4 nine: Moon or star?

"What's the point if I go back now? I have to go to the military and after that, I can't join the band for my age limit. Don't you think I should stay here rather than go back? I think so. And I am quite confident that I can do something great from here. All I need is just money. And it's not that big a problem. I can manage that." said Dae Ju.

"But, won't you regret it later? What about your mom, dad, sister, and your members? Won't they get hurt by losing you?" asked Jheong Woo.

"Yes, but I think they will adjust. Moreover, they have been used to live without me. You know, I am a living dead for them." said Dae Ju.

"Aish! Don't say this! They are your family! And family never lost hope on anyone! I know, they are still counting on you. You will see, when you wake up, every person whom you care for and who cared for you will cry. Not because they will be sad, but because they will be too happy to see you." he wanted to make his friend understand.

"You think so? They will still love me if I am of no use?" Dae Ju thought he threw a very challenging question against him but he was wrong.

"Still they will love you and care for you. You just can't understand because you can live with your family but I understand that because I can't live with my family," said Jheong Woo and looked on the ground.

"Listen to me carefully. Stars will be lost inside the cloud but the moon is not that easy to be covered by clouds. The moon stays in the daylight too. Do you understand what I wanna say? Be the moon as always. The whole sky will stay with you. Maybe there will be some days when you will fail but what's the big deal? You can shine in the next day."

"Okay, I should believe you as you are helping me."

"Okay, I should leave. But I am afraid that I can never see you and Lina again if I go back." sighed Dae Ju.

"You have to meet with us! Did you forget already? You promised me that you will introduce Min Jae to me!" said Jheong Woo aggressively.

"Hey! Heey! Heeey! You are helping me because of that! No! Seriously! Ah! This cruel world! Everyone is so mean!" shouted Dae Ju in his style with a smile. Jheong Woo was just smiling. He has nothing to say more. After a few moments, he remember something and said,

"Maybe you won't remember us after you go back. I will miss you. Lina will too but I don't think you are gonna miss us." being sad Jheong Woo said.

"No! I will remember you no matter what," said Dae Ju with confidence.

"It will be good if you remember us. It will be better if you don't," said Jheong Woo and looked at him.

"Why are you saying that?" asked Dae Ju curiously.

"You will understand. Should we grab a drink?" asked Jheong Woo.

"No! I am not in the mood," said Dae Ju.

"Tell me about you. Why you came here?" asked Dae Ju.

"For work of course," replied Jheong Woo simply.

"Why? Is it too hard to get a job in China?" asked Dae Ju.

"Getting a job is not easy in any country. You can't understand because you didn't have to search for any job."

"Ah! How is your mom? Don't you miss her?"

"I miss her. But as you said earlier, I get used to live without her. Besides, I have to send her money and without money, she can't stay happy. That's why I need to stay here no matter what."

"Then, what about your father?"

"I have no one else in this world. He died when I was eight and since then, my mom took care of me and raised me all alone."

"Ah! Sorry. I couldn't understand."

"It's okay. It doesn't hurt anymore. Sometimes I think if my dad would alive, I couldn't able to do what I wanted to." smiled Jheong Woo.

"Hey! You! You should not say such a thing! How could you disrespect your own father?" shouted Dae Ju in his style. Jheong Woo was smiling but it was seen that he was in pain.

"Umm..hm(coughing), so, don't you have any girlfriend or something like that?" asked Dae Ju to change the topic.

"No, I had a boyfriend once," said Jheong Woo and smiled mysteriously.

"You! No way! Don't tell me that you are..." saying this Dae Ju makes a bickering face and wanted to go far from him.

"Just kidding. I never fell for anyone. Actually, I am not the kind of guy who will fall for many girls. I decided to love and spent the rest of my life with one person. But I couldn't find my type yet." said Jheong Woo.

"Ah! Hope you will find someone soon who will make your heart flustered. Who will care for you and whom you will care for." Dae Ju consoled him.

"I should leave now," said Jheong Woo and stood up.

"Aren't you gonna stay here?" asked Dae Ju.

"No, My workplace is far from here. I will stay if you accompany me for a drink," said Jheong Woo but he could

understand that his friend won't accompany him today for some reason.

"Okay, then meet me tomorrow," said Dae Ju and stood up. Both of them went downstairs and Jheong Woo left from there without looking back. Dae Ju closed the door and came to the living room. He could see Lina from there. She was working in the kitchen. Seems like she was cleaning the fridge. Dae Ju wanted to go to her but he was hesitating if he should go there or not. Lina looked back and saw him. She immediately concentrated on her work again. Maybe she was feeling awkward too in front of Dae Ju.

Dae Ju was standing in his place until Lina finished her work. After finishing her work, she came to Dae Ju.

