QnA 15: I Like Women Too, Also Mental Health

Let's talk about women.

Okay, I know, that sounded pretty radical. But I've come to noticed that I had been only talking about men these past few weeks, and that makes me look a bit—by bit I mean enormously—gay.

I like women.

Shocking, I know. Like, your gay as fuck author actually likes women?! Yes, I told you, I'm bi.

Now, what preference do I have for my type of woman?

Well, going by the logic of "I want a twink malewfe," wherein I like feminine men, then I would obviously like masculine women.

Tomboys, specifically. Why?

It's because you get the benefits of hanging out with your homie, without being gay. Like, you want a gf that play games with you, do things you do with your boy friends, and other crap? Man, that literally sounds like dating your male friend, but they're a woman.

See what I mean?! If society was just a bit enlightened, then the ideal tomboy is right by your side already!

Who exactly, you may ask?

I'm of course talking about your boy friend, dear audience.

Just think about it! You want a tomboy gf that you can do homie activities with, when you can just start doing it with your homies more intimately.

Like, just date your homie already.

Ahem, I might have derailed the topic a wee bit much, so back to the topic of tomboys and why I find them attractive.

Essentially, tomboys hot. Is it a neurological thing? A society thing? A body-response things? I don't know.

All I know, is that I want a femb- tomboy, be my gf. And it's definitely not because they're more realistic to having a catboy as your 'best friend'.

Anyways, other preferences.

I'm definitely a thigh guy, because thick thighs ends lives.

Also, I can confidently say my infatuation to a certain irl woman still exists. Like, what?! The Author actually likes irl women?! Am I dreaming?!

Believe it or not, I'm a normal boy irl. Just so you know, I'm still way deep in the closet regarding my sexuality, and it's not like my ideal feminine boyfriend will just fall from the sky one day, so yes, I still like women more than men.

GASP?! THE AUTHOR MUST BE LYING! THEY LIKE WOMEN MORE THAN MEN?! FICTIONAL OR NOT?!

Okay, let's talk about my objective view in life and why I can say I am infatuated with a woman, or more commonly known as a crush.

First, my heart skips a beat when I look at them. It feels like I can't bear to hold eye contact with them. If I were to probably look into a mirror, my eyes would have probably dilated.

Second, my heart beats rapidly while chaos swirls in my mind.

Third, the way I act around them is different compared to others. It's something only I can directly observe.

Fourth, I am attracted to their physical appearance.

Fifth, no, this is redundant.

Essentially, I indeed have a crush.

So fuck you, I'm not that gay, only 2.19% gay. And yes, this is similar to "I have a black friend so I'm not racist".

And yes, having a crush is cringe. I know that my chances of having a romantic relationship is low, and I'm a 'loser' irl, so fuck my emotions, I'll need to increase my 'Self-deprecation Mantra' nightly activities.

Now let's talk about the strange thing about this one-sided conversation, no, this strange manner of mine where I judge myself as if I'm a spectator.

It's like I have a peculiarly high self-awareness. I can notice my flaws, my strengths, personality, and other bits of info in an objective manner.

That's because I fucking meditate baby! GO MEDITATE! I'M LITERALLY GUIDING YOU TO HAVE A LITERAL BETTER LIFE!

JUST GO FUCKING SIT IN A LOTUS POSITION AND FOCUS ON YOUR BREATH FOR 5 MINUTES OR MORE! HECK, 1-4 MINUTES IS FINE!

THIS AIN'T ROCKET SCIENCE YOU PIECE OF SHIT! YOU'LL SLOWLY GET BETTER, SO JUST MEDITATE CONSISTENTLY! BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, YOU'LL BE A DIFFERENT HUMAN BEING!

GO WORK OUT, EAT HEALTHIER, DON'T FAP, STRAY AWAY FROM PORN, I'M GIVING YOU A WAY TO IMPROVE! SO GRAB IT! GRAB IT LIKE A MAN DESPERATE TO LIVE! LIVE, LIVE AND REACH THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL!

Yes, I know, this is suspicious as fuck. Indeed, this is a hint to the Aspectual Multiverse plot, I know, my brain is playing 5d Chess right now. Only I know the truth to this situation.

But really, meditation is a great first step to improve your life. I did it, and look at me, I've literally learned more of myself through it.

