chapter fifteen

I don't know how time flies when you are surrounded by a group of good people whose biggest concerns is which is the most hottest boy in the next bench.that's how my days go now.I'm very happy to be with Susan and Ivie. we have even planned a girls night in Susan's home this weekend. now though I can't look continuously into their faces I can manage a fair conversation with them.mom and Annie are very happy with the new developments. they are happy about me letting more people enter into my private shell.they are thinking that there's a distant possibility for me to even find my first love here.I don't think so.I still have the trust issues with people.

though I am good in going with Ivie and Susan ,that's all I've got here.less ,ash ,Chelsie and some of the admirers they have got are in the path of complete ignorance of me.for them I'm invisible. jessil taunts me now and then.he's a happy soul.he sits by me in lunch.I'm growing comfortable with him.Mario and me are still good at smiling each other.I'm accousted to most faces of our class by now.so its not difficult to find my class now.

its been two weeks. I love observing new people. the black white boy, Freddie invades my thoughts now and then. but I'm trying to fight this feeling of a specific interest towards him.Susan confessed that she has a crush on Mario. so Ivie and I plan on the circumstances to be created to join the crushing hearts.I keep looking at Freddie for some reason I can't fathom. he is friendly enough with jessil and Mario.he's most friendly with one of the boys ,Steve.I haven't yet talked to him.Steve sleeps through most classes.but he's the kind of smarty pants boy who get high scores in the paper. when he's awake I can see him sparing glances towards Ivie.

and my current interest,Freddie ( oops, did I call him that ) okay,so he's mostly in deep buissness inside his phone during most of the classes. he pays attention in maybe maths.well,I believe the guys good with maths are kind of complicated.Anyways, I'm being very careful to not to make it obvious to Susan that I spare my precious time to analyze this complicated species.

..now I'm fighting the hard urge to enquire jessil about him....Freddie.plus Susan thinks that jessil have a sort of crush on me.today too I feel my eyeballs dart in his direction when he enters.only twice did our eyes meet .I felt a shiver running down my spine those times.I don't know why this boy is intimidating me.maybe from the day he stood against our physics professor, I feel this urge to keep my eyes on him.I can tell he keeps a low profile. but boy,I won't allow you. its then Ivie invaded my private bubble of thoughts.