8 Kabanata 7

If only I never stayed up late last night, my head wouldn't bother me now.

The classes resumed the following week after the Foundation Week.

Hindi na sana ako pumasok. I think I caught a flu because I feel nauseated.

I took the CR card from it's hook and wore it around my neck. It has a lanyard attached on the card.

I showed it to our teacher and he nodded.

Self-study naman kami ngayon kaya I wasn't really interrupting the class.

Dumiretso na ako sa CR at pinilit sumuka sa may sink. Pero wala naman lumabas.

Nang matapos ang 2nd to the last class, I was relieved like I really wanted to go home earlier yet I insisted to stay.

The last class was homeroom so, all was great until, "Yo, Sophie 3!" (short for Sophomore 3) yes we had three sections and I was assigned in Sophomore 3.

It was none other than, "I'm Alfred Beet, Bff ni Quelly Bael na naging Bf niya na ngayon!"

"Break it down, Yo!" sagot ng mga friends niya sa section namin. Pwede ko ba siya kurutin?!

Lumapit siya sa akin at napansin na namumutla ako more than the usual.

Pinagpapawisan ako eh. "What happened my Bael?" I just rolled my eyes and that made my head throb more.

Tumayo na ako at muntik pa matumba dahil I'm a slight klutz when not aware. Napahawak ako sa desk ko and my bff turned bf made a face.

"I-eexcuse na kita, you don't look well and I'm really worried." Wow!!! Matatouch sana ako pero hindi eh. Strong pa kasi ang mind ko.

Our adviser suddenly came and saw Alfred and I, lumapit ito at nag-usap sila. I didn't hear more of what they were talking about 'cause I suddenly blacked out. The last thing I heard was, "Uy!" and it possibly came from my bf.

The next time I was conscious, I saw my room's ceiling. Finally, my home sweet home.

"Your fever earlier was 37 degrees but now it has subsided to your normal temperature."

I heard him say. Wow! he stayed until now?

It was night time already and I wanted to tell him to go home. But, I didn't speak just because I feel really glad that he's here.

My attachment to him is going well. That means just because I'm in a state of abnormality, you know, my flu, I might really see him as my romantic partner. The one who will finally bring light to my darkness.

The ying to my yang and so on. But, I shook my head for that possibility.

"Umuwi ka na." I told him. He sighed and said, "I bought you some rice porridge, eat it before you sleep again." I was facing my back to him at these moment and seconds later I heard my door closed.

I don't want to deepen my feelings for him. I still want to reserve my love for Kard. I sometimes, feel sorry that I'm dating Alfred.

Pero I like Alfred hindi nga lang kasing tindi ng pagka-gusto ko kay Kard. I want Kard since I laid my eyes on him. I never really thought that I'll like Alfred too.

Marami naman ako crushes sa school rin naman. Dalawa ang most liked ko.

Si Kard ang number 1 and si Alfred ang number 2. My heart has already decided na loyal ako dapat kay Kard.

Ewan ko lang talaga kung bakit um-oo ako kay Alfred na maging gf niya.

Maybe I was lonely? But no! I don't feel lonely.

I just feel empty and got pressured at the time. I know we've just started dating pero ayoko na magsinungaling sa sarili ko at kay Alfred. Once na gumaling na ako, I'll talk to him and tell him that we're better off as friends forever.

But, "Ano ba yan bakit ako naiiyak?"

Mahal ko na ba kahit na few months pa lang kami nagdedate? Tinatawanan ko lang dati ang sabi sa psychology na, 'If a crush exceeds for more than 4 months, it's already love.' I was really hopelessly romantic when watching romance series or movies. Pero kapagka ako na ang magiging hopeless na romantic, hindi ako naniniwala sa sabi sabi kahit pa sa psychology na yan.

But, what if I'm really in love with Alfred. Bigla ako napa-sit up from me lying down.

That earned me to feel dizzy. Pero I got off my bed and wore my bedroom slips.

Nagmadali ako bumaba ng hagdan.

"Alfred usap muna tayo sandali!" He was currrently still talking to mother when I got down from the second floor.

Nahahapo ako and he noticed it.

"Why'd you get up? Pwede mo naman ako itext or sinigaw mo sana pangalan ko para mapuntahan kita." Grabe! Daig niya pa ang magulang ko kung manermon.

Hinatid niya ako pabalik ng room ko and pina-sit up sa aking bed. And since, hindi ko pa nagagalaw ang dinala niyang rice porridge, isusubo niya na sana sa akin pero nagsalita ako. Lumaki mga mata niya. Akala ko nga bigla na lang mag-bulge out sa eye sockets niya yun. Haha!

"What did you say?" Napangiti ako.

"I said I might be in love with you, Alfred Beet."