GoE 147
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When a machine is in hibernation and crashes, then that parable fits perfectly with Elle who doesn't intend to leave her small room at the end of the Military Dormitory hall.
Today Elle had enough reason to rest for half a day before leaving the room. In addition to fatigue that gnaws at her patience, Elle also can't leave her room in a mess.
"An old woman like you doesn't deserve to be whining and lazing in bed anymore." babbled Etter who suddenly appeared out of nowhere.
"That's right, Etter. I'm not worthy. Everything I got or the place I live in right now is not for me. I feel less and less deserving of it. The hole in the heart that used to be cracked is now gaping too wide."