FOREVER ALONE

ONE

Memories can be good,bad or anything. I am in my room looking at my albums of when I was a child. Leave it to my mum to keep records of when I had my first period. I was thirteen back then and it is so embarrassing thinking of it.

"Kpam" I heard a stone threw at my window. It was Daniel. I don't even know what we are. Most people thinks we are dating,including Daniel him self.

To me, I don't think so. We have hugged,kissed(countless times)and even tried to have sex which I stopped. I am not ready for that.

I got up from my bed almost falling flat on my face on the ground....I was lucky I didn't fall. I opened my window. Immediately,my face almost collided with Daniel. His blonde hair was dripping with water. I was so intrigued looking at my pictures not knowing rain has been falling.

"Hi" he said as he sat down on my bed. Daniel is so handsome, that was all I could think of.

"Hey" I replied back. I joined him to sit on the bed but far away from him. We were quiet which was uncomfortable.

"I am sorry" Daniel blurted out. I was shocked for a moment but I quickly composed my self. We had our first quarell yesterday which was Daniel fault. Who am I kidding, I don't whose fault but I hate admitting I am at fault. Yesterday, I visited my friend's house who is a guy and Daniel rival which I don't know why. Also, it was in the night. I still don't know who told Daniel,because I never told anyone where I was going. I came back and I met Daniel's in my room and from there the argument began.

I felt like being a dick to him by not accepting his apology, but I don't have it in me to hold grudges. I can bet thousands of dollars that he is embarrassed right now with the way his cheek is pink and he is fiddling with his fingers. I sighed out loudly which made him look into my eyes. His eyes are my weakness.

"Come here" I said as I opened my arms for him. He stood up and hugged me. "I am sorry also". I smiled at him to cool the awkward silence going on. We released each other and sat back down on my bed at our same positions.

" I saw Diane yesterday", he said. I wonder why he was telling me this. He does not open up to me so easily. That is one of his problem in our relationship. Diane's was his ex girlfriend.

"So?" I shrugged trying to act like it was not bothering me, when it was indeed killing me. He rubbed his palm on his face and glanced towards me. "Nothing,I just want to let you know".

" you.....

"I......

" You go first" I said while laughing.

"You are not angry?" I felt like he was expecting me to be angry or jealous like he does when ever he sees me with a guy. I dropped jealousy when I was thirteen. Its very stupid being jealous,to me tho.

"No", immediately,he stood up and came to my side where I was sitting. I knew what was about to happen.

He leaned in to kiss me. It was slow at first which later became heated ,but stopped as soon as the kiss became heated.

" I will be going now" his deep voice echoed in my room. He has the habit of licking his lips when talking.

As he was about to go out through the window, he turned immediately to me which startled me. He was aware of that because he chuckled. He bent his head down to kiss my nose before he finally went away.