109 You are my light

Jack. 

This is so freaking embarrassing. I didn't want him to see me like this. I should've called. Given an excuse to postpone the date but I couldn't as my phone is still in the apartment and with the way I left, I can't even go back for it. I don't usually aggravate him. I don't know what came over me tonight. I should've just indulged him for a couple of minutes and then left. It would have been so easy but I had to fire up his anger and now look at what has happened. 

''Please Jack,'' he uses that soothing voice that I can't resist. 

I can't ask him to take care of me. Once I do, this thing between us will be ruined. We are still in the early stages of our relationship. I like him too much to do this. 

''I can't ask you to do this,'' I reply dead-pan. 

The last thing I would do is take our relationship to that level. It has just been a week. I cannot and will not ask him to pay my bills. That is not what this is about.