Depressed winter

Hi!My name is Jovanna.

Last year was one of my hardest soo far.My grandmother died from cancer.I lived with her since I was seven.She was my everything.My mom and dad didn't work in town,so I would saw them only on weekends.Rest of the week I would spent with my grandmom.When she got diagnosed with cancer I was thirteen.At first I didn't realise it was that serious.But,how the time went,I realise it was more serious than what I thought at first.She died in December of 2020,when I was in seventh grade.It was a big shock.At first,I didn't realise that she is goone.I became aware in November of 2021.I was in eight grade.I was dealing with anxiety atacks.I started to blame myself for her death.But then in February,everything change.I feel in love.