Yes, I'm actually a real good guy, okay?

All this bi talk is to give awareness to sexual identity, this self-improvement stuff is to allow others to grow themselves. I've built myself a small platform, so might as well change a few lives along the way.

Damn, I sound so fucking cool right now.

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Let's talk about Mental Health.

Basically, it's important as fuck. It's one of the most important pillars in your life, and it could lead to a lot of benefits.

More optimism, gratitude, mindfulness, less anxiety, Meditation helps a ton when trying to improve your Mental Health.

I preach for Mental Health, and when I say it's important, it's important.

I still remember my cringe past-self that had suicidal thoughts. Oh, just me? You mean it's not normal to have suicidal thoughts?

See? Bad mental health would lead to a lot of bad things, good mental health on the other hand leads to a lot of positive things.

To let go of cringe memories, to throw away your worries about what people might think of you, to lessen your anxiety, to live in the present moment; that is what Meditation is for.

And, for the love of God, use Medito! It's literally the best meditation app out there! It's completely free, and the creators are gigachads.

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Nofap.

Yes, that's the starting word for this topic.

So, let's be honest, at what age did we start spewing out milk from our pillar of life? 10? 11? 12? 13? If you say 13, you're definitely lying.

I think I started around 11 or 12, I don't know, I'm pretty sure I was almost 12 back then.

So, if you fap, then you're a loser and other derogatory terms. And yes, those derogatory term applies to me too.

Just accept it, if you watch porn or read hentai, you're essentially a cuck, well, almost a cuck. You just watch others fuck, which is almost like a beta cuck who watches his wife get fucked by yours truly.

So yes, you're a beta cuck, and we need to fix that. Why do we want to fix that? Did you already forget about the importance of Mental Health?!

I'm a type of guy who actively goes out of their way to try and improve themselves. My mom cooked vegetables? Don't mind if I take some. My father wants me to work out? Sure. (And yes, whether I like to admit it or not, my father was the reason I exercise to keep myself healthy).

So, with meditation now in hand, I decided to take care of my weak mentality and practice discipline.

Anyways, just practice nofap!

And yes, edging is bad because you're essentially giving yourself dopamine.

Tips from yours truly:

Just say that if you were to fap, you're gonna be a beta cuck.

Announce to the world that you're committing to Nofap so that when you fail, you'll face a severe backlash.

If you relapse, just simply think of it as another small step to growth. Yes, I've relapsed countless times already and this isn't my first time surpassing a week, though this is definitely my longest streak yet.

Don't count the days. Imagine you're addicted to femboy porn, and you count the days you don't look at femboy porn, you're essentially plaguing your mind with femboy porn all day! So just don't count your day streak. As the saying goes, "Stop counting the days and make the days count."

Avoid looking at lewd handholding.

If you feel the urge, stop for a moment and think of what may happen if you stop yourself and achieve eternal peace with nofap.

Avoid touching your crotch as much as possible.

Morning wood? More like Morning Brood. Immediately get out of bed, go drink some water or something, splash some water on your face, maybe rub ice on your face like I do (I know it's weird), just make yourself feel awake and have your morning wood turn limp.

Important: The longer you hold on, the easier it will get. Trust me on this, if I relapse, I'll probably relapse a day or two again. But the longer I hold, the longer I'll be able to abstain from lustful desires.

Practice meditation. Yes, high self-awareness and an objective view will help a ton in regards to Nofap.

Of course, Nofap for women is also important. So yes, small percentage of women reading this strange fanfic full of femboy porn addiction and self-improvement tips, you too can achieve godhood by MEDITATING! MEDITATE YOU SLUT! GO FUCKING MEDITATE!

IF I DON'T SEE AT LEAST A HUNDRED OF YOU CUNTS PRACTICING WHAT I JUST SAID, THEN YOU GUYS PROBABLY DESERVE TO HAVE BAD MENTAL HEALTH!

Just kidding, teehee! Yes, I'm only saying this to take away the potential repecurrsions of what I had just written, and of course I'm only trolling, this is definitely not me putting up backup plans to potential danger just like a certain paranoid maniac.

Just treat Braun as the person you want to be. Yes, Braun is the reason I have improved myself, an ideal image if you will.

