Goodbye...

The next action he gave broked me. He lowered his head and said "I...understand". My next line was a bit shocking for me and him. I told him that Im going to the City A to achieve my dream.

He quickly moved closer to me, held my hands in his and with watering eyes stared deeply into mine as he begged me to stay as if his life depended on it.

"I...know....your dream is that..... important to you but you can still achieve it....here.... here with me".

Every argument he gave I refuted and explained.

He gave off a long silence until he finally brought me to his embrace, refusing to let go.

I hugged him back and comforted him by patting his back. I know that my actions cannot ease the pain I have brought but I could not think of other ways to announce the news because of how fast things were going.

I finally gave him my last words "I...I would be happy if you could wait for me cause you know how much I love you....but I have to achieve my dreams first, and.....If.... you...can't..... then....I hope you find the happiness.... you want, I'll still understand"... *I was not able to stop myself from stuttering the words*

Every word I say is slowly breaking my heart into pieces. I always know that his biggest wish was to have a happy family of his own and I was still not ready for it. I know I'm selfish but.... I think it was for the better...for him to find another...

I held his arms and removed myself from his embrace. I was not able to make

eye contact for I have known how dissappointed he was.

"I love you Chris", tears are suddenly flowing from my eyes as I slowly turned around and walked away after those words left my mouth.

I wanted him to think about it so...I didnot stay for long to hear the words he said because I thought he was just gonna stare at me and give off silence until the end. "I'll wait for you..." said Chris.

I texted him the time I'll be off to City A and asked him if he could send me off, I know it was selfish of me but I just wanted to see him one last time, cause I know it might really be the last time.

Time was ticking... I bid my parents goodbye and told them to go home right away... They were already informed of the events and knew I was waiting for someone...they could not blame me but was sad to hear it.... Luckily, the friendship in both of our families was not severed by the news, I *sigh* in relief.

I was anxiously waiting for him to show up.... and getting ready to enter the plane.

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Suddenly, a figure appeared in front of me in a flash.

I looked up and saw him covered in sweat,..... maybe he was running just to catch up on me leaving.

Tears almost fell through my eyes but I just smiled warmly at him and said "Im going now".

He was just staring at me, not saying a word, I moved my feet wanting to continue... he then held me in his arms and told me he'd wait for me.... my eyes widened.. I replied by resting my head in his shoulder for a bit, it was so warm I couldn't bare to let go of his embrace.

Yet, he still let me go.... "Am I not allowed to receive a goodbye kiss?".. very childish of me, even though I don't like PDA. This was the very first time I was craving for it.

''AHAHHAAHHA".... he burst out in laughter, "Really?"... I melted in the sound of his laughter and was not concious when his lips suddenly touched mine.... so soft, warm and comforting...

I was able to rest assured that no matter what happens and how much the distance between us were..... We would not be able to let go of each other.

He watched me walked away... I waved my hand at him....the distance between us slowly widening.

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My lips mumbled something that he cannot fantom the word "Goodbye"....