Frustration

Eliana experienced a myriad of emotions rushing through her the second she opened her eyes that she let herself sink deeper into the covers of the bed, relishing in the comfort they provided just so she can let all of these emotions sink in. 

The process of merging the souls of two individuals had turned out just as both of them had expected, it was just that they weren't aware of how serious and profound it would be until it happened. 

The 21 years of life that James had experienced, the 16 years that Eliana experienced, both of their character traits, their flaws, their opinions, beliefs, insecurities, fears... everything that made up those two distinct individuals had coalesced into one, all of it now culminating into the 'Eliana' who will live in this body from now on. 

'It's a bit...jarring' She thought to herself. 

Having to withstand two different sets of memories playing out in your head was quite the experience. Though there isn't any sense of dissonance or mental issues, it was still a bit hard to get used to... especially when there's something in them that shook her to her core. 

"How I wish I could just stay in these sheets and never leave... they are so comfy" she mumbled to herself as she thought of what kind of life was awaiting her as she tightened her grip on the sheets and laid in bed for a few minutes. 

'There's no point in worrying about it though, right? Won't it just be better for me to enjoy this life no matter what happens in the future' 

A determined expression appeared on her face as she kicked away the comfy sheets and got out of bed. As her feet landed on the floor, she felt a peculiar feeling. 

'My body feels familiar yet different at the same time' 

Glimpses of her life on Earth overlapped in front of her eyes before they quickly vanished like plumes of smoke. 

'This really is going to take a lot of getting used to' 

She then slowly moved herself to the body-length mirror in the room and gazed at her reflection. She raised an eyebrow as she inspected her body and realized that there were some changes that were a little different from the time she had woken up just after she had been transmigrated to this world. 

Her dark violet hair was now much longer, from being shoulder length to now reaching her waist, just shy of covering her butt. Her height had increased by a few inches, from around 5 ft 7 to around 5 ft 9. 

Her skin glimmered with a healthier glow and the weakness that used to assail her was now completely gone as well. 

'Though compared to how I was before that poison, I do feel quite weak... At least I no longer have to deal with that pain anymore' 

"Let's see how my stats look now" 

'Status' 

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{ 

Name: Eliana Flameheart 

Age: 16 

Rank: Normal Human (Not Awakened) 

Bloodline/Lineage: Flameheart, Unknown Bloodline (Dormant) 

Bodily Status: Healthy 

Skills: Appraisal 

Inventory: Divine Grade Elixir x1 

Stats (Max Stats for Normal Human is 1) 

Strength: 0.1 → 0.3 

Agility: 0.2 → 0.4 

Stamina: 0.1 → 0.3 

Vitality: 0.1 → 0.7 

Intelligence: 0.3 → 0.6 

Charm: 1 

Mana: N/A 

} 

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"Weak!" 

A voice tinged with disappointment and disdain sounded out in her ears. 

She clenched her fists as her expression suddenly twisted into rage before she took a deep breath to calm herself down. 

'It's fine... It's fine... I'll just start training again' 

She puts those thoughts in the back of her mind before she takes a glance at the mirror again. She then spends a few seconds looking at herself, marveling at her own good looks as a cheeky grin makes its way onto her face. 

*Whistle* 

"I really am quite a looker aren't I" 

She spoke as she moved her hands across her body, trailing them along her hourglass figure and her astonishing curves. 

'Though this ass on such a slender body really is to die for, I do find myself liking the one I had on Earth just a bit more... the spanks felt a little... no I should calm down' 

She cut away those dirty thoughts when she recalled the lustful romp in that ethereal space. 

She feels little drops of something trickle down her smooth thighs while her cheeks blushed red. She was embarrassed just a simple thought was all it took to set her off but she promised herself she is going to try and rein in her lustful thoughts in the future before a serious expression formed on her face. 

'Let's see if what I saw wasn't true... I really hope it isn't and that it's just a figment of my imagination' 

She then moved to a large and elaborate study desk with a bunch of books that were strewn about on top of it. Some open, some closed, some were even stacked neatly atop one another, it was nothing short of a complete mess but it had a strange sort of 'order' to it. 

The sight of all these books caused a tender smile to bloom on her face as the image of an adorable girl in a maid outfit appeared in her mind. 

'This is exactly just the way I left it... Elysia that cute little thing' 

She then rummaged her way through the desk, looking for a particular book when she realized it was among one of those left lying open. 

She recalled she didn't particularly like to read this one and even many others in the past as she never really liked the idea of studying and everything it entailed and yet they would force it down her throat anyway, just like all other kids born to powerful families. 

'Hehe, I wonder how far along they are in their powers at this point... I wonder if I'll be able to catch up' 

A number of faces appeared in her mind as she opened the book and quickly skimmed through it, she didn't need anything particularly detailed from it, just a few key points about the world and its prominent powers as she only wanted to confirm something. 

*Sigh* 

'I really wished it wasn't true but alas...' 

A helpless expression appeared on her face before she dropped the book back on the desk and she fell into contemplation for a few seconds before she spoke. 

"Hello dear System of mine, are you still there?" 

