They don't know us

"I'm sorry"

I had Damon's mumble after he came out and saw me standing by the railing of our balcony. Mind you, the sun was quite vengeful at that time.

I still don't know why I chose that specific area to relax myself with. Maybe, I was too stressed and upset to care.

"Why are you sorry, Damon?" I asked casually, my eyes still on the surrounding of the house. It was beautiful.

"I... I..." Trailed off Damon thoughtfully making me laugh bitterly, turning to him.

"See? nothing!" I pointed out with a stiff shrug.

"...but, please don't make me share you with anyone else!" Pleaded in annoyance before he settled himself on my back, hands on my front, hugging me to himself.

"And here I thought I was the controller in this relationship" I sneered, trying to get out of his hold only for him to hold me tighter.

"So, you really want that threesome, huh?" Whispered Damon with no emotions before, he bit my shoulder. Hard

"It's just sex!" I said with a hiss of pain, turning my head to the dog on my shoulder.

"No, it's not. Not to you, anyway" He said with so much certainty that I felt my heart flatter for a second. He can read me!.

"So, now you know what I want and don't want in life?" I asked him with a pointed look but, truth be told I wasn't angry in the least.

"Love, before you get to decide on something on my behalf, consider your feelings first" He suggested kissing my neck and the back of it lovingly.

"And I found out that,I'm thrilled with this!" I insisted for the sake of me being my difficult self.

"But, your undertone tells me otherwise, Love... I told him and I'm telling you now, I love YOU! Even in your stubborn, hardheaded kind of moods, I still do love you and I'm satisfied here so, on my part, I don't want some third soul to spice things up with you in the bed department or anything!. But, if you really feel the need..., You're allowed to do whatever you want. You're a free soul, Sunshine" Damon whispered in my ears, so softly and loving that I felt my dick harden in my sweatpants.

"Oh, Damon...!" I whimpered like a needy whore.

"Yes, Love?" He called with an obvious smirk on his kiss on my back.

"Hey! We're in the open!" I scolded the horny beast on my back who was quite busy with making me loose face to all the bodyguards who'd rather play with their phones awkwardly.

"Who cares?"

"I care!"

"Says someone who's harder from that suspect"

"There's an explanation for that which is hard for me to get it since, I'm embarrassed, excited, horny, ashamed and everything in between at the moment!"

"I'll take that as your explanation. It's great"

"You're a beast!"

"Only for you, Love. Trust me, only to you in a good way"

"Damon, Do you know just the thought of you in somebody's else's bed disgusts me?"

"Then why do you want me in Regan's bed?"

"Because, I like him? Because, he loves you even more than me? Because, he respects you and cares unconditionally about you? Because, I saw just how much effect you two had for each other?..." I explained sober once more.

I seriously needed to know how to read a room. Because, just after my long speech, Damon, stopped his advances on me leaving me feeling lonely and empty.

"Love, that's enough of your mind going haywire for a day" He told me at last, settling for a kiss on my forehead.

"So, you want to say I'm making everything up?" I asked hopefully.

"No..." He replied not really sure of what I wanted him to say.

"Then shut up! Do you know how a love fool you get when your gaze meets his? Do you even know how glued your eyes get, to his every little actions does to him? How he blushes shyly, stutters nervously, and whimper subtly AND sometimes boldly even in my presence?! Do you fucking know how that shit tears me up inside?" I bursted out, angry.

"I'm sorry, I've hurt you" He said softly but, I could tell that he meant it this time.

"And you think that'll be enough? Just go out with him and if it's sex, then be my guest, he too wants to understand how deep his feelings for you are anyway. So, that should be consensual" I told him pissed before I fixed my clothes in my body like a sassy queen, I wasn't.

"That's what you want?" Asked Damon, dissapointed.

"What I want?... I want some peace of mind, some assurance that I'm the only one you love, want and need in this life, I don't want unnecessary enemies nor dramas, your family is enough for me to worry about!" I yelled at him unnecessarily.

"Regan was never and will never be your rival when it comes to my heart" He assured but, like the bitch I always am, I snickered at that.

How old did he think I was? Ten?.

"Just leave me to cool down on my own!" I told him, attempting to stand up once again.

