Midnight

As the clock struck midnight

That's when my mind is fully awake

The deadly thoughts I kept inside

The unwanted thoughts I hide

That's when they get so loud

I looked up at the blank space of my ceiling

Just like how my life has been

It's blank, it's empty and lifeless

How I wish my life had been different

But we cannot always have what we wanted most in our life

I learned this the hard way

I'll always whisper this to myself

'Accept it then move on, life goes on'

Time won't stop when you're not okay

It gets faster and faster when you wanted it to stop

That's how cruel life has been to me

That my whole being is getting used to it

I close my eyes and picture myself as someone else

Someone who lives a perfect and peaceful life

Someone who doesn't feel fear every second

Someone who has tears in her eyes because of joy

A life that is so different from what I have right now

I sighed, because I know it will not happen to me

I wrapped myself tighter as the night gets colder