Songs of departure and heartbreak in the wilderness

The car that Su Ran was riding in slowly drove into the slightly old residential area. He gently pressed the car window, looking eagerly, wanting to see if his luggage had been moved out by Xu Tianna. When he found that his luggage was not downstairs, a look of satisfaction appeared on his face. The last warning seemed to have worked, which made him secretly relieved.

He walked upstairs with a brisk pace and opened the door, but the house was pitch black. His eyes unconsciously cast towards Xu Tianna's room, and there was no light through the crack of the door. It turned out that she did not come back tonight, no wonder she did not see her car downstairs, and her luggage was still in the same place. Su Ran thought, it's okay if she doesn't come back, I can stay here for another night tonight, which may be the only comfort God gave him at the end of this long day.

After a simple wash, Su Ran lay on the bed and reached out to turn off the light. At the moment when the darkness shrouded, the world seemed to be quiet in an instant. He thought he could fall asleep quickly, but some fragments of the past flooded into his mind like a tide. Those pictures were all about memories of the past. Whenever he recalled the past, he would inevitably be involved in the emptiness and desolation in his heart. He was full of doubts. Why could Lu Chen and Lin Yue walk hand in hand firmly after graduation and enter the palace of marriage, but he and Lin Yue ended up with such a bleak ending? What did he do wrong? How much he wanted Lin Yue to tell him the answer in person, but even such a simple request has become a luxury now.

In this way, Su Ran spent two years in this unclear pain, and his life was corrupted because of it. He wiped his face hard, sat up from the bed, and sat there blankly for a long time. Then, he got out of bed and found the guitar that he hadn't touched for a long time from the cabinet. He thought, let's sing a song, just as a gift to myself and Lin Yue.

He picked up the tuner and tuned it carefully, plucking the strings gently, and the melody of Ying Hao's "Lost" slowly sang from his mouth: "Who can see this prosperity clearly, once again, blurred eyes; who can hide from this hustle and bustle, once again, eroding you; who has ever mentioned this past, once again, forgetting you; who will meet again in this next life, and fall in love with you again. I'm lost, I can't find the map, this road of love is so hard to walk; I'm lost, I can't find a way back, how can this world become so numb; I'm lost, I can't find the way I came, and everyone around me is like a stranger; I'm lost, I'm standing still, and your heart has flown far away..." When singing the last sentence, Su Ran's eyes were warm, and tears were about to burst out. He felt that he was really lost. He thought he had walked a long way in the past two years, but he didn't expect that on this map of love, he was just wandering in the same place, while her heart had already flown far away. He lit a cigarette and just took a puff when the door was suddenly knocked. The sudden sound scared him so much that he almost broke the guitar strings. He was full of doubts. Wasn't there no one at home?

Xu Tianna's voice came from outside the door: "If you are so interested in singing, please find a place where there is no one. This is a residential area."

Su Ran put on slippers and opened the door. He saw Xu Tianna standing in front of him in suspender pajamas. Her curvy figure is not inferior to Lin Yue at all. Her pretty face looks particularly peaceful under the dim light. This unique temperament makes her extraordinary charm.

"Didn't you hear me singing just now: Am I lost? Can I find a place where there is no one if I am lost?" Su Ran said with a smile.

"It's a farce." Xu Tianna responded.

Su Ran ignored her dissatisfaction and asked, "Why are you at home?"

"I've been here all the time."

"I didn't see your car downstairs."

"I parked it in the open space opposite."

"No wonder." Su Ran sighed and wanted to close the door, fearing that Xu Tianna would mention moving to him. It was almost one o'clock in the morning, and he had no idea where to move to.

Xu Tianna pushed the door with both hands to stop him from closing it.

Su Ran glared at her and asked, "You're not really going to let me move out now, are you?"

"No." Xu Tianna paused for a moment and said, "Are you lost again because you want to sing? I can take you to a place where there is no one and let you vent."

"Really? Are you so kind?" Su Ran asked cautiously.

"Anyway, I've been awakened by your noise. If you're still interested, I can be your audience." She thought for a moment and added, "You have a good voice."

Su Ran thought that this might be Xu Tianna's initiative to repair the relationship with him, or she was amazed by his singing, or she might just pity him as a decadent man. Regardless of the motive, he felt that he could agree to her request. After all, he was also suffering from insomnia, so let's indulge together.

