Lust

I woke up sore-ing all over...

Napaungot ako trying to open my eyes amidst the sunlight peeking from the window touching my face. Tila may mabigat pang bagay na nakadagan sakin. I tried to stretch out and freed myself from something that's hugging me. But I felt weak. The arms wrapping me was so tight na ang hirap iangat. Lumingon ako on my right side of bed. He is sleeping like a log. His sturdy arms touching my half naked body. His manly legs was also wrapped around mine. As if claiming that he had just possesses me. 

Honestly, halos hindi ko maalala what happened last night. But with this morning scene, obviously, makakapag-adjust yung utak ko kung ano talaga posibleng nangyayare. 

I have no idea kung saang kwarto ito. Everything is unfamiliar with me. It's we're in some kind of a hotel. Muli ko siyang nilingon. Somehow, I admired freely his features. What happened may probably be a mistake but it is definitely something that I would like to do again. It doesn't matter now. Andito na 'to papanindigan ko na. 

I tried to free myself again on his tight embrace. Doing it slowly as possible. Ayoko siya magising. Infact, hindi ko pa alam pano siya haharapin. I tried lifting his arms, but tila naalimpungatan ito and pulled me tighter. 

"It's still early. Sleep more," he said in a groggy voice. His lips touching my forehead. 

I can't help but smiled sarcastically. Last night, I think I got drunk somehow. Probably, the alcohol had overpowers my emotion and that I was able to abide in his desires. Pero this morning, matino na ang takbo ng utak ko. That's why I am assuming that what happened last night was just a one night stand. Hindi ba 'to hinahanap ng asawa niya?

"It's 9:30. Hindi ka ba uuwi?" I asked as I peeped on the bedside clock. 

He opened his eyes but didn't let go of me. For a moment, tinitigan niya lang ako. 

"What?" I asked. 

To my surprise, he gave me a smack on my lips. Then pulled me even tighter and sleep again. Nahampas ko siya. 

"If you don't let me sleep more, I'll rape you," banta niya. 

"Nawiwili ka. Masakit pa ang katawan ko," ani ko but smiling. Kinilig din naman ako sa banta niya. 

"Admit it, it was the best sex you got in your entire life," he boastfully declared. 

"Hambog! As if hindi ka nag-enjoy," sabad ko. 

He laughed. He reached for my lips and kissed me again. 

"It was my bestest ever," he said after the kiss. 

"Ouch. Masakit yun para sa asawa mo. And as a woman, ramdam ko yun," ani ko. 

He just smiled weakly. Somehow, naramdaman kung sensitive sa kaniya ang relationship namin. I stopped joking about it. 

"Naguguilty ka ba? I mean hindi lang naman ako ang tied. You have your long term, long distance boyfriend."

Napataas ang kilay ko. Sa ayos namin ngayon, naisip pa niya kung naguguilty ako. If he wishes to stop this now, hindi ko naman siya pipigilan. I am flexible. 

"Hindi ako demonyita. Syempre, I have guilt. But since I chose to do this, I think I just have to accept the consequences. And yes, I am that risky. Especially kapag gusto ko," I answered seriously. 

"But is it ok sayo na ganto ang set up natin? No string attached?" he asked. 

"Iniisip mo bang aagawin kita ng tuluyan sa asawa mo? I maybe a mistress somehow, pero hindi ako total home wrecker. I would rather be your friend with benefit than ask you to leave your family."

Kung ano man ang plano niya, it's not my problem. Kung san siya masaya ngayon, I'll just play along. I know this is a lot whole complicated but, to hell with it! I live in the present!!

"Can I be honest with you again?" he said na medyo nagpapacute na. "I like where were going. I told you last night, that I really don't know you. That I am only attracted to you physically. But the way you deliver yourself, I am liking your personality as well. I like how risky you can be."

"I need you to stop right there. Ang usapan natin, physical relationship lang. Walang seryosohan. Don't make it even more complicated," paalala ko. 

He smiled wider. And rub his nose to mine. 

"Physical-lan pala ang gusto mo ha? How about a morning breakfast?" he said as he rolled on top of me. I bit my lip when he started to dive around my neck. His naked body rubbing against mine. Suddenly he stopped. Umaangat siya ng kunti. And looked me straight in the eyes with a boyish grin on his lips. He has an elated aura. Parang kumpleto sa tulog. 

"Can I just say, I wish this moment last longer. I am really happy being with you," he said seriously. 

I rolled my eyes, "last mo na yan, ulitin mo pa magwawalk out ako." 

He smiled, and dive in to give me an earth shattering kiss that goes deeper and deeper. I can help but moan with pleasure. 

This may be all kinds of wrong but as long as we understood the assignment, I am good for now. Clear sakin na ngayon lang 'to. And yes, guilt maybe eating me so much. But I'll take it, just for the sake of this limited pleasure. Besides, alam ko darating din kami sa time na mananawa kami sa isa't-isa.