The Book

Allison read a book, saying:

"The country of Uxil. Built upon the natural resource abundance, solidarity, and hard work of its past, this country is now among the most burdened countries in its corner of the world.

Their export, sustainability, and science are among their current greatest strengths. They need more literacy and income.

Uxil is a diarchic country, and there are no opposing groups against the current leadership, and this has been the case for a long time.

However, the current most significant threat to the nation is the pollution of water, but the current leadership can't possibly do anything to solve this issue.

The people of Uxil are cheerless and live horrible lives, but their export helps relieve some of their issues while literacy is lacking.

Religion holds no fundamental importance in their lives and, if anything, has made them more confident. The people of Uxil aren't spiritual either and rely more on their history and technology."

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Diarchy or duumvirate is a form of government characterized by co-rule, with two people ruling a polity, either lawfully or de facto, by collaboration and force. The leaders of such a system are usually known as co-rulers.

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Co-rule is pronounced CO-RULE.

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Allison wanted to read more until a knock came on her door.

Her mother left a poem for her daughter to read as an Apology.

Allison chose to read it because...

Her mom was raped, and Allison had to give her mother some sympathy in her mind.

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After reading the poem of heartbreak and sorrow, which read:

"I was mutilated and abused for some man's pleasure.

I was raped and misused so he could angrily take his fury out on me.

I wanted to make a better life for you, but that was impossible with my mental illness.

PTSD. It can be damaging.

I don't know what was wrong with me.

I don't know what was wrong with my husband, your father.

For My Calm Sea

A Love Poem by your mother.

The Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

Joy is calm,

And so are you.

Orchids are white,

Ghost ones are rare,

Your mean is golden,

And so is your hair.

Magnolia grows,

With buds like eggs,

Muscles are smooth,

And so are your legs.

Sunflowers reach,

Up to the skies,

Rice is brown,

And so are your eyes.

Foxgloves in hedges,

Surround the farms,

Hours are long,

And so are your arms.

Daisies are pretty,

Daffies have style,

Your sun is dazzling,

And so is your smile.

The sea is beautiful,

Just like you."

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Allison cried because all she wanted was a shred of love from her mother.

No child wants to be told her mother doesn't love them, so she was happy to see this poem.

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Allison looks at the back, and it reads:

"I'm practically homeless. I want to be told if I can live in your home for a few weeks."

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Allison felt her heart warm up to a happy family with her mother.

Allison was always told by her adoptive father to forgive her mom and to go to Heaven, as God will only forgive if you forgive.

Allison chose to forgive her mom.

However, as a cautionary tale, this should not be paired with the abuser coming to live with you or hang with you as they are still evil, and wicked people play tricks with your mind to make you believe they love you and then use and abuse you.

Allison's husband was severely against her mother living with them.

Allison confronted her husband with the proposition.

Her mother had successfully caused her to reconsider her stance.

Allison just wanted her to stay there until she could find her mom a new home.

Brock was severely against the idea, as expected and as he should be.

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Brock made a crux of arguments like:

"What about the abuse?❗"

"Aren't you pregnant?❗"

"Don't you know that this is a terrible idea?❗"

"Think more clearly, Allison."

"Stop trying to move an abuser into our home, Allison❗"

"I'm tired of this."

"NO MOre OF ThIS CRAP❗"

"I don't like her, and I hate her; I would rather her die, leave us be❗ Let us have our child in peace and harmony❗"

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The Next Day...

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Allison's mother knocked on the door 10 times before Brock opened it and then slammed it in her face.

Allison opens it and says, "I'm not the monster you thought I was." Then let her mother in.

Allison hoped to become a good person in her mother's mind.

Brock yells, "You don't have to prove anything to your mother, dear❗."

Brock began to try to push her mother out of the home.

Allison pushed him into their bedroom and left him there.

Brock immediately ran out to not leave Allison, who is pregnant, alone with her abusive mother.

Brock says that "Look at what you are doing❗ A minute ago, you were ready-"

Allison shouted, "NO❗ We'll let her stay here until she can reach her feet."

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Brock:

"You were HORRIFIED OF YOUR ABUSIVE MOM; NOW SHE CAN STAY IN OUR HOUSE❗?"

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Allison paused, then told her mom, "I would love for you to find your own home."

She realized this wasn't the 100 percent best choice she had made.

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However, her mother made a thousand promises which made Allison let her stay.

BROCK WAS MADE TO SET A BEDROOM FOR MOLLY, ALLISON'S MOTHER.

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Brock did not enjoy endangering his wife whatsoever, so he installed locks on her mother's bedroom door and their bedroom door and bought pepper spray FOR ALLISON, WHICH HE FORCED HER TO KEEP ON HER FOR HER SAFETY.

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Molly felt very unwelcome.

Allison became more tolerant of her mother.

Allison shut up and chose to stay silent most of the time since, as an abused child, her mother hated it when Allison spoke about everything.

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Allison began to bond with her mother more by buying her gifts & Washing her feet, her husband, Brock, agreed to calm down & let this go on, in fear of his wife's anger towards him.

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Allison is tearing up in her bedroom with Brock. Allison had never imagined having this kind of relationship with her mom.

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Allison said with this overwhelming awkward sadness & happiness that...

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Allison:

"My mother was raped, & so I understood why she abused me.

She saw me as just a product of her rape, worth nothing in her eyes.

I made myself understand, sympathize, & forced myself to come to grips with the idea she'll never love me.

When I was five, I chose to believe I was worthless.

I chose to believe I was just like my dad & that I deserved suffering.

I made myself a scapegoat."

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Brock felt so sad for her, to hear how she subjugated herself to accept abuse as a lifestyle & chose to believe what her mother indoctrinated her to believe for something that wasn't her fault.

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God made her, so she wasn't a product of rape, she was a product of God's will.

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Brock says "God made you, so you can't be a product of rape, you're a product of God."

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Allison felt such a calm hearing that, believing God made her for a plan & purpose made her feel so much better about herself that she cried; it was joyous tears. "If you were conceived during a rape, that's not your fault," Brock said.

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To be continued...