After a while, Xu Tianna changed her clothes, and Su Ran, wearing pajamas, slippers, holding a guitar, walked downstairs with her one after the other.

Xu Tianna drove her own car, Su Ran opened the door and sat in the passenger seat. It's not that he hasn't ridden in luxury cars before, but this is the first time he's ridden in an Audi Q7, and he couldn't help but look at it a few more times out of curiosity.

Before he could fasten his seat belt, Xu Tianna stepped on the accelerator hard, and the strong push back force of the Q7 almost made him hit the car window.

"At this late hour, do you want to sit next to a dead body?" Su Ran touched his head that was hit and said angrily to Xu Tianna.

"Who told you not to wear a seat belt? People who don't follow the rules deserve to be hit." Xu Tianna responded indifferently.

Su Ran pointed at her and said angrily but helplessly: "You are taking revenge on me!"

Xu Tianna ignored him and continued to drive expressionlessly.

About twenty minutes later, Xu Tianna really took him to a deserted wasteland in the suburbs. She stopped the car, pulled the handbrake, and finally turned off the engine and said: "There is no one here, sing as much as you want."

"The space in the car is too small, I can't perform." Su Ran said.

"Then go down and sing."

"Do you think I'm stupid? You drive the car away later, where can I go to complain about my injustice?" Su Ran said vigilantly. Since she suddenly started the car when he was not wearing a seat belt, he suspected that she had bad intentions.

"You talk too much nonsense." Xu Tianna said as she unbuckled her seat belt and got out of the car first. She looked open and aboveboard, which made Su Ran look a little mean.

Su Ran also got out of the car and stood side by side with Xu Tianna. He looked up at the sky and found that the weather was good this night, with bright moon and sparse stars, and the air was fresh and pleasant. He suddenly felt that he had finally escaped from the hustle and bustle of the world.

At this moment, his heart gradually calmed down, and he was full of gratitude to Xu Tianna, grateful that she had such an interest in bringing him to this quiet place. He urgently needed to vent, to release all the unhappiness accumulated in his heart and his dissatisfaction with reality.

He plucked the guitar strings and took the lead in singing Jin Wulin's "Metamorphosis". After the song, Xu Tianna unexpectedly applauded him and asked, "Do you like serious music too?"

"Yes, if there are more instruments, it will feel better to sing." Su Ran said, and was also a little surprised that Xu Tianna knew this song. You should know that serious music is not popular music. It is more artistic and academic. Both the singer and the audience need to have a certain aesthetic quality.

Xu Tianna nodded and said, "You are not as stupid as you look."

"Judging people by appearance, this is your narrow-mindedness." Su Ran responded unyieldingly.

Xu Tianna did not care about the verbal confrontation between them, but just said to him, "Please continue."

Su Ran put down the guitar and said to Xu Tianna, "You should know a lot about music. Can you play guitar? Come on."

"I agreed to be the audience, you continue." Xu Tianna refused.

Su Ran nodded. On such a gloomy night, in the boundless wilderness, there was a beautiful woman willing to be his audience. This seemed to be a precious gift from God to him.

Thinking of this, he suddenly felt more guilty about his previous rude attitude towards Xu Tianna. In fact, she was really good to me. Not only did she lend me money, she also took me in for an extra night, and now she was accompanying me to vent my depression. Perhaps, it was time to change my rough temper.

A cold wind blew, and Xu Tianna subconsciously tucked in her slightly thin clothes.

Su Ran said to her reluctantly: "Get in the car, I'll vent it myself."

"Are you sure?"

Su Ran nodded.

Xu Tianna opened the door and got in the car, but she was not completely isolated from him. She pressed the window, held her chin with one hand, and looked at him intently, as if she was looking forward to his next song.

Su Ran plucked the guitar strings again and sang another song. Just as he was immersed in the singing, the car behind him suddenly started. He turned back in surprise and saw that Xu Tianna had fastened her seat belt.

She said to him with a half-smile: "Your voice is really good. However, I have to go first. This is a punishment for your breaking your promise and being rude and unreasonable." After that, the car rushed away like an arrow from a bow, breaking through the darkness of the night.

