Breaking Down Emotional Walls

ZEES POV

Looking at her peacefully sleeping brought a smile to my lips.

I knew my comrades suspected I loved her, but I couldn't care less.

Ren is a strong, independent, and bravest soldier I've ever met.

She has always been stubborn and thick-headed but beneath that toughness, she's the warmest girl I've ever met.

We've had our differences and misunderstanding once or twice but we never let them get in the way of our friendship.

It's been a long and stressful week and I'm glad she didn't stop me from taking care of her this time around.

Seeing her get shot earlier aroused a fear I never knew existed in my life and I've seen how fragile and broken she's been ever since she spoke with the Doctor.

I figured it has something to do with her family because that's a touchy subject she never liked to raise.

I've grown to love her with each passing day and I know I can only be a good friend to her but before anything else.

I'll help her eliminate Diablo from the painful chapter of her life once and for all.

Walking to my bed beside hers I lay down to rest my aching muscles knowing there were many tasks to complete in the days ahead.

Waking up the next morning, I realized she wasn't in her bed. Walking to the shower and locker room I called out to her but there still wasn't any reply.

"Where could she have gone to" muttered to myself.

I grew anxious but seeing a note stuck on my locker with her handwriting on it made me breath peacefully.

It read,

Gm sleepy head, off to town will be back ASAP.

Fuego.

A smile lit up my face when I realised where she had headed to.

Ren's POV

Waking up as early as possible, I glanced by my side and saw Zee still asleep.

I walked to the bathroom and took a quick shower making sure not to wet my bandage.

"Fuck" I cursed realizing I had wet a part of it.

" This bandage is becoming a headache already" I muttered.

Dressing up in a casual white shirt and pants I took a cab giving directions to the Rodriguez and Gilbert (R&G hospital) .

I gave my information to the nurse at the counter,she had a long brown hair with a simple makeup on.

She called the doctor and in no time I was directed to his office.

I knew I had to prepare myself for what the day was about to bring.

I entered after a knock and saw him seated behind his desk filled with files.

"Good morning Ren" he greeted sounding surprised with a warm smile on his face when I entered and engulfed me in a warm hug that I never knew I'd missed dearly.

"Have a seat" he offered the chair opposite his as I made myself comfortable.

He studied my features for some few seconds and started with random questions like,

How's your ribs?

Are you in much pain?

Did the pain killers help?

Have you had any breakfast yet? and blaah blaah blaah.

I chuckled slightly scratching my head nervously as I watched him smile as usual.

"It's good to have you here Ren" he spoke sincerely.

"It's been years since you last stepped here and I'm sure your mom will be very delighted".

"Now lets get you checked first, shall we?" he said getting to his feet.

Few seconds later a nurse walked in with some few bandages to dress up my wound.

I remained silent throughout thinking about how and what my reaction will be when I see her and he also seemed to understand my silence since he kept quiet throughout dressing my wound.

"We're done here" he uttered after wrapping up the bandaged.

"Thanks" I muttered adjusting my dress.

"She's in room 101, you can see her any moment from now" he spoke clearing his voice and awkwardly excusing himself to let me mentally and emotionally prepare myself.

I walked out of the office and now I'm standing infront of the door debating whether I should enter or not.

Taking in a deep breath I finally opened and saw a lady-like figure laying on the bed.

She had many tubes and oxygen connected on her and my heart clenched at the sight.

Not being able to recognize her except her familiar long blonde hair, I went closer and stumbled back with tears threatening to spill from my eyes.

The most beautiful and curvaceous woman I used to know as my mom had now grown lean and pale over the years I'd seen her.

She looked helpless and in pain with the shallow breathe she took every second.

I was so lost in thoughts thinking about how everything fell apart that

I didn't notice when someone walked in behind me.

"Your mom used to tell me how proud she was of you every second of the day we worked together" Doctor Rodriguez stated.

"She always knew you were a strong and intelligent young lady.

" I know she's proud of you and so am I".

" I'm proud of how strong you've become after all you've been through" Doctor spoke behind me I didn't realize tears when tears built up in my eyes.

"Controlling your emotions and actions is a duty of a soldier but at times you've got to let go and let out all the pain" he said to me as I broke down my strong walls letting the tears flow.

I wept on my knees pleading for forgiveness.

I have been a bad daughter to my parents and I hope they can find it in their hearts forgive me.

I neglected the only family I had left for so many years because of my greed for vengeance.

"I wonder what they'd think of me if they were still around Doctor"I spoke breaking in between words.

"I promised dad I'd take care of mom whenever he wasn't around and never leave her sight but what did I do? " I screamed in silence.