TERRIBLE IDEA

"So you have any siblings?", asks Lorenzo as he sits down next to her as they eat their breakfast.

"No am the only child and am glad they did not have any other more kids", she says laughing.

"And why is that you like all the attention to yourself?", he asks

"No it's not that, it's just that they are terrible parents I would not want anyone else to be fucked up the way I am ", she says shrugging her shoulders like it was something normal to say.

"They honestly can't be that terrible, tell me one thing that they have fine that qualifies them to be bad parents ", he says.

She had a thousand reasons in her head as to why we're bad parents that he was not ready for.

"I have many I can mention them all but I don't think that we have the time, my birthday is in less than two weeks but they are not home and I don't think they will be home for it.

I know when I say that I sound like some rich barbie girl who always wants her parent's attention. The thing is they have never been home for any of my birthdays I don't even think they remember about it at all.

There was this one time in kindergarten that I remember up to today because kids kept on teasing me for weeks saying that I was adopted because my parents did not love me.

As a kid, there is nothing that would make your day as having functions in school and your parents being there to support you. No matter how lie you felt that was something that would always make your day.

They never came to any of my school functions and when I asked them they always had an excuse. I don't think that there is something so important that would make you miss your kid's important days. My nanny started coming to the school functions but it was just not the same.

I know she was doing it because she felt sorry for me and did not want me to feel like I was left out but I still wanted my parents there. I don't think I ever mattered to them really because I tried so much as a kid to make them love me but it was not working.

There is nothing bad and traumatizing as a kid thinking that they are not loved in their own home and always wondering what they had done. I was just a kid I did not deserve any of that but along the way, I just got tired of trying because it was not getting me elsewhere.

We were always talking maybe I was doing the talking and telling them that we needed to do better but nothing changed. My mother should have called me by now since I told her I was going on date. Is she not worried about why am not home yet? I hope I haven't changed your mind yet, they are not that terrible right?", she asks laughing.

He wondered how she could talk about all that and be okay. Here he was thinking that he had a terrible childhood. At least he had someone who was taking care of him. His brother and sister always made sure that he was okay

Their father did not mistreat them or anything but after their mother's death, he turned into a completely different person. They could not blame him though. He had lost someone he had thought he was going to spend the rest of eternity with. He just did not know that eternity was that short when you were human.

He had blamed himself for years upon years because if he had done something then maybe she would still be alive. It was never his choice to make.

She did not want to be turned and he had to keep his word even as he sat on her death bed and watch as life left her body slowly. He had never been the same since then.

If he had died then maybe his mother would have survived he thought. There were days that he was so sure his father resented him. If it had not been for his complicated birth then maybe she would have survived.

He always thought that the people who had mothers in their lives were luckier than him. He did not even know what his mother was like As he listened to her she was no better than him. She had a mother but it looked like she did not have one.

"Am so sorry for that I can't imagine how bad it was for you. It must suck being lonely ", he says

"No it's fine you don't owe me an apology. They are the ones who owe me an apology but I don't think I'll be getting any. It sucks being lonely but I have been lonely all my life I think I just got used to it.

There was no way around it given the fact that I did not have friends too so it was always just me. I got used to enjoying my own company ", she says chuckling.

He could detect the sadness in her voice as she spoke. He did not know what to say to her to make her feel good because that was pain that she had endured most of her life.

All he knew was that she did not deserve to go through any of that and he wonder what type of parents they were. He pulled her closer to himself and wrapped his hands around her body for a hug. That was something that he knew would at least make her feel better.

"You're not alone anymore, you have me as you and, and no matter whatever happens between us I will always be there when you need me don't ever forget that", he said as he squeezed her and kissed her forehead.

She had never had people who cared for her. It felt amazing to know that someone cared for her and wanted her to always be okay. It felt so wholesome.

"Am driving to my parent's house in the evening for dinner I think you should come. Before you say no I did not invite you because I feel sorry for you that you're going home to stay alone I just enjoy your company and I would like to have someone there apart from my brother it is always tense", he said.

She looked at him and wondered what the hell this boy wanted from him but then again it would not hurt anyone if she went at least she would get away for a while.

What she did not know was that the visit to his parent's house was going to uncover so many secrets that she was not ready for but it was time for her to know.