied

"Doesn't that mean we're soul mates?"

He asked

"Yes but Madoka was also our soulmate they were there too-" I replied

"Madoka Is our soulmate?" He replied

"I know it's confusing but they bring us together each time that is how they are our soulmates - without them, we can never be brought together- and after that, they die because that is their curse they can bring others together but they will die afterward and there is one who is attached to their curse and will die with them so they aren't alone in death-except once when the other refused to die the demon could stay but the human pasted on and they came back- and from then on they continued to die together- I met Madoka for the second time and I told them the truth I tried to be better but I still ended up using them- and afterward I killed myself

And in that life, I met you- but I messed everything up I used your brother and raped your friend- I used you and then I told you the truth, ,and the first time you took it well and the second but on the 3rd time you didn't

You yelled punched and kicked me and ran off to another man-but then when they died you couldn't take it and ended up killing yourself so I went in after you- you were happy to see me saying you missed me

But the truth was you were just trying to replace me with them because they didn't love you I still stayed by your side-then you told me that you hated them and loved me- but I couldn't tell you the same- I told you I loved them and that I wanted to love you because that's what they wanted but I couldn't- and I ended up using you-and you- were ok with that-until I met the true you they told me to be honest with my feelings and apologize to you-Levi- I- love-"

He put his hand to my mouth

"Solomon you don't need to say it- I know you do- I love you too Solomon-I know it takes time for us to realize it- but right now I can tell you are being honest- and I am too- my feelings towards you are complex but I do love you-" he replied moving his hand back and inserting his tongue in

Moving back and forth I could moan in ecstasy

I could stay here forever- I don't want to leave- I have everything I have Levi- Luke is happy- he has Asmo-

Madoka- is with Belph I know things will work out for them- my daughter will have her parents- we'll be happy-

I closed my eyes and everything went dark

"But you have to wake up

He's waiting for you-"

Who? Who's waiting for me?

"You forgot me already? What about our promise? Please- get out of there-

I want to go on our coffee date and watch a sappy romance movie together- is it that boring?

We can- do something fun- some sex games- find some new kinks-or -you can have your way with me- whatever you want a baby- f*ck me like there's no tomorrow-"

Hearing those things- f*ck I couldn't help but be turned on and I wanted to go to this person but I couldn't see nor move- I was only able to hear them-

But I feel as if this person is important to me- but who are they?

"I know your In there Solomon And I will wait for you what it is your doing I'm sure it's important- I hope you're not taking that literally- if you're cheating- kidding- I did tell you to take care of him- and he's still a part of me - so - it's not cheating is? I just hope you get out alive- I know you went through a lot and I don't know what other things you went through or are still going through but it will be alright because I'm here for you Solomon"

If I could move I would grab their hand - but I can't

But then I felt some grab onto me

I slowly opened my eyes

It was Levi

"I- had a strange dream-" he replied

"Me too-" I replied

Did someone call out to him too?