Chapter 16: A Letter of Love and Death

"Dear Kiro

  I still remember the color of your path when we met, a glazing orange like sun. A straightforward journey without regrets

  I felt that is very beautiful

  Unlike me, who just follow the path which my eyes given to me, I felt empty but you thought me that even so I can still glamour like you.

  Might be that's the time where I fell in love with you.

  I tried to be the cool beauty you always admired

  The great friend you can always turn into 

  A woman who can support you

  Dear Kiro

  I am writing to you right now because I want to tell you that today is the best day of my life. I thought ill be only beside you yet you man up and suddenly. I feel so elated and happy yet at the same time I felt sad.

  Dear Kiro

  The reason I fell in love with you because of your dazzling path, yet why did you fade when you confess. I know you have your own burden. You have your own battles. That's why … I"

  The more that I read the blur it becomes due to my tears. 

  Hirai write to me

  Hirai

  I hold the letter tight putting it into my chest

  I want to go back

  I want to return

  I want time to stop

  To have Hirai be with me for eternity

  I am not dazzling Hirai

  Such thought went to my head

  I stand up and look at Hirai's mother who is crying in their house

  Hirai is gone

  "…"

  I know this will happen 

  I supposed to accept this kind of death already

  I supposed getting used to this pain

  Yet I can't 

  "I am not that strong you know"

  I muttered and walk away from her house, I am walking mindlessly

  I have nothing to go

  The once fear of death that grips my heart is gone, I am looking for a place to die

  When I first returned to death by Dyne the world hates me, but little and little that hatred disappear. I notice it after the death of my mother. The times I almost hit by flying things or accident happening was lessened. I thought that's just a coincidence but now that I confirmed it after Hirai's death. Even if I walk towards Death, nothing will happen.

  Why does my life spared when theirs are not

  "Why Dyne"

  I whispered as if talking to someone, suddenly I felt a glittering presence went beside me, emerald eyes look towards me as if pondering my whole being

  "Dyne"

  I called her name, not her real name. The name that I thought of because I can't hear her name completely.

  The little fairy in my front looks so glamourous even today and suddenly my knees give in and I lost my balance Dyne slowly catch me and embrace me. 

  This little fairy is always beside me when the world started to deny me and give me suffering

  "Dyne"

  Once again I called her name

  "Yes, Kiro"

  She answered with a sweet voice that tingles my thoughts

  "Please don't die"

  I whispered together with the silent cry of agony as I let myself fall into the deep slumber of despair and helplessness. 

  "Dear Kiro

I decided to end my life, not because I hate you or anything in fact I love you so much that I can have this kind of decision.

I love you so much that even death is not scary like they have said

I feel it's so calm and accepting

I am not giving up on you Kiro

But if I'll be ask, what should I choose between this life and yours. I will gladly choose yours Kiro

Because even if I go back to this point ill still make the same decision, to save you even its selfish, even its conceit, even its childish. I will always love you Kiro.

I wont be with you tomorrow, might be your crying when you read it

But know this Kiro, I did not regret loving you even if it still cause my death

Goodbye Kiro"

P.S 

When Death comes to me it felt so magical as if like you will be welcomed to a fairy tale