Chapter 35

I hurriedly try to close the door when his strong hand wins over mine. His eyes again are set on my scared ones. What do I say? What do I do? Our steps move parallel in sync as he moves closer to me while I step back. Without looking back he slams the door close, "Did you really think you'd run away from me as simple as that?"

Exactly what am I supposed to say? I swallow my liquid, my eyes look everywhere but his face. My hands are shaking and my eyes keep blinking in disbelief. Today in one way or another he is about to find out the truth. His legs keep moving in sync with mine as he tries to step close to me while I step further from him. "Or let me guess, you wanted to out-win me. Maybe an act of revenge because of what happened before I appeared in the picture?"

"It's not like that," If only he knew what my life is going through right now. If only he knew the whole truth. But no. If he knows the truth, maybe, he will hate me even more. He will be disgusted by me and maybe he will thank God that I tried to run away from him.

"Then what is it like? I'd like to know!" His husky voice just got louder than I'd ever heard before. Anyone would notice how angry and pissed off he is. His eyes are red and so is his face. His chest keeps panting harder than a mountain climber.

"Well, Sehun," I can't say it. I can't bring myself to tell him. I close my eyes. My head is now spinning. I can't think or stand straight. My heart could escape my chest any moment now.

My whole body is too startled at the thought that he is extremely mad at me. This is the first time I have seen him like this. An innocent baby man that I thought he'd always be is now an angry freak thanks to me. My whole body suddenly loses balance and all my energy is drained

"Ha Ra!" That is the last word I hear before I go completely numb and all I see is dark.

Sehun's POV

I never thought I would be this angry at her. The only feeling I thought I had was missing her so badly. I didn't think that a small part of the anger that I tried my best to suppress this entire time would be so strong especially now that I have seen her. I made her too scared and look at her, her body is completely numb with her eyes closed. Thank God I was able to catch her before she fell on the floor or the table that was beside her.

Oh, Fuck! What do I do? Is it really because of the fear or is there something else? A sickness that she never told me? Is there actually another reason why she would now want to be with me? And fuck me! Here she is, needing help meanwhile I still think of all the reasons why she would mute me the way she did. Now I can't really blame her for leaving me, can I?

I go to the kitchen to grab some water for her. I have never been in this house. Where is the bathroom? I really need something to calm her head. I need to do something. God! I take my phone from my pocket and dial my private doctor's number,

"Hello," Her voice is cracking, is it that late already?

"Hello, Dr Kim. I need your help. Ahh, Someone just fainted," I run my hand through my hair. Trying to act as calmly as possible.

"First of all, calm down. And second, try to give her first aid. Lay her down and lift her leg. Unbutton any tight cloth. If she can't still wake up in five minutes, text me the address and I will be there,"

"Okay," I nod.

"Don't worry Sehun. That person will be okay. Trust me," She hangs up her phone.

I head back to the living room where she is laying. As I pass through the dining table I can't help but notice what's on it. The kit. I take it and look closely at it. Two red lines. Is this it? Is she pregnant? I look back at her. Is this what she had been hiding from me? Did she think I wouldn't want her after I find out she is having a baby?

My brain still fails to register this thing which has happened so fast, yet my heart is so happy that this has happened. This should be the reason why she decided to mute me. Poor her. She must have had a really hard time with everything all by herself. I crouch down beside the nude green couch and unbutton her shirt, slowly lifting her legs like Dr Kim instructed afterwards.

My eyes can't help but stare at her delicate face and body back and forth.

My brain reminds me that I am not only looking at her. I'm also looking at a little being growing inside of her, our little being. It must have been scary too. It must also be angry at me for making Mommy sad.

"Little being there," I look at her tummy, "Daddy hasn't been very nice to Mommy lately. I'm sorry. I promise to be better, for Mommy and for you," I smile at the thought that someone in a few months to come will call me Daddy. My life indeed has taken a quick turn.

In a few seconds, she finally opens her eyes. She closes them again, the light must be the reason.

"How are you feeling?" I ask her. My one hand is now on her forehead. She looks at me again. Registering who I am, she widens her eyes before they come back to normal.

"Do I scare you that much?" So the situation is this bad. Exactly what was I thinking when I acted that way? And why didn't any of these thoughts ever appear by the time I was thinking of all the reasons why she would mute me?

"Well..."

"I'm sorry. I really am. I know I was a bit harsh. No, I was too harsh on you lately. Please forgive me," I look down, "I also didn't know you'd be carrying something that didn't require any stress,"

"What do you mean?" Her breathing was a little heavier.

"I saw the two lines on the kit," I take the pregnancy kit from the floor and show it two her, "Two lines mean positive right?" I can't help but smile. This exciting news keeps me excited even more over time keeps going.

"But..."

"This is the best news that I have heard since this day has started. Probably since this year has started," I take her hand and look at her straight in the eyes, "Ha Ra, I have a clue of what you are coming from and a history of you and people like me and I promise you, I am different. My brothers and I are different. In fact, a lot of idols out there are different from that mother fucker,"

She silently laughs while clamping her lips at the curse, "Most of us wish to have families and women who will love us inside out. I have been lucky enough to have met you and I am never letting go of this chance,"

"Are you... that happy that I am pregnant... with you?" She silently asks. The truth is, even if she were to tell me the baby belonged to Justin. I would still be a happy Daddy.

Ha Ra's POV

Today, I met with two men. The father of the baby and a man who is more than happy, thinking that he is the father of this baby. I know that one day, he will find out about it and this happiness that he feels right now will simply vanish and all that will be left in tears. Maybe that day is tomorrow or two or twenty years to come. I really wish for that day to be further from here.

At first, the reason was for my own sake. But now, I have seen that happy smile on his face. The happiness is put thanks to the thought that he is the father of this baby. How exactly can I take away that happiness? I have been selfish enough to mute him for the whole two weeks.

His life was not the best during that time, how can I make him miserable once again? For now, I can't tell him and part of me is not even sorry.