Chapter 1

'' See you tomorrow Y.N'' says my best friend, as she prepares her stuff to leave the studio.

''sure thing Angelina''.

When she finally leaves I decide to stay another 30 minutes to figure out a new choreography. I am part of a dance team in Sydney, Australia. And as a choreographer, I must always have new moves for our dances in mind. I put Pretty Savage by Blackpink on, (I've started to get into kpop lately and I found this cool kpop girl group they're such a bop, I mean I also have to know something about my culture) and start dancing automatically forgetting about my worries. You see, dance gives me this feeling of security. That everything is going to be alright and when I dance I just forget about the world and all of my problems.

Speaking of problems, I'm in the middle of dancing when I feel a harsh pain in my side. Oh c'mon, can't you leave me for just one day. I walk closer to the mirror that occupies a whole wall of the studio. I lift my shirt to reveal some roman numbers tattooed on my side: XX.VII.MMXXX (20.07.2030) it's the date of the day when I'm meeting my soulmate.

I'm mad, a lot. First of all, I'm mad at the person who invented this soulmate thing in the first place. I'm suffering every single day just because I still haven't met him, this soulmate connexion makes it difficult, I don't even wanna have a soulmate. I mean what is even the point of all this bullshit. Second of all, I'm mad at myself, because I'm meeting the person that I'm bonded to be within exactly two days, and I still can't bring myself to believe in this whole soulmate thing. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I know that I will. Whoever is my soulmate I'm gonna hurt him, by rejecting him. I mean I can't force myself to be with someone that I don't even love. And even if I force myself it's gonna be a toxic relationship and it's the last thing I want.

My thoughts are interrupted by someone speaking behind me:

''How many days are left?''

I turn around to see my dad standing in front of me looking at my tattoo. I cover it by pulling down my shirt.

''You could've at least coughed, you know, to announce your presence''

He chuckles and I follow suit, I just can't get mad at my dad. He's everything I have left.

''C'mon I'm driving you home''

I pack my things and follow him outside to his car. The ride was silent until dad decides to break it.

''So, I'm going out for dinner with Tiffany, and I was thinking maybe you... would join us''

Here we go again, ok calm your inner aggressive self Y.N.

I look at him and flash him a fake smile.

''It's okay, go and enjoy your little date together, I have some work to do''

''Well if you say so'' he says with a disappointed tone then continues.

''Maybe another time, Tiffany wants to meet you''

''Yeah, maybe another time'' I say as I make a mental note to find a valid excuse next time to not meet this Tiffany.

When we get home, dad starts preparing himself for his date, and I go to take a shower. As I take off my clothes, I stare at my tattoo's reflection in the mirror. I wish I died before getting it at 18 years old.

FLASHBACK 2 YEARS AGO:

Y.N P.O.V 18 YEARS OLD:

I'm locked in my room wasting all the tears from my body. When I suddenly hear knocking on my door. It's dad, who else could it be.

''Go away I want to be alone''

But of course, he doesn't listen to me. He opens the door and sits in front of me on my bed.

''Sweetie, it's your birthday, what are you doing here, you should be hanging out with your friends not crying. What are you even crying for?''

''Did you know it's my 18th birthday, it's not just ANY birthday''

''And.. what's the problem?''

''Dad are you kidding me, I already got my tattoo. What if I end up like you and mom? I don't want that to happen'' I manage to say in between my sobs.

''Honey, you know that's never gonna happen to you. I and your mom got divorced because... well because.''

''Because there's nothing called fate dad nor soulmates. It's all just lies. If you two were fated, we'll never be here in Australia, we'll be in Korea instead, with my twin brother and mom.''

''Y.N please calm down, you'll see everything is going to be alright'' after staying quiet for a moment he continues. ''Let me see the date''

I stare at him for a second to see if he's joking, but when I notice his serious expression, I lift my shirt for him to see the date tattooed on my side. He contemplates it for a while then he says:

''It's in two years from now. You still have a lot of time to think about this whole thing Y.N. I'm sure that you and your soulmate are going to live a happy life, you'll see''

''Just leave me alone for now dad, please.''

''Okay,'' he murmurs before kissing my forehead and leaving.

I don't want to meet you. I'm afraid you'll hurt me.

END FLASHBACK.

I wrap a towel around my body and get out of the bathroom. I wear an oversized shirt with some shorts for the bottom. I dry my hair with the towel and then leave it loose so that it can fully dry by itself. I take my laptop and go downstairs to the living room to start editing the video that we filmed today at the studio so that I can post it on our YouTube channel.

I see that my dad is struggling to put on his necktie, as always. I put my laptop on the coffee table and walk to him to help him with his necktie. I chuckle as I say:

''You still can't put it on yourself''

He laughs as well then say:

''I know right, your mom would always complain about it, but she loved tying it for me anyway''

The smile that was on my face disappeared upon the mention of my mom.

''Dad.. do you... still love her?''

He looks at me with sad eyes.

''I do, honey. I still do. But we can't be together, she found someone else and so I did''

I look down suppressing the urge of crying. I miss my mom. Ever since I moved with my dad to Australia, she cut all ways of connexion with us. I don't even remember what she looks like. I was five when everything happened. And my brother, does he look like me? I mean dad says that we're twins but do we look like each other. I know it may sound like a ridiculous question but I want to know.

I can feel my dad pulling me into his embrace as he kisses the top of my head.

''I have to go now okay, I'll see you later this night. You can invite Angelina over and order some pizza, what do you think''

'' Sure, enjoy your date dad'' I say knowing for a fact that he won't come back this night and stay over at Tiffany's.

And with that, he opens the door and leaves me alone with my thoughts, my dangerous thoughts.

I can't hold it in anymore I sit on the floor and start crying. I miss my mom and my brother. I want to be happy too. If only this soulmate thing didn't exist, I and my family would still be together, and I would have found someone that can love me and I can love him back without the fear of him judging me because I don't believe in fate. That's also why I don't tell anyone about it. The only two people that know about it are my dad and my best friend Angelina. And I appreciate that they aren't judging me. Other people would think of me as some aliens coming from another planet and call me weird because in a world where everyone is waiting for that day when they're meeting the person that they're born to be with, and having a tattoo that will match the one that they're soulmate has I don't believe in the word fate.

I also feel bad for my soulmate, I can't even imagine his reaction when I'm going to tell him that I don't want to be with him. What if he's a criminal or a psychopath. Is he going to kill me?

Just thinking about all of this makes me hate this soulmate thing even more. I keep crying, remembering all the memories that I have with mom and my twin brother, when suddenly I hear a voice in my head, a voice that isn't mine, it's a guy's voice.

''Please don't cry''

I stand up in shock, who is this!!?

'' I know that you hate me, but please don't cry, it breaks my heart to know that you're in pain''

Okay, I must have gone mad, because this is not normal. I put my hand on my chest, my heart hurts, it hurts so bad. Is it because I and my soulmate are both in pain, or because we haven't met yet. Aaaaah what is going on with me??!!

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