Chapter 13: Reflection

I open my eyes as I hear the bell from my school, its lunch. I don't want to get up.

I don't have the strength to get up.

As I murmur these a sudden tap wake me up and caught my attention. When I raise my head, I see an azure eyes that is blocked by lens with a hazel color hair in front of me.

"Hirai…"

I called, the school already knows my situation, they also advise me to take a time off to recuperate but I declined. If I stay in my house longer, ill be crazy in no time.

I tried to went back to sleep but hirai didn't let me.

"Let me… die"

I voiced out, its just a thought, maybe my inner monologue leak but its my honest thought. What is the point of living, my only mother dies when im not yet ready to lose her and … I.

"Kiro, let's eat"

With a blinding smile, Hirai open her lunch box and sit beside me. She didn't care about what I voiced out.

I raise my head and look at her when a chopsticks came to my view and a rice filled with meat enter my mouth.

Hirai did not say anything and continue to feed me.

I can feel the jealousy of others, I can feel their sympathy but they cannot feel my agony, my sadness.

"Kiro, wait for me after class ok"

Hirai said and went back to her seat and for me, I just nod and went back to sleep.

I am not attentive to the class, and the teacher doesn't care as if I didn't exist after all. Its fine, this is better than being the center of the attention.

Death…

I experienced it for how many times but why does the death of others hurt so much. Why does my mother need to die?

Asking those questions on my heart I look at the clock.

Class is over, time went by in a blink.

I get up sluggishly then suddenly my teacher called me.

"Kiro, come to my office right now"

I nod.

I'll be lectured this time.

I follow my teacher as I look down and stare at the floor

What is the point of living?

I thought

"Kiro"

Why am I not dead instead, I can save her. If only Dyne is here, If only I went back to time once again.

I can

"Mr. KIRO YOUGAZA"

A thunderous voice wake me up, then a reflection of my angry teacher comes to my view.

Its not anger, his look is …

Before I complete my thoughts. He suddenly wrap me in his arms. Tapping my back making me relieved.

I…

"WAAAAAAAAAAA"

I suddenly cried, Its not the first time I cried. I cried when I see my mother's last moment, I cried at her funeral. I cried on my bed and still im crying right now.

His reflection is blurred because of my tears.

Yet I know what his face looked like

Worried. Anxious. Concerned

"Kiro, if you need time, you can rest for a few days."

The teacher repeated

I wipe my tears with my hands and my sleeved became wet of this.

"No need sir, I can be more at ease with school and …"

There in a corner of my eyes, a beautiful girl with eye glasses is waiting for me. I bow at the teacher and went towards her.

"I am in grave situation but I think this place is fine. Thank you for your concern sir,"

***

"Kiro, you're such a crybaby hehe"

Hirai smiled at me and pass me a pretty handkerchief with a small h at the end.

"Thank you, Hirai for being with me at this times"

I said my heartfelt gratitude towards her.

"Your welcome, I am your best friend after all"

She smiled so lovely as if giving me hope once again.

***

Few days passed, Hirai continue to pamper and take care of me as and it help me to cope up with my situation.

I cannot still accept the death of my mother but it's a natural order in life. Death is a natural event. I need to step up and move on.

It's difficult, sometimes I feel on giving up but day by day ive been showered the beauty of life.

I never know, such world is beautiful.

It is because of Hirai,

She helped me at my worst.

She did not give up

She …

"Kiro?"

Stop these thought Hirai is my…

"Kiro?"

Hirai unexpectedly pull my cheek and then I see her pouting her lips. That's unfair Hirai, you are so cute that way.

"Wwwwhhhhhat is it Hirai?"

I fumbled my words and Hirai stare at me

"You're out of your mind again Kiro, what im telling you is we need to finish this project of ours."

She said as she fixed her hair and roll it on her finger

"Beautiful"

My thoughts leaked and I suddenly close my mouth

"Right"

Yet she just smiled at me.

Am I flirting with her? Or hitting her? It's my honest thought though

I laugh a bit then suddenly I am perplexed. A golden dust caught my attention and then I remember.

"Dyne"

I whisper and look at the window.

"Who?"

"My guardian fairy"

I smiled and we leave the classroom. We extend too much, it's almost dawn and I am walking with Hirai. It's as if we are in a ddddddate….

My face went red at the same time I held that thoughts, do I have feelings for her because she helped me get on my feet or because she is with me at my worst. Am I just getting carried away.

As I put my thoughts Hirai held my hand, I mean my finger.

"Kiro…"

She called my name but my thoughts are already blank.

"I am happy, knowing you and being with you know…"

She is saying shes happy im more than happy than her

"So… Kiro… I like you"

My thoughts stop as if, time froze in my end. The breeze of the wind and the sun going down make it a perfect scenario for confession and she confess

SHE CONFESS

"Uh ah.. eh WAA"

"Geez, Kiro. hehehe"

She pout and giggle, AAAAAAAAA shes so cute

"I …"

"Sorry did I surprise you? I surprise you fufufu"

Hirai is so playful today, she skip while we walk like a little girl.

I need to answer, I like her too

"Kiro, I like you!"

She said once again as she turn around and give a lovely smile yet…

What I see is her silhouette beneath my knowledge, so beautiful yet so tragic, a figure etched on my eyes with a tint of red blood flashing in front of me. Once again, I saw how beautiful death is