Twisting feeling in my heart

He continually stared at me. I didnt know what to do or say. "You're a little too disrespectful,"I said after what felt like an eternity but probably was like two minutes. Time drags when you're in uncomfortable situations. I guess sometimes I secretly hate it.

"Are we talking about you?"he asked. I couldnt believe this. He really thought that i was disrespectful. "Hey! I am not disrespectful! Im nice to you...sometimes but I am nice,"I said feeling a little offended. "Hardly but okay,"he said. My offense turned into hurt. "How so?! Name one time i was ever disrespectful to you!" I challenged. "A lot but dont worry,"he said.

I had no idea what to say. This just hurt me more than ever. I am snarky and sarcastic yes but i dont ever intentionally disrespect people. "Call me out on it the next time. And Im serious Sir Dimitri, CALL ME OUT!"i said gravely.

I turned and walked away. I was feeling hurt now. I couldnt understand why but it hurt me a lot to know i disrespected a person i actually thought i had respect for and one who i was close with. Life is always throwing new stuff at me. I guess I shall have to watch my tongue around him now.

But my only humour is my sarcasm and snark. I always joke around with it. He seemed to be offended by it and i couldnt let that happen. I dont intentionally disrespect adults. My friends and people in my age category and younger, yes no exception there. Adults nope. Adults like my brother, yes. But that was family.

A teacher feeling offended by something I said is hurtful. I just sat by the bon fire and ate some s'mores. I didnt indulge in conversation or anything. Just stayed seated, chewing thoughtfully and staring into space.

After an hour i got up and went inside the tent. It was big enough for me to sit comfortably. I just stared half the time, thinking about how disrespectful i was to my teacher. I know what you're thinking, that I should let it go but this was different. I didnt like it. You know things like this never bothered me. I just went along with it. I guess i wasnt so nice after all.

I had no idea what to do so i sat there living in my day dreams. The tent opening brought me back to reality. I soon realized that the fire was diminished and that everyone was retiring for the night. Twas early still but i guess we all had better stuff to do.

I excused myself and went to find Alicia. She and I then went to the showers. I showered and changed and headed back to my tent. We said our goodnights and farewells and headed off in our separate directions. I made sure that she was in her tent before i entered mine. I unzipped the tent and went inside. I found Dimitri lying there.

I crawled in and he grunted. "What?"i asked. He just stared and didnt say anything further. I was a bit taken aback. I just lay down and rest my head. The night was cold and now I regretted wearing a shorts. But oh well, at least we have blankets. Correction ONE blanket. What in the world!?

I turned on my side so i faced the other side of the tent. In a few minutes i fell asleep. Before i did, I was aware of Dimitri awake next to me. I heard the noises made by the insects outside and the steady breathing of Dimitri's.

Suddenly, movement woke me up. I jolted awake. I looked around to see if there was anyone outside or something threatening that woke me up but no, there wasnt anything there. I felt something pulling me and was stunned to see that Dimitri was pulling me closer to him, in his sleep.

He pressed me against his body and kept me there. I didnt know what to do. I didnt want to wake him but i didnt want to stay in his arms either. Something told me to turn away but i really couldnt think. There was this twisting feeling in my heart.

Its as though my heart grew wings and flew. He didnt seem moved by anything, he was asleep. I just sighed and turned. He didnt seem to like that though and pulled me again thankfully this time my back was to him. I dont think he would be happy about this the next morning.