"I'll go!" Su Ran took off her slippers angrily and threw them at her car, but the slippers hit the car body, but it didn't hurt.

"You bastard, you cruel woman! I knew you had bad intentions and took advantage of my sympathy. Be careful of retribution! I'm not done with you!" Su Ran was so anxious that he turned around in place, cursing incoherently at Xu Tianna who had disappeared from his sight.

Su Ran has always been a person with an easy-going personality, easy to get close to others and not good at guarding against others. Now that he has ended up like this, he can't help but regret it. He secretly swore in his heart that he would never trust others so easily in the future.

Su Ran stood alone in the wilderness, looking at the direction where the car was going away, with mixed feelings in his heart. After a long time, he came to his senses, sighed helplessly, held the guitar, dragged his heavy steps, and walked slowly back along the way he came. The night wind blew on his thin pajamas, and he couldn't help shivering, but at this moment the coldness in his heart far exceeded the coldness of his body.

When he returned to the community, it was already slightly bright. Su Ran walked upstairs tiredly and opened the door. The house was still empty. He walked straight to his room, threw the guitar on the bed casually, and then collapsed on the sofa. What had just happened kept emerging in his mind. He was angry at Xu Tianna's behavior and extremely confused about his situation.

After an unknown period of time, Su Ran fell asleep in a daze. In his dream, he returned to his college days, and the beautiful scenes of being with Lin Yue flashed one by one. They read books together in the campus library, strolled on the playground, and performed on the stage... However, every time the screen switched to the moment of graduation, he would wake up from his dream. Every time he woke up, he would feel a heartache, as if a knife was cutting his heart.

When Su Ran woke up again, it was already afternoon. He rubbed his sleepy eyes and felt hungry. He got up and walked to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, and found that there were only some simple ingredients in it. He cooked a bowl of noodles casually, and lost his appetite after a few bites.

He returned to the living room, sat on the sofa, turned on the TV, but had no intention of watching it. His thoughts involuntarily drifted to Xu Tianna again. He didn't know where she was now, and he didn't know why she did this to him. Just then, his mobile phone suddenly rang. He picked up the phone and saw that it was an unfamiliar number. He hesitated for a moment, but still answered the call.

"Hello, is this Su Ran?" A familiar voice came from the other end of the phone.

Su Ran was startled, and he recognized that it was Lin Yue's voice.

"Lin Yue, is that you? Why did you call me?" Su Ran asked excitedly.

"I... I want to talk to you. Can we meet?" Lin Yue's voice trembled a little, as if there was something unspeakable.

Su Ran was ecstatic. He had waited for this moment for too long. "Okay, of course. Where do we meet?"

"Just at the coffee shop we used to go to." Lin Yue said.

"Okay, I'll be there right away." Su Ran hung up the phone and immediately got up to change clothes. He was extremely excited, as if the flame of hope had been rekindled in his heart. He simply tidied his hair, then hurried out and ran towards the coffee shop.

On the way to the coffee shop, Su Ran's mind kept emerging with various scenes of meeting Lin Yue. He was wondering, what would Lin Yue say to him? Did she want to get back together with him? Or did she just want to talk to him about the recent situation? The more he thought about it, the more nervous he became, and his pace unconsciously quickened.

When he arrived at the door of the coffee shop, he took a deep breath, then slowly opened the door and walked in. He saw Lin Yue sitting in the corner at a glance. She looked a little haggard, but still beautiful. Su Ran's heartbeat suddenly accelerated, and he slowly walked towards Lin Yue and sat down opposite her.

"Lin Yue, long time no see." Su Ran said softly.

"Long time no see, Su Ran." Lin Yue raised her head and looked at Su Ran, with a complex light flashing in her eyes.

"How have you been recently?" Su Ran asked.

"I... I'm not doing well." Lin Yue lowered her head and said softly.

"What's wrong? What happened?" Su Ran asked with concern.

Lin Yue was silent for a while, then slowly said: "Lu Chen and I broke up."

Su Ran was shocked, he didn't expect to hear such news. "Why? Haven't you always been good?"

"Many things are not what they seem on the surface." Lin Yue sighed and said, "Since graduation, there have been more and more conflicts between us. He is very busy at work and rarely has time to accompany me. The feelings between us have gradually faded."

