3am to 5am Asthma hit me
The noise,the chaos
Nobody could focus
Mum told dad to go out
Search for a chemist about
But it was so late
It brought a fight
It was chaos that night
I couldn't help but cry
Till the sun came,my eyes weren't dry
I actually wished to die
Trust me the wish wasn't a lie
I had to pretend to be fine
I had to make it seem real
Had to hide the pain I still feel
It's my fault
It's my fault they fought
But Its not fault for the illness I've got
I abused myself
The day the break up began
And now am facing it
My memories are unstable
Remembering details am unable
But I've tried to gain weight
I still don't look that great
But it's better
Cause then I looked like a feather
I could heal from anorexia,I try to control my asthma,I could maybe heal from dementia
But what about depression
Always drowning
When am reaching out
Then comes the wave
Am binded with the shackles like a slave
It cuts deep like a blade
Until forever,the pain could never fade
Yh I feel empty
I feel weak
Most people think,it's a trick
Call me liar,fake,your pick
But know I didn't choose to be sick
Depressed,lonely as I watch the clock tick