"Why are you standing like that? Are you okay?" Lina thought he was sick as he becomes sick more offer nowadays. "Yes, I am fine. The thing is...." he could not tell her what he wanted to.

"Hmm?" Lina looked at him with questionable eyes. When both of their eyes met with each other's, both of them looked another way. Dae Ju looked at the floor and Lina looked at the couch. "The thing is...." he wanted to say sorry to her but he failed.

"It's okay if you don't want to tell me. I am going to sleep. You should go to sleep as well." said Lina and she started walking to went from there but suddenly Dae Ju grab her hand and said,

"I am sorry. I yelled at you earlier. I should not behave with you like this."

"Ah! You should not say sorry. There was my fault too. But, you should not swear at him." said Lina gently.

"You! You are still caring for him, not me! Ah! I am hurt!" said Dae Ju in his style.

"No! I just told you that you should not! It might hurt anyone. You should not behave like that anyone!" being confident, Lina said.

"Okay, I will not! Are you happy now?" said Dae Ju acting hard but actually he was not.

"Hmm."

"But, you broke your promise! That's why I felt that angry on you," said Dae Ju.

"Which promise did I break?" asked Lina without finding its answer.

"You told me that you will not go anywhere without informing me, didn't you?" Dae Ju looked at her with suspicious eyes.

"Ah! Yes, but...." she couldn't able to give him an answer right then. Her eyes were down and she was searching for an answer.

"Then, let's make a deal, I will inform you everything from now on and you also have to, okay?" saying this he extended his hand towards her to do a handshake.

Lina was quite surprised and she couldn't get him right then. Dae Ju was still in his position and when he couldn't receive any response from another side, he gets embarrassed and disappointed. Lina was looking at him with her big and questionable eyes.

"What? Did I say something wrong?" asked Dae Ju and put his hand down.

"No! I am not sure if I am dreaming or not. You never said such things before." said Lina and looked another way. Dae Ju suddenly came to her and pinch her cheek. It was quite soft and moistured.

"Ah! What are you doing? It's hurting!" said Lina while pushed him. But she couldn't able to move him.

"See? It was not any dream." Dae Ju said with his pride.

"Oh! I got it!" said Lina loudly while rubbing her cheek.

"Then, deal?" saying this he extended his hand again. Now, Lina got it and she accept his hand. They shook their hands and said together, "Deal!" Lina find it funny and starts laughing.

"Hey! Why are you laughing?" asked Dae Ju in his style.

"I don't know but I can't stop laughing." saying this she continued laughing again. Seeing her Dae Ju also start laughing and when both of them looked at each other's eyes, they realized that they were still holding their hands so they leave each other's hand immediately as it was a repulsion of a magnet. Dae Ju suddenly remembered about that morning and he was feeling awkward towards her.

"Ah! I was sleepy. I should go to sleep." hesitatingly Lina said.

"Ah! Yes. I should go to get some sleep too." said Dae Ju and left from there. He went upstairs and lied down on the bed. He started to think about his life.

*What should he do now? He still couldn't find any solution but time is flowing. The time he spent with his brothers was too precious. He never can forget about those times. He is confused if he should go back to his original life or not. If he should, then how? He also wants to see his parents and his psycho sister. He doesn't have a mixed feeling until he was fully into him.

But nowadays, he has mixed feelings. He could understand that if he could go back to his body, everything will not stay the same. Some things had been changed and they will stay like that. Some things that he didn't want to do before the accident. But, now he is willing to do those unwanted things. And also, his personality has been changed. Maybe it can be fixed but what about those feelings he has? Will they change with his body? Is it this body who is doing those unwanted things? He was not so sure about that.

While thinking those things, he falls asleep and went to his dreamland.

[Meanwhile in the living room]

Lina was happy today. She spent a very special day. Though she has a hard time she thought about those moments with her husband. She didn't know that another person is living inside her husband's body. But the truth was she fell for that person who is living inside her husband's body. Though she was worried about him that he doesn't want to get the surgery, she was happy that he apologize to her for his mistake and come close to her. Suddenly she remembered that she didn't give him the medicines. She was going to lie down but she couldn't after remembering this.

She knew that her husband is still awake so she slowly went to the stairs but when she reached near the stairs, she heard some noise. She heard the groaning of something She couldn't understand what is happening and got afraid. So, she went upstairs as soon as possible. When she came into the room she saw that the sound was coming from the bed. She slowly and carefully steps her foot forward and reached near the bed. Dae Ju was the source of that sound and he was moving in his sleep. Lina couldn't understand what she has to do. She slowly sits down beside him and touch his arm and shook him to wake him up. Dae Ju woke up and sit down immediately. His eyes were red and he was looking dangerous. Lina got afraid and asked, "What happened?"