Then i wake up with hope. He is right. I can be wathever i want.
- Even a writer
Then, this idea didn't leave, stuck on my mind . Even when i discuss with lucky while sleeping, it comes back.
- You should try. That's what Lucky said like everynight.
But, i still have bad memories about writing. The first time, everybody laugh on me, i was 12. Then, when i grew a little, i participate to a writing contest, and i don't know if i won, but in the wy to the contest, my mother and me had an accident and she passed away. So, i think it's a message from heaven that i couldn't write.
- Everything changes, and you have everything to be want you want to be. Luscky used to say.
Maybe it's time to changes too and give me a new beginning.
Since then, i start to write. Little story about a wonderfull world , somewhere, secret. About a man i met, who slowly becomed my friend and my confident. And, if it's hard to say, i start feeling something more than friendship for him. I felt it when, one night, he cames to me and propose for a picnic. I laugh a lot this day with him and find something new about him. Then, while a silence, he approached to me and kiss my forehead and say
-You can always count on me for everything, but everythings up's to you.
Since then, i start ask him for advice for my story. And he always be there, even only on a dream. He support me everyday when i felt down, or when i suddenly want to give up. Like a normal person but in another world anly me can go.
But, one day, he wasn't there, i made a nightmare. I dreamed about my mother's accident and i wake up very scared. And i tell him.
- I can't do this anymore. It's a sign i shouldn't write.
- It's your subconscious, your future don't depend on a nightmare. He say, trying to calm me.
- How you can say that? You don't know what i am feeling. You are just a dream, someone i created. You can't feel human's pain.
- Calm ...
- You don't know how i am feeling right now. You can't
- Listen, i try...
- You should, just leave me. Stay on your peacefull cloud. You will never understand my pain
- Angie...
- LEAVE !
And he desapeared, again. I don't know if i will see him again, but it's maybe time for me to leave about dreamp and live the real life.
- He will never be real, what i was thinking about?
Even in my dream, life is rude.