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Let's move away from serious topics and talk about why I wanted to learn 'girl voice'.

If you want to, you can check out my voice, well, one of my voices over on Twitter @NoNameDeityWN. I post there from time to time if I felt like it, but most of the videos have me talking in grill.

So, let's go to the why of this situation.

Why did your sugma male author wanted to learn grill? If you don't know, I kind of have a hobby to making wacky voices, and one thing that annoyed me most was the barrier between genders.

Why the fuck can women make a relatively good male voice, when I can't do a woman's voice! So I said fuck it, accidentally moaned one day while recording a voice recording, surprised at how authentic it sounded, and a few months later, I can sing in grill.

Yes, my singing sounds a lot better in grill compared to my normal voice which is a bit saddening. And yes, the reason I have many voices is because my real one is cringe as fuck to listen to.

Fun fact, the usual ASMR-y voice you can hear me with on Twitter is drastically far from my real voice.

Now, for the next reason I trained my girl voice. It's to get a shota voice!

WHAT?! IMPOSSIBLE!

Hear me out, this is perfectly logical if you listen to me.

If you were to look at all the voice actors on young boys and shotas, most of them are voiced by fucking women!

If I have a woman's voice, then just do some experimentation, it means that I have the key to attain perfection!

I already have a 'creepy uncle' voice, that only leaves the young boy, my boy~ Æugh.

Though I really don't have the will to train my girl voice as of now, so that still remains a dream.

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Actual QnA:

Why the constant nerfings?

- well, believe it or not, it's actually a plot device for the final volume of the story.

Will Volume 7 have the MC be nerfed again?

- No, and in fact, the MC can be said to be multiversal in strength—theoretically.

What world will Volume 7 be?

- an Original World. Yes, shocking for a fanfic to have three fucking volumes be basically original worlds.

Are you gay?

- Yes

Now here's a question you need to answer, bussy or pussy?

How old am I?

- Between 1 – 18.

Why are you talking about self-improvement

- It's because I'm roleplaying

Do you have an actual superiority complex?

-... No

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YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT I JUST EXPERIENCED LAST NIGHT?!

HAVE YOU EVER KNOWN WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE BLIND AND THEN SUDDENLY FIND A WAY TO BE ABLE TO SEE BY JUST TAPPING YOUR EYES?!

Well, guess which author has tinnitus and keeps hearing a ringing sound when in dead silence that has probably contributed to their mental instability!

The moment I covered my ears and entered the land of silence, a silence I never once experienced my entire life since the earliest remnants of memory, it made me feel like I entered an entirely new world.

You don't know how precious silence is to me. I don't know what silence literally is! Just like how you can't make original ideas, silence was never a thing I can wrap my head around.

But now, I feel only gratitude to the fact that I was able to experience it even once. So fuck you, be grateful to be able to experience silence, if you don't, hope you develop tinnitus.

Sigh, it really feels sad to be born with this defect. But look at the bright side, you guys can never know what it's like to have tinnitus. Yes, you can hear what it is like, but can you actually 'experience' the tinnitus? I don't think so.

Like, at first you might think it's bad, and it probably is, but that curiosity will tickle your balls slowly but surely until you feel like you're about to burst.

And to the topic of bursting, I haven't busted a nut for 2 weeks!

GASP!

2 WEEKS?!

AUTHOR-SAMA HAS COMMITED TO ABSTINENCE FOR 2 WEEKS STRAIGHT?! NOT ONCE DID HE COOM TO HOT ANIME MEN AND BOYS?!

Yes, you little cunts, you think I preach something I don't do?! Fuck you, if I—a heinous dopamine addict—was able to do it, then you can too.

It's not a matter of "Can I?" No, this is a matter of "Will I?"

So, you just need to do it!

Also, really recommend joining the Nofap reddit. I really enjoy reading those people below me who failed and relapsed earlier than me! It just really strokes my ego.

Yes, the fuel of my growth is my superiority complex.

I'm stronger, faster, smarter, I'm better! I'M BETTER!

*Lazer eyes the fuck out of everyone as a wicked devil laughs maniacally on stage*

Okay, so yeah, goodbye you little bitch, your author is fucking sick right now and can't enjoy the benefits of not fapping for 2 weeks straight.