Su Ran listened to Lin Yue's story, with mixed feelings in his heart. He had envied the relationship between Lu Chen and Lin Yue countless times, but now they have come to this point.

"What are you going to do now?" Su Ran asked.

"I don't know. I just feel very confused and don't know where to go." Lin Yue's eyes were shining with tears.

Su Ran looked at Lin Yue's sad look and felt distressed. He wanted to comfort her, but he didn't know what to say.

"Lin Yue, no matter what, I will be by your side to support you." Su Ran held Lin Yue's hand and said.

Lin Yue raised her head and looked at Su Ran, her eyes full of gratitude. "Su Ran, thank you. In fact, I came to you today and I have something else to tell you."

"What is it?" Su Ran asked.

"I... I found that I still can't forget you." Lin Yue said with a red face.

Su Ran was ecstatic. He had waited for this sentence for too long. "Lin Yue, I can't forget you either."

Lin Yue looked at Su Ran, with a happy light in her eyes. "Then can we... can we start over?"

Su Ran nodded without hesitation. "Of course, Lin Yue. I'm willing to start over with you."

Just then, Su Ran's phone rang suddenly. He picked up the phone and saw that it was a call from Xu Tianna. He hesitated for a while, not knowing whether to answer it.

"You answer it, maybe there is something important." Lin Yue said.

Su Ran nodded and picked up the phone. "Hello, Xu Tianna, what's the matter?"

"Su Ran, where are you? I have something to tell you." Xu Tianna's voice was a little anxious.

"I'm outside, just tell me on the phone if you have anything to say." Su Ran said.

"No, this matter is very important, I must tell you in person. Where are you now? I'll find you." Xu Tianna said.

Su Ran felt helpless, he looked at Lin Yue, and then said: "I'm in the coffee shop we used to go to."

"Okay, I'll come right over." Xu Tianna hung up the phone.

Su Ran put down the phone, feeling a little uneasy. He didn't know what Xu Tianna would say to him, nor did he know what impact her appearance would have on the relationship that he and Lin Yue had just started over.

Lin Yue seemed to see Su Ran's uneasiness. She held Su Ran's hand and said, "Su Ran, no matter what happens, I believe in you."

Su Ran looked at Lin Yue and was moved. "Lin Yue, thank you."

Not long after, Xu Tianna came to the coffee shop. She walked into the coffee shop and saw Su Ran and Lin Yue sitting together, holding hands. Her face changed slightly, but soon returned to normal.

"Su Ran, I have something to tell you." Xu Tianna walked up to Su Ran and said.

"Xu Tianna, just say whatever you want." Su Ran said.

Xu Tianna looked at Lin Yue, and then said to Su Ran, "Su Ran, actually I like you."

Su Ran was shocked. He didn't expect Xu Tianna to say such a thing suddenly. He looked at Lin Yue and found that her face turned a little pale.

"Xu Tianna, don't joke." Su Ran said.

"I'm not kidding, Su Ran. I'm serious. From the moment you moved into my house, I had a good impression of you. Later, when I heard you sing, I found that you are a very talented person, and my feelings for you are getting deeper and deeper." Xu Tianna looked at Su Ran affectionately and said.

Su Ran was tangled in his heart, and he didn't know how to face Xu Tianna's feelings. He just started over with Lin Yue, and he didn't want to hurt Lin Yue or Xu Tianna.

"Xu Tianna, I am very grateful for your feelings for me. However, I have started over with Lin Yue. I can't betray her." Su Ran said.

Xu Tianna listened to Su Ran's words, and a trace of disappointment flashed in her eyes. "Su Ran, are you really not going to think about it again?"

"Xu Tianna, I'm sorry. I have made a decision." Su Ran said firmly.

Xu Tianna was silent for a while, and then said: "Okay, Su Ran. Since you have made a decision, I respect your choice. But, I hope we can still be friends."

"Of course, Xu Tianna. We are still friends." Su Ran said.

Xu Tianna nodded, then turned and left the coffee shop.

Su Ran looked at Xu Tianna's back as she left, feeling a little guilty. He knew he had hurt Xu Tianna, but he had no choice.

"Su Ran, you don't have to feel guilty. Emotional matters are not important.