chapter one : The naive little girl

I was just eight years old when my world turned upside down. I was on my way to school when my eyes captured an handsome guy, oh my world!!! I felt myself blushing, my cheeks was fuming red, and ifelt butterflies in my stomach ".:...:". He smiled at me and I felt as if I was in a whole new world. To cut the long story short, fortunately for me we became friends and everything was going well but I hid my feelings from him. Oh my gosh!! less I forgot, my admirer's name is Jude

I of course, got closer to Jude because I really admired him, I became his friends and I really liked it, though I wasn't into any sexual affair with him and I still liked it because I was close to him. Every morning, on my way to school, I would pass by his store and greet him Hello, I would smile and he would reciprocate my greeting....it used to make me happy then

One particular day, my cousin sister was was six years older than me came to live with me. Her name is Sylvia. I really love Sylvia company, she was my closest family, we use to have lot of fun together. I introduced Sylvia to Jude and they became friends. PS—(I always wanted Jude to know I had feelings for him and I wished he also felt the same way about me but there was no way I would make the first move....Like no way!!!). Little did I know that Jude had already collect Sylvia contact number but when I figured it out, my thought was that they were just friend BUT WERE THEY JUST FRIENDS ??. Every night Jude always call Sylvia and they would talk and talk till dawn. It happened every single night!! and I was really jealous for the first time in my life. PS—(I had never in my life thought I would get jealous but I did and for a guy ??. Well you can't blame me, I guess I'd really love him then. Before I knew it, Jude and Sylvia was already dating. What the hell ??!!

LET REWIND BACK TO SEE HOW IT HAPPENED

I was washing the dishes in the kitchen happily when Sylvia came into the kitchen while on a phone call, smiling, "I love you too" Sylvia replied to her caller. I was astonished and I asked "wow my sis found a lover ??who is the lucky guy ??" "Jude" Sylvia replied "hmmm ?? which Jude ??" I asked because I was confused, deep in my mind I was praying to my God that it shouldn't be my Jude. Sylvia replied with a smile "why are you asking as if you don't know ?? it's the same Jude, the guy you introduced me to". I was dumbfounded, "why should it be Jude, the person I really love for the first time of my existence" I thought in my mind. "Am happy for you sis" I replied. To be honest, not that I wasn't happy for her, I was really happy for her, it just that it was with Jude. Well what can I do ?? I had to accept fate.

Nights passed, with my sister, Sylvia, receiving phone calls from Jude, their lovey dovey chat till dawn. Not allowing me to have a good night sleep with their love chat. Tears rolling down my cheeks every night, my heart tearing into pieces day by day or should I say night by night. So this is how it feels to see the person you love deeply, loving and caring for another person. I told myself "Lizzy, you should stop thinking about Jude now, he belongs to Sylvia, you will have to forget about him" I assured myself once again but I guess it was impossible because the more I try to forget him, I love him the more. Curse this fucking love !!! I always thought to myself.

The things was that I felt a feeling in my wildest dreams I had never expected. It was horror for me to experience such pain at my young age. I was torned, heartbroken, and I felt something about me changed, I wasn't the way I was anymore, I changed, my heart changed. I was filled with rage and the Paradise in me, the liveliness in me was gone and it was filled with darkness, just pitch black!!!, though strangely it never affected my studies.

Through the struggles of my pain which no one knew about, I'd always put on a smile. PS—(to me, smiling is something special, it has always covered the pain I bear, apart from that, seeing someone smile strangely bring happiness to me till date 🥰🥰. Sylvia and Jude affair continued but that didn't stop Jude and I friendship. Through Jude, I knew so many people like— Ace (the rich guy), Tyler, John and Ezekiel. I mingled with them and learnt so many things

Ace whose work was a fraudster, he had nice personalities though, he was friendly, a philanthropist and was dangerously cute. Ace, truly, was a fraudster. Yeah!!! I knew it was bad but I wasn't in a position to talk him out of it. Most of all, Ade was a good and funny guy, he was about twenty years then (five years older than Jude)

Tyler was trying to make ends meet then, he was at the same age with Ace. He was nice, chocolate in complexion and a tall young looking guy. He was friendly to me.

John was Jude distant cousin who came to visit him for a while. John was studying engineering in College then. John had good human features as a man. He was absolutely built and handsome and to add with it, he had cute pink lips with a soft, long, black hair. John did had a crush on me and asked me out but the love I had for Jude was still in my mind so I had to deny his proposal

Ezekiel also had the same features of John but he was really addicted to his phone. He was also nice and had great personalities.

They were the ones I hanged out with. I spent most of my time with them during holidays and I learnt so many things. Then, my life changed with those few people in my life.

I was the girl who knew nothing apart from getting great scores in my report card and watching Korea movie. I also do day dream about korea actors (chuckles). But now I knew what it was to like to feel pain, to love, I learnt how to smile even in ur sadest moment. I knew how to act matured around people

My first time writing story guys...Please feel free to correct me...what out for chapter two... Lizzy🥰🥰