[Yes Host] 

That gentle and androgynous voice echoed out in her head. 

"Didn't I tell you to not call me that" 

[Well, aren't you a bit different from before, does it still count?] 

"I am James as much as I am Eliana, there's practically no difference between the two" 

[Do you still have a preference on which name I should use?] 

"It doesn't really matter, but since everyone will be calling me Eliana, I guess it'd be easier if we just went with that. I will use 'James' I ever were to need an alias... Master or Mistress would be fine as well, honestly it's up to you" 

[Alright... Master] 

She raised an eyebrow at the system's response, it made her feel a little weird as she was sure she could hear a bit shyness in its voice but she didn't mind it, she had something else to focus on. 

"You have some explaining to do" her cheerful voice suddenly took on a frosty tone. 

[... About what? You are confusing me Master] 

"Are you telling me you don't know anything about this world at all, why do I find that hard to believe?" 

[...] 

"You knew about it, didn't you?" 

[I reserve my right to remain silent] 

"Don't bullshit me, why didn't you tell me what kind of world this was earlier, you only said it was a generic isekai fantasy world" 

[Would it have made a difference if you knew earlier? I assumed it would be better for you to come to the conclusion yourself, your reaction would've been much better that way, instead of you learning about everything all at once] 

Eliana didn't how to feel at the moment that she couldn't even find it in her to even respond. 

"Why did it have to be this world of all places!!!" 

Eliana cried out while a myriad of thoughts started to go through her mind. 

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The reason for Eliana's emotional turmoil is due to a small little memory. 

It was of a time not long after James had started working after high school, since he had no close friends to spend his weekends with, on few occasions where he wasn't spending them drinking on his own or reading up on his favorite novels, he would delve into the world of gaming to alleviate his boredom. 

He played anything he could sink his teeth into, some battle royals, some sports games, action RPG's and even a few gacha games as well. 

Around that time, there was a new game that had suddenly risen in popularity called 'Celestial Conqueror'. The reason this game had garnered so much attention was due to it being a fantasy RPG with tons of erotic elements where you go around a fantasy world, killing mythical creatures, delving deep into magical dungeons and collecting a whole harem of beautiful woman. 

This had piqued James's interest and he chose to buy it and check it out. It ultimately proved to be nothing but a waste of money for him though as he didn't really enjoy it and quit after a few hours in. 

The thing that ticked him off wasn't the sexual aspects of the game but mostly because of the story. 

It centered around a classic and generic Mc who was bullied by those around him due to his insufficient talent and strength who then suddenly, due to a miraculous encounter became the most talented person in the world and goes on his quest for revenge against those who wronged him while collecting a large harem of woman in the process even though said MC doesn't really have any good traits apart from his talent, strength and his freakishly huge dick. 

Even though this had turned James's off, it didn't dissuade most of the other players who loved the game and praised it heavily on social media. 

This was due to the characters being really, really beautiful and as sexy as 2D anime women could be, coming in all shapes and sizes, catering to the lustful desires of all horny people across the world. 

What they enjoyed even more was that there was a lot of sex scenes as you conquered different heroines throughout the game and even saying it was a lot was putting it mildly. These cutscenes were so HIGHLY DETAILED and animated, you would swear it was a hentai studio who made them. 

Degenerates who were into this sort of thing loved it and praised the company for making such a cultured game until... a certain problem reared its ugly head, something that the players deemed to be nothing short of a cardinal sin. 

You see, even though the game was an action role-playing game, it ultimately was more of an eroge at its core and even early on, it doesn't shy away from it, the combat and mechanics being more like an add on instead. 

The problem starts when you progressed further and further into the story and you move on from conquering early-game heroines who fell into the charms of the MC quite easily and start going for the harder targets, the prized jewels of noble families, the heroines who had ridiculed and disdained the Mc when he was weak. This was undoubtedly the part most players were excited for and for good reason obviously. 

The problem was that these heroines also had other people vying for their affection and with their levels of beauty, there was a lot. For every single heroine, there were always 'villains' plotting to 'steal' her away from the MC and get them into their bed. 

The mistake the developers made and was something most people were baffled about why they even put it in the game to begin with, was that when the player failed to conquer a heroine, you wouldn't be able to start over from a certain point and choose different dialogue options until you finally got it right. It would force you to watch a few cutscenes first before letting you start over... and these cutscenes didn't have a skip button. 

The game would then go on to show you in vivid detail how your precious heroine would end up in the vile clutches of a villain who succeeded where you had failed. 

You would then have to go through a HIGHLY detailed and animated cutscene of them indulging in each other's bodies. 

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Now the reason for Eliana's current frustration was that the very same world the game 'Celestial Conqueror' was set in, was the very same world she was living in right now. 

And what was even worse and could even be said to be the true reason for her being so upset was that she remembered the players who hated those NTR scenes had gone on to social media sites and a few forums online to compile a list of which heroines' players should avoid to not witness those dreaded cutscenes. 

On the higher rankings of this list, if Eliana was remembering it correctly, in the top 5, there just so happened to be a character who shared the very same name and appearance as... herself.