Eventually everything is messed up , I am messed up , and you are messed up within me ..
I don't know how to act anymore ,
How to imagine you supporting me upon my weakest ,
To care about my situation ..
To gather my smashed parts , piece by piece so I wouldn't lose either of us ,
I wish I could end this , end your fake existence within me and reclaim myself only .
I don't know if I was angry at you really or about myself ..
You seemed just the only escape I can run to , to release my feelings inside a bag of warmth , as you are the calm that I could never use .