December 2, Wednesday

Hello Self!

Everything fine? perfect!

So, are you read dear self to know what happened today? Life is monotonous, but it's us who make it interesting and enjoyable. We feel the emotions and let ourselves flow in them. That's what a true human is. The one who enjoys the pleasure as well as accepts the pain. God really did a lot work on creating humans. That's why we find them in evry variety. Such a lovely creatures are humans, but at same time, they are no less than poison.

I remember, once in a zoo, there was a cage written "Most dangerous animal on the planet" on it. And there was nothing but a mirror in the cage. I hope you understood what it means. The humans are the loveliest as well as the most dangerous animals on the Earth. We humans think that we are the owner of the earth. We divided it again and again to show our claim on it. We always assume that we get it as an inheritance from the earlier generation. WRONG! We have borrowed it from our future generation. Just once! I beg, just once, sit and think in this topic. Just think, aren't we the humans ourselves who are creating graveyards for our own. Please think about it.

Well.. now let's move on the daily incidents. What happened today? Did I enjoy? Did I felt pain? What was special about today?

Today, again.. haist.. I woke up late, attended online class and had lunch. Means I wasted my morning completely. Later, My parents were out for shopping, so I just sat on a chair and started thinking that what should I do? 🤔 I wanted to talk to someone but I haven't had anyone to talk. I called some of the people I knew, acting like I was calling somewhere else and accidentally called them. But the joke revered on me. No one picked my call. Haist ..not a single person. I don't call anyone my friend now because I don't feel like they really are a friend. When you remember my existence only when you need me, then sorry dear, you are not worthy to be called a friend. And no one, not a single person talks to me without any need. Haha.. I feel like the wishing well.. drop a coin and make a wish lol.

Later, remember I told you about Kris, the straight guy one, who rejected me. And you also remember that some days ago, I told you that there is a surprise.

Well, Kris agreed to date me. I was very happy that I got him. He asked me to keep it a secret until he is ready. I promised not to tell anyone. That's why I couldn't tell you, but today.. something happened.

Although he had started dating me, but I could feel that he is not interested in any means. He was just doing it because he thought it will make me happy. But it made me more sad. He didn't used to talk to me much. It was only me who always started the conversation. Last night, we were talking about something and he stopped replying. I thought he is busy, so he will reply later. But guess what, he didn't even reply today. I could see that he was online but don't replying to my texts. Leave replying, he didn't even send a good morning message. It hurt me like hell.. Then I just texted him that if he really doesn't want to.. he doesn't need to date me because it makes me feel more sad. I hate it when you act to love. You don't love me, that's ok. But if you are pretending that you love me, in my eyes, that's an unforgivable crime. So here, I ended up having one more ex. This X is ruining my life. First in mathematics, now in my social life.

And now, it doesn't even affect me. One more break up, that's ok. I can handle it.

Later in early night, I went to Market to buy some stuff. And you won't believe, First time ever in my life, on that route, I faced traffic today. Traffic! After 7 pm, on that road, that also during such a pandemic!! I am over now. I don't want to see anything else. Now, I can die happily. Haha ... just kidding! I won't die. I have a long life you know 😉.

Ok, let's move on. After returning from market, I got to eat chicken. Woohooo... Non vegetarian food is like a celebration in my house. We don't normally eat non-veg food. That's why it's like an occasion when I get to eat chicken. And in overjoy, i think i overate lol... I can still feel a lot of food in my stomach.

Haha and one more thing.. i just watched a horror comedy. I like this genre specifically. This movie was a remake of old one. So, i knew the story already. Although, it was not so interesting, It was atleast worth the time.

Haha . that's all for today. It's already midnight. I guess I need to go to sleep now. Wait for me tomorrow. I will be back again with some new interesting and spicy topics. It was really long story today haha.

Bbye.

Good night 😘.