"I'm sorry I made you feel so insecure and threatened in your own marriage... Regan... I had to act like a love fool to Regan for three years... I guess, I don't know any other way on how I can interact with him. It's drilled in my system.... But, I'm a fool only to you, Love" Explained Damon in earnest, eyes pleading with me.

"Then why should you lead him on? Don't you know that makes you sound like a douchebag?" I questioned him with a dry tone.

"I'm not a saint, Love. Regan is beautiful, charming, and very thoughtful but, he doesn't know how to fake his emotions So, I had to make him fall, for everything to be believable around my enemies" Explained Damon with sadness beneath the apologetic voice.

"Is that the source of your guilt?" I probed cautiously.

"I used such a young boy's life for my own personal benefits, that calls for compensation, doesn't it?" He said in a bitter whisper making me feel heartbroken more than angry and dissapointed at him.

"You're a good man, Damon" I coaxed making him chuckle bitterly.

"No, I'm not... I can't even tell him just how much everything between us was fake. I don't want to hurt him more than I already did" He said holding me to him for dear sanity.

"Did you ever fake your feelings for him? I mean, your attention, your care?... Did you fake even your worries and this regret that kills you, right now?" I asked expectantly.

"No" He replied with a shake of his head slightly.

"There you have it, maybe it was just your brain who thought everything was fake but, your heart felt different" I told him my observation calmly.

"But, I only love you romantically, I only want to wake up and spend the day with YOU... Maybe, I wanted him sexually once or twice but, that's it! It was only lust with him and everything with YOU!" He said as he cupped my cheeks in his hands, desperately hoping for me to understand.

"You really are a scumbag! And here I thought I was full of flaws when it comes to us... I mean, why do people only see my bad side?" I asked seriously getting curious from my own question.

"Because, they're shallow and stupid?" Damon supplied with a shrug.

"Do you feel like a slave when you're with me? Am I making your life a living hell? Is my presence in your life an obstacle or something to feel ashamed of? Am I any good enough for you? Are you happy with me?" I rained my insecurities on him mercilessly.

"Okay, that's a lot and yes, Love. I'm happy since the first day I cast my eyes on one of the most beautiful male goddess in that hotel's stall that night " He said before winking at me.

"Such a flirt!" I said, feeling touched beyond words.

"You love it, when I get all dog with a collar for you" Replied Damon seductively in that deep accent of his.

"You're right, maybe, I really am bossy sometimes" I agreed with a chuckle.

"And who gave you all these stupid facts today?" Asked Damon curiously.

"Almost every soul that knows your past?" I answered like it wasn't a big deal. But, it was. I don't know any solid shit about him till that point other than, he's an amazing lover.

"And you believed them?" Asked Damon with his eyebrow quirked upward.

"They know you better" I replied simply.

"Where are they now?" Asked Damon seriously with a sigh.

"Huh?" I uttered puzzled. He wants me to list their names?.

"Where are the people who know me better, right now?" He asked again more clearly this time but, it still left me muted.

"What I'm trying to say is that... All they know is Damon Emule, the president of Skies Go international company and Mr Dark, the first son of the current Mafia King, But you? It's not about tittles with you, never about the money_" Explained Damon patiently.

"I love your money, don't get me wrong" I interrupted before gesturing for him to carry on making him laugh.

"See? Sybil, To you I feel like any other person out there, in love. it's here with you that I feel so safe and free to be myself, I can act spoiled, vulnerable, strong, coward, brave, submissive, silly, stupid, cruel, saint _" He was going on and like my big mouth I had to interrupt him with my scoff sending him to trail off with his speech.

"A saint Damon? really? You want heaven to send it's army just for you?" I teased him with a laugh earning a kiss from him on the lips..

"I love you, Sybil as you're my wife, husband, happiness, best friend, my safe haven... They, don't know us or what you put up with every single day since you decided to be with me" He said breathing me in hungrily.

"Such a sweet talker!"

"Now, can I get that sex I'm denied of, everytime?"

"No, Mr Cock. Maybe after our dinner later..., I'll think about" I whispered to him before winking at him and ran inside the house.

"Oh come on!" I heard him yell in a grievance making me giggle.

And just like that? We were past our fight.