Change

I lived my whole life in distraction

Stress? Smoked myself to death

Depressed? Acted loudly

Lonely? Forced myself to believe that I liked it that way

Anxious? Blasted music

I just distracted myself all the time

Always tried to find the right thing in wrong places

I don't blame anyone

Since I settled for the bare minimum

Why?

Because I know how hard it can be for some people to even provide that

But, now that I think about it

It's all in ones mind

If they wanted to they would

But the most important thing?

I need to change

Change my attitude towards life

Change my mindset

Change myself to become better

So, I can proudly say that

I provided the best for myself

I was there for myself

I did it all on my own

I patiently waited for my turn

To be able to smile proudly while looking at the dark days I've been through