12 The getting to know each other phase.

Lance

"I know you want to know about the girl I was with,"

We are lying down next to each other on the floor since the bed was too small to fit both of us. My bed sheet is sprawled on the floor. We didn't end up having sex but I feel even closer to him. I rest my weight on my elbow as I face him.

"I don't need to know," jealousy comes out from my tone. I don't want to think about how perfect she would fit with him unlike me. I am nothing special, from my looks to attitude. Everything about me is the opposite of what he needs in a person. The fact that he has a girl all over him will forever make me jealous.

"I want to tell you though, I know you saw her," he brushes a strand of hair from my face and I grab his hand in mine. He manages a smile and leans forward for a kiss.

"Who is she?"

"She is my father's best friend and business partners daughter, her name is Lisa," he explains and the fact that there is a name to the face makes the jealousy even more intense.

"Is she like your...." I hesitate, not wanting to say it out loud. He knows what I want to say but he waits for me to continue "Like your girlfriend?" I ask finally with a loud breath.

He sighs "She is a friend," his answer is honest. It seems like he is hiding something from me though.

"Have you ever fucked her?"

He looks away from me suddenly and I have my answer, they are not just friends "Once, it was a drunken moment, I regretted it immediately I was sober," he answers still looking away from me. The fact that he seems to always be drunk raises a red flag. This also has me worried.

"You seem to be drunk a lot,"

He faces me again "But not with you," he says like somehow that is supposed to make it alright. I want to know why he feels the need to drink all the time. I understand that we all drink, alcohol is a normal thing for high schoolers but I don't like that he is doing this frequently.

"Do you have a problem with alcohol?" I raise a brow, genuinely concerned about him.

"No."

"It seems like you do," I deter.

"It's not about the alcohol. I just get so frustrated from everything and everyone. It helps me feel numb to it all."

"You said you felt alone when we first met. Is that why you do it?"

He shakes his head "I am scared of disappointing everyone; I am scared of being a failure."

I grab his hands "Why do you think you will be a disappointment?" I ask him because I really want to know. Just because he is gay doesn't mean he won't get accepted. I want him to embrace himself.

"My father is not the easiest person to talk to, he will never understand what i am going through. He won't accept it, he is such a perfectionist," he has already concluded on that. He doesn't know for sure, but he is assuming that his father would hate him. I don't know the relationship he has with his father but from this I can tell it is not the best. On the outside, it might look like my mom and I have a sucky relationship but she would die to make sure I am happy and I appreciate her for that.

"You never know unless you try," I slide my hand down his face in a way to comfort him through his pain and he manages a weak smile. This is hard for him and I want to be with him every step of the way.

"Is your mom coming home tonight?"

I shake my head "She is spending the night with her boyfriend," I avoid the word fiancé because in my heart, I wish she doesn't get married to John. I am not ready for the change that will come with him being my stepfather. He doesn't seem like a bad man but I don't want my life to change right now.

"Oohhhh, so can I spend the night?" his eyes are eager and excitement fills them completely.

"Well Jack was supposed to spend the night," I remember that he could be back soon. He sighs and I feel bad "But I am sure i can cancel on him, he will understand." a smile forms on his lips and I am happy that i am the one that brings this smile on his face.

I lean forward and plant a kiss on his lips and he deepens the kiss by pulling me closer and sliding his tongue into my mouth. We keep kissing, I don't know how long; only separating to catch our breaths and when we finally fall into a slumber, I hold him in my arms and everything feels right with the world.

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I open my eyes to the sun hitting my window. Ford is still sleeping and even in his sleep he looks fucking perfect. I watch him like a creep as his chest rises and falls. His snore is soft and very intriguing—everything about him is interesting.

"Do you like what you see," he mumbles and I jump up so fast, embarrassed from being caught. He chuckles and opens his eyes "Good morning handsome," he sits up on the floor and plants a peck on my lips.

"I have morning breath," I warn him as he tries to deepen the kiss.

"I don't care," he kisses me.

I smile into the kiss because I could get used to this. We are so comfortable with each other, it's perfect. "Are you hungry?" I ask him realizing I am the host here, since this is my house. He shakes his head immediately "It's almost seven, I have to get back home."

I nod because he is right, we slept all through the night in each other's arms. Life doesn't revolve around my bedroom and mom could be home anytime from now. I don't mind her meeting Ford but I don't think he is ready to meet my family. i know that our relationship is going to be at a slow pace and I am ready to trot with him, but at his own time.

"Can I have a shower?" he looks at me as he picks up his uniform from the floor.

"Yeah, sure."

I walk out of my room and he follows me into the tiny bathroom. i share this bathroom with mom and most times she is always hogging up the space. There is a bathtub, a sink and a toilet all close together. There is barely enough space for the both of us but he doesn't seem to mind. This is not like his extravagant bathroom.

"You wanna join me?"

I narrow my eyes from the shock of his words, I have seen him naked, I have sucked his dick, we've showered together but somehow this is still feels new to me. The shy boy in me always comes out in moments like this. "We can't both fit in my tub,"

He laughs and moves closer to me "I don't mind squeezing into your arms," he winks and kisses my forehead gently.

He takes off his boxers and I watch him climb into the tub, he is attempting to seduce me and it is working. I take off mine hurriedly. And climb in next to him, "See we fit perfectly."

His arms wrap around my waist and this excites me much more than I would like to be. He notices and peers at me with a gleam in his eyes "Someone is excited," he exclaims joyously.

I blush as he opens the tap and lets water pour on us. The water starts out cold and he chuckles at my reaction again. "Shit," I scream like a wuss "I can never get used to cold water," I huff as the water heats up.

"What about when I do this?" he grabs me softly and the shivers crawl up my skin. He starts to stoke my member slowly and take a deep breath to calm down. We are literally so close to each other, there is no space in between us and I can feel the throbbing of his heart. He smiles sensuously and from the closeness of our faces, I can smell the cheery cologne that resides from yesterday, his tongue slides into mine while stroking me and I moan out "do you like when ii touch you?" he asks but doesn't stop.

I nod because I don't have the words to comprehend how I am feeling right now in this moment. He smiles and licks the crook of my neck slowly. Water drips down our bodies and the steam resides on the shower curtain. This scene looks straight out of a movie. "Do you want me to stop?"

I shake my head, completely being devoured by this boy. I don't know if I can have my life without him. He is the new normal and I don't want to let him go. He watches me as he pleases e with his whole being.

I close my eyes because the pleasure is a lot. He holds unto me as my knees buckle and I give in to the pleasure. Accomplishment shoots out of him as I shoot all over his hand. "That was the appetizer to when I finally get you all to myself," he winks and I blush and cover my face completely embarrassed.

He tilts my chin up with a warm smile "You are amazing Lance. How did I get so lucky?"

"I'm the lucky one."

"You have no idea what you've done for me. You saved me and you don't even know it," he says as he kisses me again.

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