Chapter 44 - True Feeling

"Wh-what did you say Emiya-kun, y-you ha-have a fe-feeling for me?"

Rin look very shocked, she didn't expect that the boy that she loved very much was having a feeling for her. Just like her who have a feeling for him.

"Y-you must be lying to me right, because the one that you loved was Sakura my little sister. Who are more beautiful than me and have a body that was nicer than me."

"At first, I was thinking like that, too. And I my self really sure that the one I truly loved was only Sakura. But everything has changing when I heard a lot of thing from Archer. Because of Archer words, I realized that I also have a feeling for you, Tohsaka."

Shirou honest words, making Rin faces become more red. Her heart and mind isn't ready to accept the confession from the boy she loved.

"Ba-baka! Why did you say that kind of words to me even though you already have Sakura! A-are you try to cheat on her!? A-and wh-what kind of thing that Archer say to you, to the point you confessing to me!"

Right now, Rin was feel really happy because Shirou are confessing to her. But her inner tsundere was preventing her to say a correct words.

"A lot of things, like his wife in the past was your older self and he was an alternate version of me who was choosing a wrong path that force him to be a lapdog for a devil called Alaya."

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"A-Archer was the alternate future version of you, and his wife was alternate version of me?" Rin said with a shocked look on her faces. "That's sound impossible and ridiculous for me, but I knew that you are was not someone who will try to lie to me, so I don't have a choice except to believing it. Even though my heart and mind still having a hard time to accepting it."

"Well, I also feeling like that at first Tohsaka," Shirou said with a sigh. "But after thinking about it for a while, I realized that I also love you, long before the feeling that I have for Sakura was grew. For a long time I admire you as a beautiful girl who are nice to everyone and not arrogant at all, you are smart and always number one in every lesson at our school. But I starting have a feeling for you, when you are helping me at the third grade in middle school right when I have an injury after I falling down practicing a high jump."

Shirou explanation making Rin remembering a scene about two years before, when she and Shirou was in the third grade of middle school. At the time when she was seeing Shirou hard working determination in the training he do for a high jump. The seed of loved was start to grow inside her heart, for her Shirou look really cool at that time when he showing his determination.

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"Ah, did you mean the time when you training high jump like crazy even though you don't have talent for it and I stupidly watching you from the beginning till the end of your training. Because at that time I feel you who are not giving up look really cool," Rin said with a blush. "But I end up helping you, because your head was hitting a ground."

"So you also remembering that moment," Shirou said with a smile on his faces. "And not only that you also remember it in detail while thinking that I'm cool? Are that means are you also have a feeling for me Tohsaka?"

"D-Don't misunderstand Sh-Shirou-kun! I-I'm saying that because you are really look cool at that time! B-But that doesn't mean that I have a feeling for you, I-I like you b-but just as a close friend, no-nothing more," Rin said who answering Shirou question with her tsundere trait. And she didn't realize that she calling Shirou with his name not with his family name like she usually do.

Shirou was smiling when he heard Rin answer, he already realized that Rin was loving him. But sadly her tsundere side, making her cannot saying her true feeling to Shirou.

"You know Tohsaka, it was not good if you keep lying to yourself like that," Shirou said with a sigh. "To think thar my first love was a pure tsundere, what a mess that I got."

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"I'm not a tsundere!" Rin shouted while hitting Shirou body because she cannot accept Shirou words.

Her punch was not that strong because she only hit Shirou with a normal punch that not strengthen by magic. But of course Shirou still feel hurt because of it, but Shirou body was different from a normal human because of Avalon and the nano Machines inside his body. Making him can heal a simple injury and hurt in instant.

"If you are not a tsundere, then why did you angry and hit me?" Asked Shirou. "Aren't that a real proof that you are indeed a tsundere."

Shirou words making Rin cannot do anything to Shirou. Because Shirou words was one hundred percent true.

"Urrrgh! Why did I must falling in love to a boy that also loved by my little sister, and the worst thing is he falling in love with me and to my little at the same times! What is my sin that triggering this kind of event!" Rin kneeling down at her bed while crying. She loved Shirou very much, and she feel very happy that Shirou love her too. But sadly she doesn't want to disturb the relationship between her little sister and the boy she loved.

For her Sakura happines was number one, because her little sister already having too much suffering because of her and her father. There is no way that she will taking the only happines that her little sister have. And for her little sister that happines was being with Shirou.

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"Rin it look like your younger self is already confess her feeling to the younger me, but she reject a chance to became his lover. Because she doesn't want to make Sakura feel sad," Archer said who was seeing Shirou and Rin situation from the gap in the sliding door. "It look like you need to giving her a push. A push that will make her made a good decision."

"Yeah, it look like I really need to give her a push, or she will be in trouble," Adult Rin said with a sigh. "A polygamy was not a forbidden thing because in this period the birthrate in Japan was really low so a poligamy was permitted by law. She suppossed to be have that knowledge, but her loved for Sakura is bigger than her loved to the men she loved that's why she give up her feeling for the happines of her little sister. I also doing the same thing in the past but sadly I who ended up with you even though I already giving up my feeling and because of that Sakura die in vain. So no matter what happen, my younger self must not give up and became the first wife of Emiya Shirou."

"But it was not an easy task, Rin," Archer said with a sigh. "Don't forget that she is as stubborn as you. So even if it you who try to convince her it will be very hard."

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Without Rin and Shirou know, Sakura was also there when Shirou confess his feeling to Rin. She was invisible to both of them, because Rider concealing her appearance with magic. Sakura at first only want to meet with her older sister and then reconciliating after they hasn't became a sibling for more than ten years.

But when she saw already inside her sister room, Sakura was asking Rider to make her invisible to Rin and Shirou. Because she want to eavesdrop to what Shirou and Rin talking about. And Sakura was feel really shocked when she heard that her senpai not also has a feeling for her but also for her older sister.

But what she didn't expect is that her older sister also had a feeling for the men she loved. Both the Tohsaka sibling was falling in love to a same men, how ironic is that?

Sakura was feeling angry of course to Shirou and to Rin. To Shirou she angry because she thought that he is a womanizer, to Rin because she once more want to taking over the happines that she got.

But Rin and Shirou last words making her lost her anger.

Her older sister said that she cannot be with him because it will hurt her feeling while Shirou said that even though he want Rin being honest to her true feeling he didn't want to force her to love him, because that kind of thing was not right for him for his principle of life.

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