Chapter 18 : Why do you dislike me...?

I flinched at the sudden voice I heard and directed my view towards the door. There was Zeke, his hand still on the door knob, seemingly like he just entered the room.

Wait...just entered the room? The door didn't even make a sound, I can't really be deaf now right.  I stared at Zeke as he looked at me from head to toe, giving me a expression that I don't know whether to say his shock or disgusted or both.

"Oh hi Zeke...when did you get home haha, have you eaten?" I tried changing the situation but it doesn't seem like it's working.

"Well umm, if you don't mind, I'll just head to the bathroom and change, yea." I took a random short with a oversized shirt out from the closet which stored some of my clothings I brought over to his house and awkwardly wanting to get out the room.

I gave a sheepish smile to Zeke, trying to pass him but he put his hand against the door, I tried ducking down but he used his leg instead. I stood back up and stared at him, smiling.

"Yes what do you need master Zeke~"  I whispered huskily at him, just for a joke but he showed no reaction to it.

"Why are you dressed up like that?"

"I just tried it on, I wanted to see how it looked like."

"Hah, it doesn't even look good on you one bit. Instead, it makes you look like a attention seeking person..." I widened my eyes, hearing what he whispered to me in my face.

I merely just tried it on, what's wrong with that? That doesn't even make a me a attention seeking person...it's not like I wore it out, I just wore it at home...

Tears were welling up in my eyes but I kept it in, looking at Zeke straight in the eyes. His blue ocean like eyes, that showed the person I've loved with my whole heart, caring for him and even doing the smallest things for him.

"Why do you hate me? Since the start we met, you disliked me, why, just give me reasons why you hate me!" I shouted out, the air was tense but I wanted to know why he disliked me this much.

I know we didn't know each other long enough but still, I just need a answer from him, himself...I wanna hear it. Zeke's face darkened, staring intensely into my eyes.

"Yea so what if I hate you? I hate the fact that I'll have to be stuck with my so called soulmate for the rest of my life even when I don't want to...I don't want to have to care about things you do and take care of you, well just everything!"

"But have you ever really cared...?"

"What?"

"Have you ever cared about me? Other than the times where you saved me and helped me with my injuries. I don't know if at those times, in your heart, did it hurt...?" I sincerely stared at him with hopes that he did. He looked down and sighed.

"No, it didn't hurt a single bit...Just so you know, I'll never like you, ever. You can leave the house whenever you want, I wouldn't care cause I don't need you here..."

Zeke angrily went back to his room, slamming the door shut behind him. I stood frozen in place, biting the bottom of my lip, trying to not let my tears escape but gradually as more tears welled up in my eyes, they trickled down my cheeks.

Ahhh...he hates to even be with me then why, why did he do all those things even though he hates me...things that made my heart skip a beat, things that made me think that he maybe has started to care and like me...

I wiped away my tears and went to change into my clothes. I washed my face with water multiple times, looking into the mirror staring at myself.

"No...I shouldn't hate him for that, maybe his just in a bad mood today or maybe he just said those to annoy me." I mumbled to myself into the mirror, trying to cheer myself up.

I went back into the guest room, putting away the dress and the other into the bag. I sat down on the bed, taking out a cute blue penguin soft toy from a bag.

I looked at the penguin while caressing it, it was soft and nice, just like Zeke's hair...I hugged the toy and stayed in my room for some hours, it was nearly midnight but I stayed awake.

Once I heard absolute silence outside, I quietly walked out and went into Zeke's room with the penguin in my hands.

I shivered as soon I entered his room, how cold did he turn his aircon to? As I walked closer to his bed, I could see his peaceful sleeping face with the moonlight that illuminated on his face.

His hair was glowing under the light, I bent down to the bed's level and admired him, I know I might not be good enough for him but I want to do my best for him...

I want to be his everything, his love, his life but I think that will need time. I stood up and placed the penguin gently beside him on bed, I gave a gentle peck on his lips, smiling.

"I'm sorry if I'm annoying...but I still love you no matter what you say...well goodnight and sweet dreams to you~" I whispered lowly before taking my leave. I gently shut his door and went downstairs into the kitchen.

I didn't turn on the light but was still able to see a little in the dark with some light shining through the window so it was fine. I took the plant at the basin and watered it.

"Now little plant, I might need to leave you under his care now but don't worry I'll come visit when I can~" I talked to the plant, smiling at it. I sighed, like as if the plant can hear what I'm saying...

"Well at least I still have you to listen to me talk~" I chuckled, going back up to the guest room and took my rest. I have to wake up early tomorrow..., yawning and slowly fell asleep, thinking.

♡ Next morning ♡

[ FRIDAY, 5TH DAY ]

I woke up very early in the morning and got ready, it was still dark out but I wanted to take the chance and maybe stop bothering Zeke.

He has already taken a good care of me for the few days and I appreciate it...

"It's not like I'm never coming back..." I took one last look around the room, making sure that I got all my things. Once I was done, I quietly left the room and went downstairs.

I took out some grape and strawberry flavoured lollipops and placed them on the kitchen counter for Zeke.

I took the spare keys and left the house, keeping the keys, in case if I come back and he really doesn't want to let me in one day. I didn't have much to take since I didn't bring much over.

I walked my way back to the home where I call hell, I bet it would be empty just like any abandoned house would. I rolled my eyes, thinking about "dad" and Clara.

Once I was at my house, I opened the door and quietness greeted me upon stepping into the house but somehow the place was a mess, things were toppled over and there were even many pieces of shattered glass on the ground...

Did something happen while I was away...? The scene looked like as if there was a burglary or some fight had happened.

I scanned through the whole room and went in, there were some blood stains on the floor that I saw. I took no notice to the tiny little glass shards that were on the floor and it pricked my leg but it didn't hurt.

I followed the blood stains that led up to my room and my door was wide opened. That old bastard maybe tried to find me, to vent his drunk anger on...

"Great...look at this crazy mess...now I need to clean up after him." I rolled my eyes, knowing that I might even be late for school today, getting the house clean and tidy.

"I wonder if sis is okay...I haven't seen for ages." Without wasting any more seconds, I started sweeping the floor and doing all the clean ups of the house. It's gonna be a long day for me...