Chapter Twenty Three

Whitney's pov

I had to test if Avery was Rica since I had my doubts so I asked her if she wanted to hear a poem I wrote. She gladly agreed and I began narrating it to her...

Come on I say to her

She seems so blur

When I call her names

She listens and blames

When I cry no tears come out

She try's and let them out

To calm me down

If only she knew the lowdown

Time I wish would allow

You to be thy

For now I still can't

For I still have another

Long she is gone

So I am done

Ought to have friends

But my life was bent

You came and pulled me along

In this life song

Hope the lyrics will do

Only to play the key too

Sorry I can't be true

I have to leave you in the blue

Life is a harsh game

Be careful you dame

Just hold on

I might let go

After I finished I waited to see her response and for just a second her eyes watered and she blinked the tears away. If I hadn't been carefully to observe her I would miss it. I had narrated a poem I had written for poetry class back at our old school which I later told Rica it was meant for her and I meant every word of it. It was back then when we became friends. There were few things people couldn't stop them from happening in life but they are not given the option to stop or change the most important ones. Like how I fell in love with Rica but I just manipulated her love and took advantage of it. Few people got the chance to experience the joy of true happiness but I had a chance and I blew it away without caring just thinking of my own selfish reasons.

I looked at the girl in front of me who was doing her best to mask her feelings but I wanted to see the real her not who she pretended to be. Of course she was Rica after the sudden death of Rica a few weeks later she appears out of the blue and claims to be Avery. As she fidgeted with her hands I leaned in and did the unexpected... I kissed her and she tensed then she kissed me back then all the love and care I felt in Rica's every kiss was laced into that one but this time it had something different which was bitterness, anger, fear and the one I feared most was betrayal. I pulled away from her as she stood up and looked down at me then she said, "I'm sorry that was a mistake I hope you don't take this seriously I do this a lot of times so look you and I can't be a thing so I'm sorry. "I just looked at her and knew there was only one way to save what we had before to tell her that I knew it was her. "Rica I'm sorry I know it's you I know I hurt you before and I'm sorry," I cried.

She turned and looked at me then she finally let the tears she was hiding drop. "When I understood you meant the world to me I knew I was wrong for pushing you away when I have memories about you I know my heart is breaking. When I can no longer cry it out I know I hate what I'm feeling. I start wishing I could be in that reminiscence of when I had nothing to worry about I always had you with me but I thought you became one with the ground your soul became one with the wind and I could still hear your voice which became one with the ocean and your heartwarming presence that always made me happy. Little did I know they were all heralds that you would soon be gone. You just left and expected me to be okay. Who gave you the right to leave me to deal with all this forsaken world on my own. Why did you do this to me? It is like what we had could be compared to a dime novel.

I only feared that as years went by my memories would become vague and I could only hold on to the broken heart strings even then I knew I would not have learned to say my goodbye because every time I tried to ignore my love for you it got worse and this time I will embrace it just give me a chance Rica," I begged. She looked at me then she shook her head as she took my arms then pulled me into a hug and comforted me as I let out everything I felt. "I'm sorry I don't know what you have been through but I don't know this Rica you keep referring to but I think you need help," she said. My body froze as I heard those words from her then I second guessed myself but I knew deep down she was Rica. "Oh I'm sorry Avery did I startle you, I was just rehearsing for a play so I thought why don't I just catch you off guard was I good though," I stated.

She nodded her head then she told me her brother had come so she had to go. I didn't know if Rica had a brother but this time I wasn't going to give up on her that easily I would find out what happened before all this and who was the girl who resembled Rica. I could have sworn the girl who was buried was Rica they looked exactly the same but the girl Avery was the epitome of Rica Delion I had to find out who was Avery Sanchez and why did she make me feel like she was Rica. I would take advantage of training for the cheerleading every evening to get closer to her then know who she was. For the first time in weeks I slept without a care in the world because I had something to leave for my Rica was alive.