Like a reality

"Ashton, tell me about yourself" Serene asked the giddy boy.

"Vil said you should rest, shouldn't you?" Ashton asked instead of answering her, his face painted with worry as he stare at the skinny dimmed star laid on the bed of his brother, dark circles adorning her beautiful green eyes that lack luster.

Serene let out a small hollowed laughter with no pleasure or amusement as she turned the word 'rest' in her head.

"Rest Ash?, I could've rest forever, a rest of freedom if not for your brother" she lamented bitterness coating her words remembering her misery and futile attempts at grasping peaceful freedom that gives no pain as there is no feeling.

"Is it selfish of us to want you to stay?" Ashton inquired, his beady grey eyes wrapped with sorrow as he stare solemnly st Serene, she sigh releasing a melancholic breath as she stare into those eyes that says so much but nothing at the same time.

"Just entertain this broken dimmed star with little about your life" she stated looking into his innocent eyes with a small smile that screams pain and need for escape.

"Uhmm...I like a boy?.." he paused looking at Serene through his long blond lashes and waiting for her reaction but it was blank just as they got to know the dimmed star.

"But he's straight as pole..." Ashton continued releasing a humourless laugh as he remember his first love or to say crush.

"That's what most of them say or made people believe, but you'll be suprise when they're put in the same room with little advances taken" Serene said still staring at the young cutie.

"Shock they will be at first but...they may still want it" she added.

"Is he homophobic?" She asked with furrowed brows.

"Nope" Ashton quickly answered remembering he has a lesbian for a bestfriend.

"Does he tattle?" Serene asked again.

"Nope! Why?" Ashton asked confused at the series of questions from Serene.

"Then confess to him" Ashton's eyes widen at her words and he felt his heart hammer in his chest just thinking of how to confess and the kind of reaction he had get with a blatant rejection.

"Not for him to accept, but to lessen the burden in your chest" Serene said softly, she stared at the boy whose tense shoulders sagged and his face paint in fear and worry.

"A-Am scared!" He expressed quite timidly and ashamed of himself at the pathetic way his voice came out which he truly believe is pathetic and always has been. He can't do anything himself but always has to rely on his brother who was strong headed, smart and selfless to stand for him and take everything for them, protecting him and shielding him from any harm.

"It's okay to be scared, even I am" Serene comforted him, her face sad and her eyes reflecting the pain she experienced just a week ago.

"If you don't wanna tell him, then write it on a paper and burn it or discard it, maybe it'll help even a little" Serene mumbled quietly also telling herself to do the same thing and let the problems, pains and sufferings burn down and seize existing, she wish it will happen as so.

Those times when she do it she felt light and it lifts her mood for better, but can it do the same now, now that her problems and pains are bigger and heavier than a mountain.

"Serene?" Ashton softly called out to the spacing lady on the bed who was staring at a speck of nothing.

"Uhm Yes Ash?" She snapped out of her thoughts glancing at the shy boy silently asking what's wrong.

"W-will you stay with us?" He stuttered asking what has been on his mind bugging him with curiosity, his heart beat with anticipation of her response and hope.

"I have no place to ho or anyone, so you are stuck with me since you want me to stay" he melancholic voice sounded with her eyes reflecting her voice tone.

"Don't be sad Serene" Ashton spoke tilting his head innocently and adorable which brought out a short genuine chortle from the dimmed star who thought she can't live again.

Serene closed her eyes and further relaxed on the soft bed that contrast to her bed isn't bed but she can't complain as this is all that she could have, the brothers were too kind enough to provide her a shelter. A small micro smile form on her lips as she sink further and exhale a breath to rest her sore muscles but can she when everytime she closes her eyes and opt to rest, those vivid horrible Image appear and the haunting voices fills her ears and mind making her restless and continuing to dally in her past that want to haunt her forever claiming her as an eternal companion without a way for freedom.

"Sleep Serene, but not forever" Ashton quietly mumbled under his breath, his eyes still on the dimmed star's figure on the bed but relaxed with her yes close and softly respirating.

"I'll wake you up for luch" he added a little louder for to catch and Serene just hummed before drifting into her horror and depression land.

~

Serene found herself standing in front of her old house, the house she has lived for more than two years but was suddenly kicked out of it without prior notice for weeks or even days.

She didn't know how she got here and why her legs and mind decided to bring her here and she can't remember walking here.

She looked to the side to input the password but the wall was empty without the device and Serene was gobsmacked, she wondered why it was not there. She twist open the handle and was suprise when the door open.

"Why was it left open?" She asked herself but shrugged it off and slowly walk in to the penthouse. The house was void of life or so she thought as she walk around the living room in light steps, taking every step with caution since her mind has been giving her red alarms without actually blaring.

Muffle sound start to reach her ears as she came closer to her once bedroom with John and she furrowed her brows in confusion, the curiosity in her got the better of her body and she opened the already unlocked door as the moans and groans persist and her eyes land on an absurd motion images.

"Baby yeah there, heat harder"

"More baby" the woman on bed under the handsome Greek God moaned out begging for more.

"Baby you're so tight, fuck!" The man exclaimed as he ejaculate his seeds inside the condom and pulled himself out of her and laid beside her pulling her to his chest as they came down from the high horse of sexual euphoria.

"I love you baby"

"I love you too" Rosy and John, he kissed her forehead and she snuggled closer to him latching on him like a leather shirt to his skin.

"We should clean up fast before Serene come back, you know she will hardly stay long in Adam's hoisted party" Rosy said to her lover and he loudly groan in frustration not liking the idea of separating from his lover and back to acting like they're just friends and all because of Serene.

Tears trickled down her face as she watch her lover and bestfriend cheats on her bed. She remember this day, the night Adam a director hoisted a party before they start a movie.

She felt her heart sting with pain and her mind and sight hazy as the images start to blur and she found herself hyperventilating.

"Serene, Serene" a distant call from a familiar voice called her.

She abruptly scrambled up to a sitting position at the higher volume of her name called. Sweats and tears ruin her dry smooth face and she was hyperventilating when a cup of water was put to her face and she she quickly took it gulping down after calming her breath, she drank the whole soothing cold liquid without even glancing at who's the helper.

She looked around the room when her breath completely settled down from the soothing words of the familiar voice next to her who she still haven't given a glance, she take in the room in confusion and after sighting her luggage boxes her brain decided to remind her of where she's, the kind guy's house.

"Hey you alright?" The alluring voice next to her sounded again and that's when her neck decide to swerve to him, he's her saviour, here again pulling her out of that dark place that was covered with nothing but betrayal.

She leaned back on the pillow and continue taking in oxygen and out carbon dioxide to stabilise her wild beating heart and a jungle for a mind as Melvil got up the bed and went into the bathroom to wet a towel and wipe her sweaty and sticky face that was painted with tears, snot and sweat.

Serene's mind took her back to what she couldn't put out into a dream or vision. Dream it's cause she dreamt of it and in her sleep and vision because it was something real and she felt every single move and feeling of it and she knows she never saw this scene before.

They have been together since ever, who knows maybe since before she came into the industry's world.

But why her?, was it because she has a determined soul to succeed or was it because she was naive, innocent and optimistic?.