An Evening with Shizuka I

Our way back home was silent and awkward, the dusk desired to fall soon as we reached the main street, a few blocks more and we'd be back home. My gaze was fixed on the window again, not paying much attention to anything and sighing inwardly at the events that took place today.

Although it is regrettable, nothing can be done... it is just a year in which I will be preparing myself for the catastrophe and to be fair it is not like I think I can count on a bunch of scholars to form some elite offensive group, what is the most they can help me with?

"Should I get some Pizza, Brand-chan?" Shizuka said but I was too engrossed in my thoughts to pay attention.

"..."

"Or should I get... s-some Chinese food?" She asked again, this time weaker than before.

"..."

We stopped at the traffic lights and when the lights switched back to green but Shizuka had yet to accelerate; the cars behind us started making noise, finally taking me away from my ideas

"Shizuka?" I turned around to see what was going on and found her sobbing and covering her eyes in her seat.

"Shizuka, drive!" I yelled at her, shaking her up.

!!!

She gulped and began driving, but her tears didn't stop along the way, I don't understand what's her deal. The blonde didn't say anything after that, I saw that we were about to turn into the building and spoke.

"I feel like having some pizza, tonight..." I said all of the sudden and she gasped a little before showing a mild smile, diverting towards the main street.

She nodded but kept sobbing, after parking in front of the pizza parlour I stopped her from coming out, grasping her wrist.

"Why are you still crying...?"

"I'm sorry... I... shouldn't have..."

"Listen Shizuka, you weren't in the wrong... you did right, so stop crying... I don't like it when you cry".

"But if your parents were to know this... they-"

"And who is going to tell them? you?"

"..."

She seemed to understand my reasoning right away, she was registered as my representative at school, so my parents wouldn't be called over this issue, all they asked was to see my grades at the end of each semester.

We got two boxes of pizza, some snacks and cola before heading back home as if there was no class tomorrow. Once reaching home the downcast Shizuka sat on my favourite couch while I sighed and prepared everything, placing them on the table.

I approached her and took a seat quite close to her, even then she was still absentminded, it wasn't until I picked her up and placed her on my lap that Shizuka finally regained herself.

"B-B-Brand-chan?!" She asked all flustered, I pulled her against me, feeling her soft but on my lap... she's rather... heavy, well it makes sense, she's tall just like me and her two massive breasts must weigh quite a lot too.

Leaving that detail aside, holding her against me felt great.

"If you keep sobbing, I'm going to get upset, now feed me..."

"E-Eh?!"

"Feed me..."

"Y-You... when did you become so spoiled, Brand-chan?" Shizuka pouted but still leaned forward to pick up the pizza, I witnessed her glorious butt in all its splendour while holding her by her lower abdomen.

Taking the controller I searched for a movie that we could watch as she handed me a slice of pizza and took one of her own.

"Brand-chan"

"Hmn?"

"I like you".

"I know..."

"N-No... I mean... I like you... like a girl likes a boy".

"Eh?" I stopped, her feelings were more than apparent to me but, I never thought she'd confess now, in such an awkward position.

"It is the truth, s-sorry, if it comes across... a little suddenly, I just felt like I needed to say it, you can forget it if you want..." This girl, here she goes again retracting what she just said.

"Why would I forget it?" I embraced her tighter.

"I m-mean... I like you but even if you like me back, we can't go out together!"

"What is this supposed to mean?" I frowned.

"Your parents... I can't disappoint them so... w-wait, maybe I'm getting ahead of myself... what do you feel for me?" She was fidgeting on my lap in disarray, clearly not used to this kind of situation... this woman probably never thought she'd confess to someone instead of the other way around.

What happened today must have pushed her to give this step.

I figure she wants to know my opinion before even beginning to state the 'conditions' of this relationship.

I don't know what to tell her... do I like her? in my memories there are no such things as to 'like' the previous me would have told her yes in a heartbeat, I know if I say yes and push her a bit, I can fuck her tonight and it will be a done deal. But, is that okay?

Is that how I want to live this life?

"You're special to me, Shizuka... I wouldn't like to be separated from you".

"What does that mean?" It didn't sound like a proper answer to her.

"That means that I don't know yet if I 'like' you or not... you should know the reason" I pinched her waist.

"I'm not d-dependable, I know... sorry..." She pouted and leaned against me in retaliation, indeed, she's not girlfriend material; she's more like sex friend material. But I don't want her to be that to me. She hasn't 'taken care' of me for three years.

But she has accompanied me for three years. We were as close as a couple that didn't have sex or kiss... everything else that couples do, we have already done. Perhaps this is my luck in action again, I can work something out of Shizuka, making her into someone that could complement me, it would require work though... the first thing I need to get rid of is her laziness.

"What were you going to say before?" I inquired.

"I was going to say that... I'd rather wait until you're an adult... you're ten years younger than me after all, and even if I like you these details still make me feel awkward... I feel like t-this is a crime."

'Well, it is...' I thought amusedly.

What was more ridiculous was that if I looked at her, she didn't look that much older than me, there was definitely this mature vibe in her, but her countenance was as perfect as a girl in her twenties; just... her body is at the level of a full-blown woman.

"I see, then let's wait until then and see what happens".

Well, in a year I will be eighteen years old and she will be twenty-eight... though that's not the age of adulthood in Japan; it is in America and at that time I should be able to decide if I want Shizuka to come with me on this journey or if I should just leave her in a safe place and be on my way.

For now, I will be selfish and try to prepare her, if she decides to follow me along or not, it will be up to her.

Shizuka stood up and discarded her skirt, opening several buttons of her shirt and throwing it away and sitting back on my lap again.

"Sorry, it was uncomfortable... y-you don't mind, right?"

"Why would I mind? you have done things like this before~" I smirked, holding her, this time by the flesh. It is something we're quite used to doing.

"Yes, but before... you never looked at me this way, don't be naughty alright? Brand-chan or I'll get upset~" She pouted just like I like her doing so and turned around on my lap, taking a slice of pizza and placing it in my mouth.

So you place all of your gorgeous semi-naked self on my lap... and expect me to not react, who is the naughty one?