Encouragement 1

"I know you very well, Galant. But I don't know why you are so different lately. Starting from your behavior and also what makes me feel very strange is your body that quickly grew beyond mine in just one night. I don't seem to know you, but I know it's you. Your changes are so surreal, Galant."

Arghi finished his sentence, his heart beating faster than usual making it difficult to catch his breath. The man standing in front of Arghi now was no longer the Galant that Arghi knew, how many changes had happened to Galant. When Arghi's hand rose and fell right on Galant's shoulder, Arghi didn't expect what he was touching was Galant. The shoulders were sturdy and also high under the thin shirt touching Arghi's skin.

"Not only you, but also me. Arghi I don't know why this change happened. I didn't do anything."

Galant's voice drew back the attention of Arghi who was left behind. The hand on Galant's shoulder fell when Arghi felt an arm wrap around his waist. This is one of Arghi's concerns, what Galant recently did to Arghi was a mistake. Arghi knew where it would go if Arghi just stood still.

Arghi is not one of the righteous people and feels well how this in the future will trouble him and get bad views, so Arghi is about to stop him. He didn't want Galant to get the same treatment that Arghi received at that time.

"Galant, isn't what you're doing now a mistake?" Arghi pushed Galant when Galant's head was back on his neck, sniffing there made Arghi instantly shudder. Something was wrong with Galant, Arghi was sure of it.

"Arghi, I don't know." Galant's voice was low and once again Arghi went back into Galant's embrace. Maybe Galant doesn't know and Arghi thinks what Galant is doing is excessive, Galant is a straight man while Arghi is not like Galant and Arghi is too narrow-minded towards Galant now.

"Galant, I have to go to my room to take a shower," said Arghi breaking Galant's arms with a little energy. However, instead of Arghi being able to let go, Galant grabbed Arghi's wrist to keep him away. The arms that were wrapped around them felt bigger than Arghi's own and for some reason, a bit of fear slid into Arghi's chest now.

"Arghi, don't be angry."

Arghi's eyebrows shot up at that and he had the urge to see Galant's face now if he was able to. "Why? Something happened?"

"There is not any." That was the only short sentence he got from Galant. Arghi was silent waiting for Galant to say next, but there was nothing, only silence accompanied the two of them. Arghi didn't know what Galant was thinking now as the grip on Arghi's wrist tightened.

"Galant let me go for a while," said Arghi slowly, not wanting to make Galant uncomfortable.

"Arghi," Galant called in his hoarse voice. Arghi became restless, but he did nothing, instead of letting Galant say what he wanted to do. At last, Galant spoke again "Arghi I know you probably won't say anything that happened yesterday about that stranger and also I won't force you. But if that person is a bad part of your past that makes you always remember him, I beg you to tell me."

Arghi was silent and couldn't say anything else, his mind went back to the moment when the times of his dreadful dread had resurfaced on the outer surface of his mind. He would not be able to forget the things that were so imprinted on his heart even though they had all happened so many years ago, there would always be a full space in Arghi's head to remember them again. Arghi just wants to forget his and doesn't want to remember anything else related to his past.

Arghi tried to smile a little in response to his silence at Galant, he wanted to tell Galant that he didn't have to worry about anything because what Arghi was going through right now was his business, his problem.

"Arghi you're not alone, I'm still here."

Arghi's brows rose, he was flabbergasted by the shock he couldn't contain. Not because of the words that came out of Galant's lips just now but from a lip that had pressed against Arghi's forehead just now for a few seconds against his skin.

Arghi had even lost his words when the end of the sentence he was about to rephrase he swallowed whole. This made the feeling that was in Arghi's stomach churn, he suddenly felt fear start to run through his body.

There were two large arms stretched out on either side of Arghi's head respectively, causing Arghi's body to stiffen and his voice to catch in his throat.

Voices entered Arghi's head without his asking.

'I hope you don't influence and infect Galant to be like you, crooked and shameless. You are not only a parasite in their life, but also dirt that sticks all the time. If I were you I would run away from that house and kill myself out of shame.'

Arghi pushed Galant away, he moved automatically to dodge and walked back to his room where it was downstairs which seemed like miles away. What was on Arghi's mind now was to stay away from Galant for the time being and allow himself to drown in the voice of the faceless comments in his mind.

'...I know why Galant isn't gathering with us anymore, it must be because of your bad instigation.'