Jack
"You need to just stop overthinking everything in your relationship,'' Lance tells me with a serious expression on his face.
After our conversation that night, we haven't really talked about any of the problems. It is like at the end of the day, we just brushed it all under the carpet. I am not in denial but I just don't know how to fix things between us.
"You know what my greatest fear is right now?" I ask him. He shakes his head "Losing him is my greatest fear.'' I add sadly because every that thought is at the back of my mind with everything I do.
I don't want to get a job because I don't want a repeat of what happened the last time. I don't want to do anything to upset him. I just want to be on good terms with him all the time and that is not possible because being myself is becoming harder as each day passes by.
"Do you think he doesn't have that fear too?''