Felix lay curled up in Sunghwa's bed, fingers gripping the soft fabric of the comforter as his mind raced. His body was exhausted, but elusive from sleep. The young man had changed into a loose t-shirt and shorts, yet the familiar comfort of the bedding did little to calm his nerves. Every creak in the penthouse echoed like a pulse—each one making his heart leap in anticipation, hoping it was Sunghwa finally coming to him.
When the door clicked open, Felix's heart pounded and he sat up quickly. Sunghwa stood in the doorway, his broad silhouette outlined by the dim hallway light. The man paused, eyes narrowing slightly in surprise, clearly not expecting to find Felix waiting in his bed rather than his own.
"Felix?" Sunghwa's voice was low, a mix of curiosity and concern. "What are you doing here?"
Felix swallowed, his throat tightening as he tried to find the words. "I... I was waiting for you," he whispered, his voice barely audible.
Sunghwa's stern gaze softened, the usual hardness of his demeanor fading as he stepped further into the room, closing the door behind him. "You couldn't sleep?"
Felix shook his head, feeling his pulse race under Sunghwa's scrutiny. "No. I..." He hesitated, the weight of his feelings almost too heavy to voice. "I wanted to be with you."
Sunghwa exhaled slowly, leaning against the doorframe. "You shouldn't be here," he said, his tone gentle yet laced with restraint. There was no anger—just the clear boundary he seemed determined to maintain.
Felix's heart sank, misunderstanding his words. "Oh... I just thought—"
Before he could finish, Sunghwa crossed the room swiftly, cutting off Felix's apology with a warm, steady tone. "It's not that I don't want you here," he said softly. His golden eyes— usually cold and guarded—held a deep, internal conflict. "But I don't want to push you into something you're not ready for."
As their eyes met, Felix was brimmed with both longing and uncertainty. "What if I am ready?" His voice trembled with vulnerability, a raw honesty that tightened Sunghwa's chest. "What if... I've wanted this?"
The air between them grew thick with tension, the unspoken desires swirling beneath the surface. Sunghwa's breath hitched as he sat at the edge of the bed, leaving a careful distance between them. "Felix," he murmured, "you don't have to feel obligated because of what happened earlier. I don't want to take advantage of you."
Felix shook his head, scooting closer until their knees brushed. "You're not. I want… this. I want you, Sunghwa."
Sunghwa's hand reached out, hesitating for a second before his fingers brushed Felix's cheek. "You don't understand what you're asking for."
Felix leaned into his touch, his eyes fluttering shut. "Then show me," he whispered.
The battle inside the Alpha intensified, his instincts urging him to claim what was being offered. But the part of him that cared deeply for Felix resisted, afraid of losing control and hurting the fragile boy in front of him.
"I've been trying to protect you," Sunghwa said—his voice strained, thick with emotion. "I'm not always gentle. When my instincts take over, I could—"
"Sunghwa," Felix interrupted, his smaller hand covering the Alpha's. "I trust you."
Those three words shattered the last of Sunghwa's defenses. Without thinking, he pulled Felix into his arms, his lips capturing the boy's in a tender, slow kiss. It started softly, tentative in its exploration. But as Felix's hands slid into Sunghwa's hair and pulled him closer, the kiss deepened with mutual hunger.
Sunghwa responded in kind, his arm wrapping securely around Felix's waist, drawing him onto his lap. Their hearts pounded in unison, the intensity of their connection making the world outside the bedroom seem to fall away.
But just as their kiss turned fervent, Sunghwa pulled back abruptly, his breathing ragged. "We should stop."
Felix blinked in confusion, his lips still tingling from the kiss. "Did I do something wrong?"
"No," Sunghwa reassured him quickly, rubbing his thumb over Felix's cheek. "It's just... if we keep going, I won't be able to stop."
Felix stared into Sunghwa's eyes, a blend of desire and hurt flickering within his own. "Then don't."
Sunghwa cupped Felix's face, his golden eyes searching the Omega's for any hint of uncertainty. "Are you sure?"
Felix nodded, his hands trembling slightly but his resolve was clear. "I've never been more sure."
Sunghwa pressed his forehead against Felix's, closing his eyes as he took in the gravity of the moment. "I want to do this right, Felix. I want to take care of you."
"You already are," Felix replied, his fingers tracing delicate patterns along Sunghwa's bicep—making the tension in the Alpha's body palpable under his touch.
"I don't want our first time to be rushed," Sunghwa murmured. "You deserve better than that."
Felix's eyes softened, a quiet smile spreading across his lips. "Yesterday, you told me you'd be the one to decide if I was worthy of you... Are you changing your mind now?"
"Felix... I…" Sunghwa's breath caught in his throat. He couldn't deny how much he wanted Felix, but he felt the need to bare his soul. The man took a deep breath before saying, "Listen... I need to tell you something."
Felix tilted his head, silently urging him to continue.
"I've slept with a lot of people. Women, mostly." Sunghwa's grip tightened, his voice lowering. "I used them to satisfy my needs."
Felix's expression faltered, surprise flickering across his face.
"I was in a relationship with Eunbi, not because I loved her…" Sunghwa confessed, his face darkening as old memories stirred. "But because I needed someone to help me through my ruts. I used her... for years. I hurt her, Felix. I was selfish."
Felix sat quietly, absorbing the weight of Sunghwa's admission.
"Now you see, I'm not the man you think I am..." Sunghwa muttered, his voice low. "I'm not a good man. I'm a bastard."
"Stop," Felix whispered fiercely, pulling him into a tight embrace. "You're not like that anymore."
He looked up at Sunghwa with gentle eyes. "The man who found me, who took care of me when no one else would... he's a good man, not a bastard."
Felix guided Sunghwa's hand to the choker around his neck, letting the touch of it speak volumes. "I want to give myself to you, not because I owe you... but because I want to be yours."
Sunghwa swallowed, his heart pounding at Felix's earnestness. "Are you sure? You might regret this later."
"I won't." Felix smiled softly and guided Sunghwa's hand lower, showing how aroused he was. "See? I want this... I want you."
Sunghwa chuckled softly, shaking his head. "You're... something else." The Alpha leaned in, his voice dropping to a gravelly whisper. "This is your last warning. Don't regret it."
Felix's smile widened. "I won't."
Sunghwa growled—a sound deep in his chest, before pushing Felix back onto the bed. His gaze burned with desire as he loomed over the Omega. "Alright then... if that's what you want."