CHAPTER 19 : IT'S OK NOT TO BE OK
RAJ AND SIMRAN both went together to basket ball court
Raj - sit here
raj made her sit on the bench and he sat beside her, he looked at her , she was still looking away
Raj - meri taraf dekho
Simran looked at him, she was trying to hold her tears, her hands were shaking, Raj kept his hand on her hand and continued the convo
Raj - it's ok
Simran - I am sorry
Raj - sorry for what?
Simran - sorry for everything that happened yesterday, sorry that you saw me in that state, sorry that I spoiled your movie night, sorry for
Raj kept his finger on her lips to stop her from talking
Raj - shhh, never say sorry for something that's not under your control, it's ok not to be ok sometimes
Simran almost starting crying, her tears started flowing, Raj removed his Finger from her lips and wiped her tears with his palm, they kept looking at each other, Raj wanted her to share about her trauma, he somehow understood that those fears are not normal , it was related to her past, they kept looking at each other for a while
Simran spoke after 5 minutes of silence
Simran - jo kal huwa wo normal nahi tha, I got an anxiety attack
she revealed and looked at Raj to see his expression, he was listening to her seriously, he kept his hand on her shoulder
Simran - I had a very traumatic childhood experience
Simran stopped in between and looked at him again
There was complete silence between them
Raj looked at her to continue but she kept quiet and didn't say anything after that , after sometimes Simran spoke again
Simran - I am going to visit a psychiatrist tomorrow again
Again she stopped and looked at him , he was just looking at her seriously, she couldn't read his expressions
Simran looked at him and asked
Simran - Raj, do you think I am mad?
Raj was heart broken to see her like this, the most fun loving, the most gorgeous girl has to go through this , so she is scared to share about her past because people might judge her
he stayed quiet for a while , he was taken aback by her question
Simran - it's ok, you can tell me , I will stay away from you
she said and got up from the bench and was leaving
Raj held her hand and stopped her
Raj got up from the bench , and pulled her towards him, his hand on her waist
Raj - look at me,you are the most strongest girl I have ever seen
Simran looked at him and a smile appeared on her face
Raj continued to speak
Raj - bas wo thele waale ki Ice cream khaa khaa ke moti ho jaaogi ek din
Simran hit him on his chest lightly and smiled widely
They eyes met, Raj was looking at her so lovingly, His grip on her waist tightened and he pulled her close to him, her hand on his chest moved slowly towards his neck , he pushed her close to him again, they were so close, their heart was beating fast, he looked at her lips, simran too followed her gaze towards his lips , they heart beat increased
Kya ho raha hai idhar, a voice came from behind
Simran immediately pushed Raj, both of them turned to see
It was sameer, sneha, anjali, vijay and seema
Sneha- Kya ho raha tha
Sameer - romance
Simran was blushing and looked at Raj who was also blushing, his cheeks looked so red, he was looking so cute, she smiled unknowingly by looking at him
Raj - kabab mai haddi aa gaye ( Raj murmured to himself)
Sameer - Raj I heard that
sameer smirked by looking at Raj who was actually cursing them to spoil his moment with her
Raj - shut up
Raj said and walked away
Sneha , anjali, seema hugged Simran, Simran looked at anjali, she looked so happy after a long time, Simran wanted to tell her about her anxiety attack but she didn't want to make her sad
First bell rang and everyone went towards the classroom
Students got into the classrooms , and they first lecture started
Raj kept looking at Simran, in between the lecture, it didn't go unnoticed by his friends
Vijay - raj you like her so much
Raj - I don't know, but she is the strongest girl I have ever seen , I admire her for that
Sameer - Raj what do you mean? I mean kuch huwa hai Kya?
Raj didn't want to reveal about her anxiety attacks to his friends
Raj - it's something personal ,I will reveal it when she is comfortable to talk about it in front of you all
Vijay- something bad or good?
Raj - may be worst, I don't know exactly
Sameer - take care of her
Sameer said and Raj smiled
Simran too looked at Raj and smiled, they kept stealing glances , everyone got busy with the back to back lectures, some were taking notes , some were talking about the chapters, 4hours passed , they got some break
some students ran to canteen, some were seated in the classroom
Simran layed her head on the bench, she looked so tired and weak
Anjali - Tu theek hai?
Simran - hmm
Anjali - you don't look fine to Me, Kya huwa hai?
Simran - I am fine, tell me about your date?
Anjali blushed
Anjali - date nahi tha
Simran - tho Kya tha?
Simran smirked and looked at her by raising her eyebrow
Anjali - he wants to know me better, he wants to spend some time with me daily
Simran - omg sach?
Anjali nodded her head and hid her face with her hands to hide her shy smile
Simran hugged her
Simran - I am so happy for you
Sneha - Kya baatein kar rahe ho
Simran - about her first date (Simran winked )
Anjali - it was not a date
Seema - kitna blush kar rahi, she is glowing already
All the girls started teasing Anjali
Anjali - accha jo wo ho raha tha wo kya tha?
sneha- Kya ho raha tha?
Anjali - Simran aur Raj Kya kar rahe te
Sneha and seema smirked, now the teasing shifts to Simran
Simran - wo kuch nahi
( Simran blushed)
Sneha- hum ne dekha tha, you both were about to kiss
Simran - kuch bhi bakwas mat karo
( Simran couldn't control her blush, her cheeks turned red , she bit her lower lip to control her heart beat)
Seema- look at her, so cute
Anjali smirked looking at Simran 's face
Sneha felt the discussion is going so far and it might not be good if this continues so she tried to change the topic
Sneha- Yaar bahut bhook lag rahi
Anjali - bhook tho mujhe bhi lag rahi
Seema - abhi ek last lecture bhi attend karna hai
Simran again layed down her head on the bench
Anjali - canteen chale Kya?
Simran - last lecture attend karke jaate hai
Seema- but I am really hungry
Vijay, sameer bought some snacks and gave to simran, seems, Anjali and sneha
Sneha- ye sab ki zarurat nahi thi
Sameer - you are hungry na darling
( sameer said by touching her cheeks, sneha blushed)
Vijay - khaa lo thoda thoda, energy rahegi last lecture attend karne ke liye
They looked at Simran, who fell asleep
Vijay looked at Raj to wake her up
Raj came towards her, she was looking so cute while sleeping , he didn't want to wake her up, he slowly moved her a little and sat beside her
Vijay - Raj Kya dekh raha hai, utha usko
Raj - let her sleep
sneha - so caring ....