20

He could kill me.

Cause that was what it meant, if you thought about it....

Abandoning me in the middle of nowhere, when he knew I had left that blasted phone he had gives me back at the house because I didn't want him to track me down at that time because I also didn't know that he would or was supposed to take me Doc's place.

Hissing, I keep on walking the road, biting my lips hard so I can focus on something else than the frostbite I was filling my toes at the moment

But God, how could he?!

Who leaves someone they claim to love in the middle of nowhere, with a threat?!

Grumbling, I call him beautiful names like Psychopath, bastard, unstable animal before I hear the horn of a car behind me and I turn.

I see the familiar white car, and my heart skips only for his butler to come out of the car and say "Master says I should pick you and take you to your destination myself. He apologizes that he cannot do so at the moment and requests your forgiveness"

At this moment, I had no idea why I felt so sad that he wasn't there, but I just shrug, acting like I didn't care and walk to the car, entering and shutting the door.

The butler enters almost immediately and begins to drive away.

The whole drive is silent and I am grateful for that before I see Docs house as he parks and I walk out the car to her door.

Docs house had always been at the edge of the town, away from civilisation with vast trees all around.

The only thing that signified a humans presence was here was her ginormoys house that had millions of lights illuminating every area.

Though it was a huge castle and reminded me of Kim's place, they seemed to contrast.

As much as his made ne feel nausea and fear of the unknown, hers made me feel warm and I had not even entered yet.

I knock only once and she comes to the door in a second, opening it with literal heat blasting me from inside making me sigh in relief "Come in"

I do so, muttering a thank you as I take in the familiarity of the place again.

Gold coloured walls with simple intricate designs, pictures of her from her being a baby and other childhood transitions....

Nothing too extravagant and extraordinary.

"Come on" She says as she gives me a smile "Let's eat"

Her dining table is filled with candles, and platters though she sets a bowl of hot chicken soup infront of me saying that I might not appreciate the soup more than whatever was on the table because I was freezing and I thanked her for that.

I was done in a matter of minutes and was staring at her as she ate her goulash, slowly and perfectly, her brown hair falling down like cascades and not in it's usual bun with her cheeks rosy and full of life contradicting to my always white skin as I remember back at the facility before she says "Are you done?"

I nod, feeling silly that she had caught me staring as she stands and takes my plate and hers to the kitchen, coming back with two mugs "The same tea as back then, would you still like it?"

I smile, taking it "Thank you"

She gives me a small smile "Come on, let's go behind"

We both move through her backdoor and come out of her backyard as she sits on a rocking chair and points to the one beside her for me to sit.

I do so, staring at her for a while as she says "You think you're not okay?"

I chuckle "I don't know... I feel different I guess"

"Different?" She asks "I know it's not the pills. You only had a withdrawal attack on it because you had just left a familiar place, and I am sorry I had not been there to help you"

I shake my head "No it's okay... I haven't even... Though of it ever since then"

"Then what have you been thinking about?"

I feel myself biting my lips and playing with my nails, then pausing as I remembered what Kim had said before I say "He knows too much"

"Tyler?"

"Kim" I say "Kim Yi Jung.... It's like he reads me at times, then the other time she can't read or control or predict me, he gets really upset ..."

"Who is he?"

"I'm not even sure anymore" I say faking a chuckle "It's like ever since I walked out the door back at the rehab, everything's been like some sort of horror movie, and I hate it"

"What about Tyler? He isn't helping to help you feel better?"

I sigh "We.... We aren't talking at the moment.... He kinda, um, cheated on me with Dana"

"I thought you said you prepared for that sort of battle, ripping Dana's hair out of its contraptions and stuff"

"She could have atleast not done it with me around!" I say, exasperated "Courtesy, you know?"

Doc laughs, like she knew how dramatic I could be "So now what? You're going to let her win? After everything you've been through. Why did he even do it anyway?"

"I didn't want to know why, I was just too hurt to care" I say with a weak smile "And it just glares at me too much... That they had just moved on.... Like I had died already and I wasn't even here"

"Wasn't that what you wanted?"

"What?"

"For some obsolete reason, you didn't die as you had wanted, you are alive to see what would have happened if you had actually died. You can see that no one would have missed you, no one would have even bothered to care... What if you don't move on and you had to watch them live like this with your memory like you were worth nothing all your life?"

I stare, feeling deadly hurt and pain fill in me "That would.... That wouldn't be nice..."

"I guess that's why you were given another chance to fix it" She says "Make yourself something that would be so impossible to forget. You are not a bad person. You are a character Miss Walker, and you are more than just a summer wind, you are fire in human form, burn all of them and leave a mark that would not let you be forgotten, or I would be really disappointed"

I just stare, not even sure about what to say before she smiles and says "You haven't drank your tea, it could get cold"

I do so, staring at the stars up above us.