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My tears continuously fell as Mom said that.
My baby... is gone.
"But mom.." I couldn't finish what I wanna say and just cried. I want to hold my baby. I want to be with my baby. But how? When he's gone. Even though Tristan hates him, I love him. I'm even willing to raise him on my own but how? What now? He's gone. I cried even more and Mom approached me and hugged me. It hurts so much...
The Night came and I couldn't sleep. I didn't even have the chance to hold my baby nor to see him grow on my tummy. I looked around and noticed that I'm alone. Troy went out to buy food and my parents went home to get some things. Since earlier, I didn't see Tristan and Celine.. don't want to see them though. It's their fault. It's their fault- No! It's my fault. Every side you look, it's really my fault, since the beginning, and it hurt me how my baby got involved here... I hurt Tristan's mom, mom, and dad by not protecting their soon-to-be grandson. I hurt Celine by getting and stealing Tristan, I hurt Tristan by taking away his happiness and freedom just because I want him. I keep on hurting everyone so maybe, It will be better if I'm gone
I sat on my bed and took off every wire connected from my body to those machines. I stood up and walked outside. I managed to go outside the hospital since it was already night, everyone was quiet, and there was no staff in the hallways.
I only walked, not knowing where to go again. I stopped at the pedestrian line, waiting for the sign to be green. It went green and there were not many vehicles so I walked across and was about to cross safely when a car beeped at me. It was so fast and I couldn't realize what happened until I heard a long beep. I couldn't move and just closed my eyes, waiting for it to hit me but didn't feel anything. I opened my eyes and the car managed to stop inches apart from me.
My knees became weak and everything happened earlier come to my mind again which made me burst out crying.
"Oh my gosh! Are you okay?" An old woman asked me. She owned the car. She looked at a man, whom I assume, was her driver, and slapped him with his folding fan. "Can't you be more careful?" She said to him
"I'm sorry madame. I know we're in a hurry and didn't see her. I'm sorry, miss" The driver said. I don't know why but I hold the old women's hand
"Please, ma'am... Please help me. I'll do anything in return just please... get me away from here"
- 15 years later -
"EVERYTHING'S YOUR FAULT! IF THAT DIDN'T CAME THIS WON'T HAPPEN AND MY LIFE WOULD BE STILL FREE!"
"YOU'RE SO WORTHLESS! YOU'RE A STUPID MOM! WHY DID YOU LET MY GRANDSON DIE?! YOU'RE SO STUPID AND WORTHLESS! YOU SHOULD'VE DIED INSTEAD! YOU'RE SO CARELESS! CAN'T YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT?! STUPID!"
I woke up when I had the same nightmare again and again. It's still hunting me.. Tristan, Celine and my baby
"Mamita" I called, nearly crying, when she opened the door of my room and went inside. Mamita was the one who helped me get out of my past. After a year of processing all of my papers again, we migrated here to the US. I continued my studies here and did modeling since Mamita owned a magazine company. I helped her with those and studied medicine. And now, I successfully became a doctor and working now. Mamita didn't have any grandchildren so she said that I'm a blessing because for once, she experienced how to be a grandmother.
It's already 15 years but past keeps on hunting me
"It's okay sweetie, Mamita is here. Things will pass and go away"
The next morning, I have to go to work so I woke up early. I'm a doctor now and Mamita really supported me and understood me through the years so I'm really thankful to her. "Mamita, I'll go now. I have work" I said as I walk down the stairs. "Okay but eat dinner here. I'll cook for you" She sweetly said and smiled. "Of course! Your dishes are all delicious. I'll go now" I said and kissed her cheek. "Take care okay? I love you" She said and smiled. "I love you too, Mamita. I promise I won't miss your dinner" I said and hugged her before going out and went to the hospital.
"Good morning, Doc Tiffany" Every staff greeted me as they saw me. I just smiled at them. "What's up?" Kristan greeted me. We hugged as a greeting to each other. Yes, Kristan became a doctor too. Actually, Tristan too. And this hospital is owned by them but Tristan's working in the Philippines, in their hospital too. I don't know why but Kristan decided to go here. "Any news?" I asked as we go inside my office. "The patient at room 112 already recovered but I suggested they stay one more day so we can make sure that she's ready," He said.
"Okay. I'll check on her" I said as I put my coat on. "I already did" He said and smiled to me. I already know what that means so I sighed. "And what do you want in return?" I asked
"Come to the Philippines with me"
"What? No!" I exclaimed. "But our hospital there is understaffed and in need of doctors so, we'll go there," He said. "Tristan is there so he should look for other doctors," I said. "But there's none. Besides, I heard that there will be a reunion" I glared at him. "I'll think about it" I answered and he smiled as if he won the lottery.
It's been 15 years and in that 15 years, I never went back there. I don't know what happened to my family or to my friends. I sometimes read their email but I don't want to respond because they might think that I'll come back and I don't really have any plan to go back. I'm living peacefully here.
I did my duties all day. Checked patients, did surgeries, and many more. Around 8 pm, my shift is done so I went to my car and drove home.
"Hello?" I answered the call when Ken, Mamita's butler and driver called me. "Ms! Please hurry home! Madame-" The phone call suddenly ended and my phone turned off. It's low battery. My heart beat faster as he mentioned Mamita. Did something happen to her?!
I drove as fast as I could and immediately got home. I went outside the car and saw Ken with the security guard, they were carrying Mamita who, I guess, fainted.
"What happened?!" I exclaimed. "We don't know Ms. I just heard a banged and I saw Madame at the floor, unconscious" Ken answered. "Ahmm.. Okay... Put her down so I can check on her" They put her down so I checked her pulse but...
"Ms. What is it?" Ken asked
"She's... dead.."